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[alchemicverse]

Shake and Fall

It seems when you're away

I find so much more I'd like to say

But can't

When I reach for my phone

I remember why I'm left alone

And then

Shake head to lose the thought

It falls from my skull into my throat

As lead

So my speech freezes hard

Quickly, coldly knocked back to the start

Shot dead

And I die at ev'ry ending

It seems when you're away

I find so much more I'd like to feel

But can't

When I reach for my phone

I remember why I'm still alone

And then

Shake core to lose the love

It falls from my heart into my gut

As pain

Even eating becomes hard

Quickly, dizzy held onto the wall

So drained

And sleep becomes my landing

It seems you never stay

I find so much time I'm by myself

But not

When I reach for my phone

I remember that you aren't home

And then

Shake head to try to cope

Love falls from me along with light

As lost

So my mask rises hard

Quickly, coldly walled off tender heart

Hope's cost

And dreams become demanding

It seems I'll need to change

I find so much more I wish I'd done

But can't

When I check on my phone

I remember how I feel alone

And then

Shake hands to try again

Connection falls between us cold

As lies

Even hopeful words dismissed

Quickly, sharply see and reminisce

Your eyes

And pain beckons the ending

It seems I'm on my own

I find so many things to share

But can't

When I unlock my phone

I remember all unsaid, unknown

And then

Shake head to start anew

Dreams fall to truth too cruel

To voice

Try to sever love from me

Quickly, deeply realize no part is free

No choice

And love becomes remembering

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(via Good Morning, Moribund) Shared from alchemicverse.blog Good Morning, Moribund 1am awake again At 3 and 4 and 5 Soaked in freezing nightmare Body shaking half alive I heard your voice say no So loud I sat up with a start Looked around my empty room And completely fell apart – Good morning, moribund Will the sun find me today Or will the echo of your voice Turn every scene to gray What can I do It’s just the truth Good morning, moribund – 7 coffee outside to smoke Bird trills mask ‘no’s refrain Shifting clouds that match my breath Join shifting clouds colored the same Fill my chest and break my voice Both smoke and loss combined Leave in past with all the rest I once held close in mind – Good morning, moribund Will I ever find my way Or will the echo of you send me Back from whence I came What can I do I’m failing you Good morning, moribund – 9am bring interruption Best mask of lifted chin Push to the end of busy day And then crumble within 6pm distraction driving Sore eyes track sunsets slide Slowly watch the colors shift Accept at least I tried – Good evening, moribund Will you take the time to say Or just leave it up to silence To starve in time’s decay What can I do I’m out of moves Save mourning moribund – 1am awake again No sleep to interrupt Unbidden comes the “no” so loud Wound’s opening abrupt I wish with last of crazy faith For all I wish were real To live the dream I can’t erase Or closure’s no to heal – Good morning, moribund Getting too hard to stay Words said and more withheld Weave your echo through my day What can I do God I’ll miss you Love always, moribund x

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[alchemicverse]

Sky's Violence

40 lat southwest to truth Nerves alive to know what feels I shake the sky to reach you Turbulence rocks wings to wheels

Rise 30 thousand feet Seek to know if this can heal The sky shakes me from dreaming To won'dring what is real

- Reject the next repeat And see me with your eyes Watch while for my next feat I'll retake the sky I shake the sky -

30 more to wheels down Goosebumps betray my firm facade Sky's violence unearths prayer 20 years since I've sought God

Gales battering the descent Blinding dust storm cleared at dawn The shaking still so recent 10 minutes finding calm

- Steady too your shaking And see me in your eyes Watch while for my next feat I'll remake the sky I shake the sky -

Prayers reply Girl look alive It's the last 5

Claim my baggage after landing Touch the ground your feet share 20 odd miles of driving Building the courage to lay bare The truth of - 40 lat southwest to thirty two 30 seconds would be enough 20 mistakes left to start anew 10 pleas to rebuild trust - Steady, love, that fearful heart Just 5 minutes left to ride Hard endings lead to brand-new starts With eyes curious and wide I left fear in the sky

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In Golden Hour

Unspoken pain rolled dense like the snow Drifts deep and wide that line streets we know When it's too painful to even think Into the couch and phones we all sink

