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I genuinely mourn the person I could have been.

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i can't keep living like this!!! [does not change a single aspect of my life]

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I want to live, but I don't see the point in it. The happy moments are incredibly brief. Meanwhile, the all-consuming sadness, disappointment, emptiness, fear, seems almost constant.

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death isnt enough. i need to never have existed

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maybe i was meant to be alone

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just came to the realization that even if i’m no longer a fat fuck i’ll still be hideous and nauseating to look at

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oh God I've gained sm weight but school is over for good, hopefully it'll be easier to ⭐ in uni?

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I am still alive!!! sadly

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my brother called me fat and my dad agreed that I've gained weight I can't take it anymore I'm so useless I feel like I'm faking. anyways guess who's not recovering anytime soon

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my old crush is talking about how he wants to lose weight and I'm holding back so much from telling him all my 4n4 advice

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IN RECOVERY !!! VENT TW

as a cosplayer, just looking up “(character) cosplay” to collect audios for my own cosplay is worse thinspo than i will EVER find on tumblr and i hate it. why is every other cosplayer so much skinnier than i am? i hate it so much

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I'm back, fuck recovery tbh.

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the warmer seasons are almost here which are great for ana!

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class? more like time to write down meansp0

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nothing like exercising and drinking water from your comfort character cup

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why do I feel lightheaded and breathless when exercising even lightly?? I used to be able to flawlessly dance for hours...

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so jealous of people with thigh gaps, I can't ever get one cause of my bone structure...