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"" BUT DADDY I LOVE HER ""

Painting 🎨

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hi besties in my phone. i hope today is so so good to you. i hope something special happens to remind you that it’s not always bad. ily.

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I MADE IT. HOME SWEET HOME. I NEVER WANT TO DO THAT AGAIN AND WILL IN FACT DO IT IN LIKE 2 WEEKS.

Thank u all for coming on this journey with me ily 💜

I am so stressed???

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Here is the little thing I wrote on the plane. I just wanted to make Miles sad and suffer.

He picks up the phone. Presses 3. It rings. And rings. And rings. The voicemail answers. The person you have dialed is not available. He listens and hangs up before the beep.

The brownstone creeks around him. Dust catches in the moonlight, shining on the mantle.

Her slip is in his room. A white puddle on the floor. His shirt isn’t pressed. Isn’t washed. Crumpled next to hers. From the other night; their last night.

The electronic orchestra ringtone shatters the stillness. The phone begins to vibrate off the desk. And for a split second, he thinks maybe she’s returning the missed call.

Author's notes under the cut.

I have no idea how much time passed in game between ep 37 and the s2 finale, but in my head it's not a whole lot. Which means in my little canon divergent situation where Miles and Elsa were together, he lost Marcos and Elsa basically back to back. I also wanted to play his reliance on Marcos a bit and highlight his absence. I couldn't remember exactly when Miles got the new haven either.

Marcos is Miles' number 2 speed dial. Elsa is 3.

Ps pls don't judge my voicemail notes. It's been a long ass time since I've left a voice mail. Also I was born in 98 so forgive me if it's not period accurate.

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2/3 flights conquered. I actually slept on the plane by some miracle?? I am now stateside and have an auntie anne's pretzel which is a weakness of mine though the quality varies wildly. I spend almost all of my conscious time on the long haul flight thinking about path of night. I even wrote a little bit *gasp*

I also reread almost all of my wips and im like damn some of this needs a bit of polishing and it could be published. Don't ask me when that will happen. And like 90% of it is smut.

I am so stressed???

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study partners

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-Exandria Unlimited: Kymal, Part 1

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i have this disease called i will open your message and get distracted and forget to reply and then the notification will be gone so i will not have replied for ages and you will think i am ignoring you but. i am not. it’s incurable

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Thinking again about how Mollymauk reacts to Caleb's decision in episode 21. He sees how much Caleb agonizes over it, how panicked he is at the thought of anyone else having access to such a powerful relic--one for communing with a Betrayer god.

But there's something to be said I think, for how Molly's primary concern here isn't over the risks presented by the artifact itself. It's that Caleb feels the need to shoulder the weight of another burden all alone--how potentially self-destructive it could be. He wants Caleb to let it go, because it's not worth losing him to this.

The way he says, gently, "Mr. Caleb...There's only so many burdens we're expected to bear before we're asking for failure."

This coming from Mollymauk, who only made it this far because the circus found him, took care of him. Because he had a family to look out for him, ensure that he never had to feel alone or Empty again.

And it's only now, looking back, that I realize this scene feels very reminiscent of Molly's own "choir practice." For a time, he did try to bear the weight of every burden alone, laid his life on the line time and again. Always running off into the night alone, lying to the rest of the circus about where he'd go.

And it wasn't until Yasha interfered that he finally accepted anyone's help, that he realized he didn't have to get himself killed facing all of it alone:

"This is my choir practice. I know what the others think, but the truth is...How do I put this...The world is harsh and cruel, and I don't seem to be able to just walk on by. You see a wrong? You fix it." "We fix it. You're not doing this alone anymore, got it?"

There's also the implication to me that Molly was recklessly throwing himself into danger time and time again because his grief for Lestera was still so raw and gutting. It ultimately is self-destructive, what he's doing; trying to save everyone else, but letting himself bleed out. Distancing himself from the rest of the circus, disappearing into the night. The fact that it was only a matter of time before his luck ran out--

Mollymauk trying to take care of Caleb, the way Yasha did for him. Telling him that it's alright, he can lay down all the weight he's carrying. He doesn't have to martyr himself, to suffer all alone anymore.

And even though he tells Caleb to give up the bowl, he does try to reassure him a bit--let him know that his instincts weren't wrong, and his concerns are valid. "Oh no, I'm with you." When Beau takes Caleb aside and he's getting stressed, Molly yells, "You were right, Caleb! You're just a shitty communicator!" Anyway, just. I love those little moments when Molly tries to reach out to his Magician--

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I fell asleep between the last stop and the airport so 2 hours of sleep. I am dying. But we made it. Also Berlin so has it figured out when it comes to security. Now i wait 🫠🫠

I am so stressed???

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Border check did not take an obscenely long time. Bad news is its fucking freezing on the bus. Someone asked to turn off the AC in German then English. Drivers are Czech. And one went Zima!! Loudly. And i wanted to be like ANO PROSÍM JE ZIMA!!!! 😭😭 i am suffering. But I did not. Instead i am covering myself with my dresses that i packed.

I am so stressed???

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I love you too

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For the record, the odds of Fjord rolling nat ones on all three throws at the Harvest Close trebuchet game is one eighth of a percent.

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Made the bus. Only want to puke a little.

Pls give us all ur hopes and prayers we dont get stopped at the german border. And if we do get stopped that it will be fast.

I am so stressed???

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I am so stressed???

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I DONT WANNA PAY BILLS I WANNA USE MY MONEY FOR FOOD AND LIL GIFTS FOR MYSELF AND MY LOVED ONES