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Your dislike or phobia for certain animals never outweights the animal's right to exist and live, i keep running into this behavior and i don't know why some folks never got to learn that. Who do you think you are

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Thank you for this!

This is what I've written today, from a zombie apocalypse AU

He leaned against the window now, cheek pressed to the cool glass as the world blurred past in streaks of green and grey. His thoughts skittered and broke apart as the car hummed beneath them, the steady rhythm of tires over asphalt pulling him in and out of awareness.

Up ahead, beyond the road, black smoke coiled into the pale sky. Seoul was burning.

He stared at it—unable to look away. The city he knew, the streets he’d wandered in better days, the alleys where he’d laughed and cried and fought… all of it collapsing in silence behind a curtain of fire and ash.

His thoughts drifted to her.

Eomma.

He imagined her small and hunched in that hospital bed, the sound of machines softly beeping around her, her thin hands curling in her lap. Could she see the fire? Could she smell the smoke? Did she know the world was ending just beyond the windows?

Was she afraid?

Or… had she already slipped away?

He wanted to believe she’d gone peacefully. That she wasn’t still lying there, terrified and alone, waiting to burn, or worse. It was easier to picture her unconscious—unaware of the chaos, untouched by it. The alternative… he couldn’t bear it.

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just thinking about how long hwang in-ho has been without hope, how long he's been treading the dark waters of his mind utterly succumbed to the lack of empathy and feeling and the disregard of humanity and their existence and then one man came along.

just one man.

a man who was kind, funny, loud, brash, smiled too big, laughed too loud, sought companionship with strangers, shouted up to the cameras when people were cruelly murdered and no one else cared. a man similar to him, who won the games, but instead of seeing humanity's cruelty he chose to see the good instead and wanted to save them from themselves. a confusing, baffling, irritating and stubborn enigma who he can't understand even though he obsessively and desperately wants to and he wants that man to see his point of view, to see the darkness he knows too well, even if a smaller part of him doesn't fully want to see the light go out in this beautifully wilful man. he persists anyway.

but what he doesn't know yet is how fully this enigma of a man is going to be his undoing. this one man in the billions out there is going to achieve the impossible and will shatter everything in-ho has held deep in his heart for years.

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what Inhun fanfics and Squid Game Season 3 have in common:

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If I see someone taking photos of anyone in a public toilet "just in case" they're trans, that person won't have a phone anymore

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"Inhun is never going to be canon, get over it "

Idc, I can still imagine them having the nastiest hate sex, the deepest philosophical conflict or the fluffiest domestic life.

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Spent all day figuring out Gi-hun's face with this light source. I think i need to dim the actual light now though, as it might be too bright. Next up - figure out In-ho with just a bit of moonlight (and maybe a bit of the light too, we'll see!)

Anyway, definitely happier with it this way round, it fits LBH's "I'm darkness and he's light" quote better.

Based on this story if anyone is interested

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He's so done with everything

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2 days left!! ✨✨

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Beb the most exposure I have to squid game is from you so sorry if this is a weird question: Would Gi-hun sort of get along with Henry Creel and/Eddie Munson? Like have a shared understanding of what being forced to do things you don't want to is like? What about In-ho? Either of them?

Okay I need to talk about how alike In-ho and Henry are!

So I’m not sure if you know, but in Squid Game season 2, In-ho’s number is 001. So both him and Henry are 001.

But besides the number, they just have so much in common that it’s insane.

Both In-ho and Henry were wronged in their earlier lives by the people who were more powerful than them — while Henry was seen as “a monster” due to his differences and locked away in the lab where he then endured abuse and torture ever since he was a literal child, In-ho was wrongly accused of bribery by the higher ups when he was a cop, which led to him losing his job and everything he’d dedicated his youth to.

But it’s not just a job that he lost, so In-ho’s pregnant wife was terminally ill — she needed a surgery in order to save her life and their unborn child. In-ho couldn’t afford the surgery, that’s when his friend lended him the money that was then seen as bribery. Cue he lost his job/his source of income.

Desperate to get enough money to save his family, In-ho joined the game (Squid Game) in 2015, canon timeline. Out of 456 Players, only one could survive and walk out with 45.6 billion won.

In-ho won, having seen and gone through the worst of human nature during his time in the game (people killing each other, doing whatever it took in order to survive), but by the time he returned home with the prize money that would save his wife’s life, it was already too late. She and the unborn child died. While the people who got him fired, police who actually are corrupt, remain untouched and in power.

Cue In-ho’s belief that people are bad, people are greedy. From his own words, people are trash.