Anchors of false famil'yar stillness Weighted by the lead of doubt's illness Sit and sink and dream of futures lost Pain compels stagnation at all cost

Until sinking burns In golden hour The ruin that's earned From fallen tower

It smells like rising from the ashes It looks like searing lightning's flashes It tastes like blood's copper on the tongue It feels like coughing water from lungs

Every tear shed one less inner wound The room for warm seasons to renew Resistance looks like feeling freely Love that's found in giving and healing

What's given returns In golden hour Reborn from urn To quiet power

When the sink is drained and rubble cleared The waves ridden dissolve ev'ry fear Riding the inertia of the rise Allows us to see beyond our eyes

It smells like new trees after Spring's rain It looks like building from joy and pain It tastes like crow and authentic words It feels like first drink in years of thirst

A mind that discerns In golden hour A heart that has learned Death can grow flowers

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Soul's Secret

There's something truly no one knows I'll never tell you where it is Beating heart that yearns for stillness And a promise to obtain this

In the shape of midnight silence A comfort like a knife at hand A guarantee no one can take A planned and practiced escape plan

The razors edge of life revealed A narrow chasm here to there Temptation high at lowest guard Feeling ease where I should be scared

Follow fault lines to the bottom Leave bloody markers on the trail Hold that promise of an ending Drag my fingertips on the veil

I wish I could be someone else Who knows nothing about this place Who's strong heart beats in perfect time With the love of life in mine displaced

In the shape of midnight silence There's something truly no one knows Comfort in controlling outcomes The choice that ends all winding roads

To find where the pain meets the veil The choice that leads us all to home Releasing every attachment to self Lose all we are to the unknown

Beating heart that yearns for stillness Leave no markers to show the way Take your self-love to what you crave Where you are all and nothing stays

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“I am learning to love the sound of my feet walking away from things not meant for me.”

— Unknown

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Quiet Truth

The rain is driving blindness While I'm driving to feel free The hammering on the windshield Makes it difficult to see

Between the deluge showers Flash silence deafens instantly And in my mind I see your eyes Looking through if not to me

When all is quiet what I know Comes through to clear my fear Knowing that this means you're safe When you wake, I'll still be here

The soul is driving kindness While I'm driving love that stays When hammering on the dashboard Makes it hard to feel OK

When soaking in the showers Feels more safe than hoping may And in my mind I dry your eyes Take your hand awhile and say

When all is quiet what I know Comes through, you're all I hear Knowing that I need to be brave When you wake, I'll still be here

The light is driving to find us While I'm driving you back home The hammering on the windshield Doesn't register at all Between the deluge showers No rain or silence can compete With music; turn to meet your eyes Smiling back from the front seat

When all is quiet what I know Comes through to show what's near I keep my promises; I stay When you wake, I will be here

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Just a simple message today.

You are worth it. You are important. You are not a waste in any way. I love you. No matter what.

<3 love, Orie

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Canary

Quiet days feel worse than before Hovering softly by the door Or window staring out

Simple pleasures that help restore Rarely do much anymore to Displace the waves of doubt

A stranger wand'ring her own house Caged songbird eager to be doused In sunlight, a new route

She moves as silent as a mouse A spectre of a broken spouse What's left to talk about

Discomfort in waiting might just kill her Canary in the mine long since distressed Years deprived of air and falling silent Awoke frantic to flee this hateful nest Flee to find love and moment's rest

She fills the time with distraction Looks away to hide reactions Locked in limbo dreaming

Muted in dissatisfaction Seeing that it's all transaction Inside she is screaming

A breath outside the cage past due Book time away to find a new Horizon redeeming

Or else silent waiting might just kill her Canary at the entrance of the mine Blinded by the years so dark and silent She fiercely beats back fear to grow a spine Remember how to fly to your timeline Quiet days can feel better soon When her song and self have the room Authentic, living light

Thrilling pleasures so in tune Love of life that makes her swoon What if all is alright

Beloved flying by the moon To the winds she's been so attuned Wings stronger from the fight

The comfort in creating will fulfill her No canary but a muse in distress Years deprived of her song filling silence Awake and flying free to build her nest Free to find true love manifest

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May we raise children who love the unloved things

by Nicolette Sowder

May we raise children

who love the unloved things –

The dandelion, the worms & spiderlings.

