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If I was a cis man I think I'd be turned on by CBT like I just had an epiphany that I like sexual torture. Like obviously when the person is doing it for my pleasure not for solely their pleasure and we all concent and shit

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Proud to be a white guy with brown nipples 💪🏻

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I hope for me vaginal dryness wouldn't be too much of an issue where I can't be wet when I get turned on. It actually turns me even more on when my pussy is wet it's as if it's salivating for dick

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Keep in mind when I follow you I'm following you with my main blog @alan-p-49 bc this is a side blog that I've made where I vent on here because I feel like I'll exhaust everyone on main

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Anyone wanna be friends?

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Credit to moeai.art on Tik Tok

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Why am I horny when I am not okay?

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Why do I get horny at the thought of someone using me? What is wrong with me?

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Ok I think I do have a breeding kink but the thing is I don't want to actually have kids I just wanna pretend that the cum makes me pregnant so I started thinking if I could get lube that has the consistency of cum and just grab a syringe and then y'know

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Why do I get horny from thinking about getting abused again? Is it because deep down I think I'm only worth is sex? I do wanna be beaten and raped because I don't deserve anything good because I'm worthless. Even my boss thinks I'm inadequate. Maybe I should cut myself really badly before I go to work and show them that they're hurting me. I was so happy. I felt so useful. I want to make 600 USD a week again

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Why when I get horny I am full of dread?

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Idk I think I really was aroallo until trauma happened and now I'm aroace

Like bro when I was so horny when I was younger and before all this sa happened to me and I kind of want to go back to where I was okay with sex and all kinds of horny shit without having a chill down my spine or crying or fearing that I'll get hurt again

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Is it sexual assault when the person who did this to you loved you?

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I need to read metamorphosis (the hentai) but I think it would be very triggering for me

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Don't you hate it when you're horny and you just become blind to anything that would actually harm you? Especially when you're desperate for dick and validation?