Re: Henry’s monologue: ❝You see, humans are a unique type of pest, multiplying and poisoning our world all while enforcing a structure of their own. A deeply unnatural structure. Where others saw order, I saw a straitjacket. A cruel oppressive world dictated by made-up rules. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, decades. Each life a faded, lesser copy of the one before. Wake up, eat, work, sleep, reproduce and die. Everyone is just waiting. Waiting for it all to be over. All while performing in a silly, terrible play, day after day. I could not do that. I could not close off my mind and join in the madness. I could not pretend.❞

So Henry and In-ho share the same beliefs, same ideology.

Not only are they both victims who choose to respond to the world that has wronged them with violence, both of them also tried to help others in their shoes.

With Henry, he tried to help Eleven escape the lab, help her live the life that was robbed from him, a good life he could no longer have. In doing so, he was willing to let her leave him behind. As long as she got to live a good life and be happy, even if it meant he remained a prisoner of the lab and Doctor Brenner.

Eleven rejected him and his help. (She technically didn't, but things still went downhill; season 4 episode 7.)

Henry becomes Vecna, Eleven ends up as his enemy because she doesn’t see things the way Henry does, doesn’t agree with the way Henry responds to pain and trauma with violence and deaths of the innocent. Eleven doesn’t think people are bad.

With In-ho, he tried to urge Gi-hun into getting on that plane and going back to his daughter’s life. Tried urging Gi-hun to live the life that was robbed from In-ho, a good life In-ho could no longer have (a fatherhood In-ho could never experience), telling Gi-hun not to look back. And in doing so, In-ho was willing to let Gi-hun leave the game — leave him — behind. As long as Gi-hun got to live a good life and be happy, even if it meant In-ho remained a prisoner of the game and the VIPs.

Gi-hun turned down In-ho's advice (In-ho's attempt to help).

In-ho becomes the Front Man, Gi-hun ends up as his enemy because Gi-hun doesn’t see things the way In-ho does, doesn’t agree with the way In-ho responds to pain and trauma with violence and deaths of the innocent. Gi-hun doesn’t think people are bad.

Both In-ho’s and Henry’s stories are tragic. I’m not denying that they both have done terrible things, but their actions still do not erase the fact they are victims of the people who are more powerful than them. Henry’s a victim of the lab and Doctor Brenner, while In-ho’s a victim of the game, the VIPs and the entire system.

Thus both of them see the world and people the same way, from their own trauma, people are bad and the world is rotten.

Then you have Gi-hun and Eddie.

These two are, on the other hand, humans equivalent of Golden Retrievers.

Gi-hun isn’t as happy and cheerful as he used to be in the past, unfortunately, it’s understandable — considering everything Gi-hun went through, having lost his daughter, mother, best friend, childhood friend and everything. But before the game, Gi-hun was just this happy little dude, he was kind (he still is) and he always saw the best in people, always smiling even if life was unkind to him. Just like Eddie.

Another thing Gi-hun and Eddie have in common is that people saw them as “losers”. Eddie fell behind in school while Gi-hun was addicted to gambling. They didn’t make the best life choices, but regardless they didn’t care what people thought about them, didn’t care about social expectations, and they were happy. Literally too good for this world.

I could see Gi-hun get along and be best buddies with Eddie. While In-ho and Henry should either go see a therapist together or just talk about their shared trauma, issues and feelings.

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Lee Byung-hun says In-ho feels "a slight wavering of heart" because of Gi-hun. And then Lee Jung-jae says Gi-hun "is shaken up" by Front Man/In-ho's humanity?

I AM GOING INSANE

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rewatched season 2 and was struck by how no-eul, like in-ho, has some sort of faith or belief in the ‘goodness’ of the games.

he thinks he’s helping the select few to better their miserable life.

she thinks she’s helping by putting these people out of their misery.

in-ho may still be swayed to help gi-hun.

no-eul is helping gyeong-seok survive.

it would be so amazing for them all to help each other in the end… till s3 comes out im gonna stay hopeful

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this photo is absolutely insane and i want to personally shake the photographers hand because what the fuck

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honestly the discourse on this site is so bad that I have a new hot take: if you use tumblr at all fuck you

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The Venture Bros. Season 1 Episode 12 "Trial of the Monarch"

Just a Dr. G dump because I love her, next up is the Monarch himself!

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holy shit that was easier than I thought it would be! now to fix those shadows!

back on my "I'll illustrate my own fics, or at least start to then probably forget/give up half way/ bullshit.

Anyway, I had fun drawing the knife reflecting one of the creatures from the shadow realm in Thinning Veil, so if I do nothing else, I've done that!

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trying to figure out where the shadows and highlights go is my absolute least favourite thing

And godDAMN. I should have really drawn In-ho with the knife and Gi-hun with the light (even though they both use both in the story)

Thank god for cut and paste, I guess

back on my "I'll illustrate my own fics, or at least start to then probably forget/give up half way/ bullshit.

Anyway, I had fun drawing the knife reflecting one of the creatures from the shadow realm in Thinning Veil, so if I do nothing else, I've done that!