Children who sense the rose needs the thorn

And run into rainswept days

The same way they turn towards sun…

And when they’re grown

And someone has to speak for those

Who have no voice

May they draw upon that wilder bond,

Those days of tending tender things

And be the ones.

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SL

Stitches were sewn by some two-legged swine Salt stinging the seam that seals song divine Her tears spilling silently slide into the brine Siren strapped smartly to silver shoreline

She's seen slowly scratching the silent cape Soft strips of sand split by deep sunken scrape Shaking fingers sift soaked silt to escape Low shoreline before tide's surge suffocates

Surely some stranger sails swiftly to aid Snip stiches, share solace in love that saves Surrounding in safety, her song conveyed Before slate seas shower her head in waves

Struggling still striving so steadily drained Sinking her lower, she's seizing with pain Sputtering swallows of sea spray and rain Savor last sniff in the time that remains

Spots in her eye searing spirals that spun Seawater seeps beyond stitches to tongue Supplanting the space inside of her lungs Shivering sadly suspended and hung

Suddenly sunlight and shifting of weight Sweeping retreating reversing in state Shores rise to landmass and to sweet air's taste Saved to sever the stitches on lips laced

Lightly looking at love's lucid concern Loneliness loosened, no labor to earn Unlacing the lips lithely living to learn Listening lively to her lament in return

No lesser the length of the ladder's climb Too late to linger, love longing for time Luck leading lavishly to life sublime Liberate lost sirens lifted from the brine

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Rain Walk

In the endless inner finding Cruel distraction becoming blight Vignettes of shame scroll by blinding Veiling the stars, distort their light

Sleeplessness carries body to The dim marquis, my misspelled name Out from under this shelter to Feel warm fingers of tonight's rain

They imprint the fiber pattern Of my shirt to slickened skin Begging Mother Nature's power Please protect me, shield, soak in

Eyes twitching behind closed lids Spasm with memory's rhythm Flickering moods of dream forbid Any comfort packaged with them

The rain soaks and chills me down to Bone's core, hair sticking to my form Picture your hands holding me too Your strength containing inner storm

But no one is with me holding My eyes reopen seeking signs Sharp vignettes of shame still scrolling The stars are empty, so am I

Watching blankly over my walk Moving so slowly in the dark Entranced as fading voices talk Between roars of rain on rock

Compelled still seeking your refuge High winds vivisecting my wails Crying from the cliffs the deluge Blind to the edge, losing the trail

Falling and flying feel just the same Alight on a moment between Plummeting, still holding your name Remembering your face unseen

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“What if I write it and it’s bad-”

WHAT IF YOU WRITE IT AND ITS GOOD? WHAT IF YOU WRITE IT AND ITS EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANTED? WHAT THEN????

[alchemicverse]

Be Reborn

Endless power Solar storm Miracle hour Blinding warmth Made to cower Shrinking form Rise and tower Be reborn

Newly waking Find your stride Sternum quaking Raise your eyes Blurred and baking In Horizon's tide End the aching Find your pride

At razors edge Most swift and low The narrow ledge The crags below Sun's fading wedge Stretching shadows Wind of night fledged Fade to glow

Seizing shrieks Rust and wear Slow drip leaks Beyond repair Sun now sleeps If feels unfair Intrusive thoughts creep Mixed with prayer

White waters of thought Slow to remorse Fear the years wrought Imprisoned by force Trapped and caught The Sun took his course A thousand times While you fought

Today is won Bliss blooms brief But you belonged In warmth and relief Of radiant Sun Longer than grief In moonrise reborn

Become stars and belief

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Be Still

Be still

Freeze solid

Put the light out

Be still

Raging inside

Eroding my mind

Trade - Laughter for longing, a stick figure drawing

Fractured and fawning

Be still

Reveal

Stand solid

Bathe in moonlight

Reveal

Reigniting

Love and lightning

From - Darkness to flashes

An outline in ashes

Thunderous crashes

Reveal