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[albert-dasilvaa]

@kingofsantafe

just so you know this was written about ✨you✨

:) <3

“I was abused so I can’t be an abuser” is the most bullshit statement I’ve ever heard. An ex boyfriend of mine was abused a large majority of his childhood and guess what? He still beat the shit out of me almost everyday!! So clearly your argument is invalid!!! Don’t act like you’re immune to anger, violence, and mental health issues just because you’ve experienced abuse. Fucking get the help you need before you start getting worse and hurting people more than you already are. Until then, stay the fuck away from the people I care about

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me, reading through my old posts on this blog from when i was emotionally unstable - jesus christ dude, just take your prozac and go to bed

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figured y’all might want an update on my dumb ass since it’s been a hot minute since i’ve done anything other than yell at that anon last week.

hey dudes how’s it going? i’m shockingly enough doing great, life has been p nice to this dumb bitch

in december things were still shit but my sister was home for a few weeks which was sick as hell

january i turned seventeen and had a little dinner with very close family friends n it made me soft. my cousin and her husband also moved just five minutes away from me so i get to see two of my favorite people all the time now!! i also got two hamsters and i would lay down my entire life for those rats

february i got my little baby son peanut (a little netherland dwarf rabbit) and i would also die for him in a heartbeat. i also passed my criminal justice b level class which means i got to start start taking college level courses in criminal justice!!

i went back to new york in march with my mom and sister and i got to see my whole entire favorite person ( @savory-n-sweet ) again and got to see two of my whole entire favorite broadway shows (still shed a tear when i think about it)

then in april (which is ironically sexual assault awareness month) i was finally able to press charges against my rapist and get a restraining order, so i never have to see that rat bastard again. i also went back to camp and made even more friends and came to the shocking realization that i am so much more of a mom than i ever previously thought haha. the maternal instincts have really taken a front seat these past few weeks. i also got to see hamilton at the fisher theater in detroit and my theater nerd loving self had a fantastic time with my friends

and this month i went to prom, reconnected with tons of old friends, and i got approved for a study abroad trip my senior year. i still haven’t decided what country i wanna go to yet so i’m still researching. so far russia is a top five choice.

i know that next month is going to be really rough for me, so i already made plans to fly down to texas and i’ll be spending a few days with my aunt and my cousins. keep my mind focused on adorable little babies instead of the sad stuff y’know. but other than the future speed bump that i know is coming, things are really looking up for me. i think i’m finally becoming the person i’ve wanted to be for a very long time :)

i hope you’re all doing well!! i’ve said it before, but if you ever wanna talk, don’t hesitate to message my @sugar-salt-n-spice blog!

💗 joannah 💗

(pics of my children for those who are curious)

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Nobody wants you around, just kill yourself already.

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indefinite hiatus

so nobody really cares since i rarely post on this blog anyways, but i’m going on a hiatus.

my physical and mental health have gotten to a point where i am finding it hard to function, and the stress of this stupid blog is not something i need right now. i’m really sorry if this blog somehow entertains you, and i’m sorry that it’s been such a downer recently, i wish i could be better.

right now i just need to focus on getting physically well enough to take care of my family and my mental health. i hope you understand

thanks

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“I was abused so I can’t be an abuser” is the most bullshit statement I’ve ever heard. An ex boyfriend of mine was abused a large majority of his childhood and guess what? He still beat the shit out of me almost everyday!! So clearly your argument is invalid!!! Don’t act like you’re immune to anger, violence, and mental health issues just because you’ve experienced abuse. Fucking get the help you need before you start getting worse and hurting people more than you already are. Until then, stay the fuck away from the people I care about

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I’m fucking crying wow thank you so much for this, I loved turning on my phone to see all this