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quickly

I am working on a personal project to practice in a program I've never used. What items in cult of the lamb would be funny if you found them in a trash can?? I already have a letter from ratoo asking where his brother is, a scrapbook of shamura's memories (lol), one of the unused crowns from the artbook and a follower egg. But I want to fill as much space as possible for this stupid thing

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All of your bishops are so skrunkly and I love it. So! This is how I rank them.

S tier- Shamura(The amazingly chill little guy. I could go to them for therapy and feel better cuz I saw them no matter what they say), Leshy (Legit just worm on a string. Idk how to describe its just the energy), Heket(she feels like the chill wine aunt that also smokes weed), Kallamar (I just love him)

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Narinder tier- Narinder (I wanna punch him but also put him in my pocket. He's so low he gets his own tier. I hate him so much that I love his snarky ass)

SKRUNKLY IS SUCH A GOOD WORD, THANK YOU-- THIS IS SO FUNNY TO ME CAUSE THIS IS SO CLOSE TO BEING MY PERSONAL BISHOP TIER LIST, JUST IN GENERAL REGARDLESS OF HCS. The only difference is that leshy and heket are switched for me, but otherwise it's this same order. I don't dislike any of the bishops by any means, idk if there's a single character I outright dislike in this game (BESIDES MIDAS AND MAYBE SHRUMY) but I for sure have a slight hierarchy going on lmaooo. I appreciate you taking the time to rank my versions of the bishops, I love your analysis and love that narinder got his OWN tier KJDFHKJSD-- I wanna write more but I am so wore out from today that I'm not forming words that make sense???

HOWEVER. The phrase "heket feels like the chill wine aunt that also smokes weed" was for some reason really funny to me and I made this crusty ms paint jpeg image of her live laugh lighting a spliff because that's what weed smoking wine aunts do in my experience

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I wanted to wait until your birthday, but I got too impatient so I’m putting this right here-

I based Heket off of those little Desert Rainfrogs and I added Shamura in for funsies ^^ (I wanted to draw them as a black widow, but I couldn’t get a good reference of a black widow’s face)

NO WAYYY LOOK AT THEM, I'M SO GLAD YOU SENT THIS IN EARLY BECAUSE I LOVE THIS SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA. I am weak to all and any art of the bishops as funny little critters tbh, ESPECIALLY MY TWO FAVES BECAUSE FROGS AND SPIDERS ARE JUST SUCH AWESOME ANIMALS TBH?? Thank you so so much for this, I kept thinking about it while running errands today kjhsdfkfj- during my free time I worked on desert rain frog heket to match yours, with the addition of black widow mura because I was doodling them last week!

Been wanting to draw shamura doing more art stuff, and imagining them as a tiny spider weaving blankets on a tiny loom was too cute to pass up. Heket as the smallest/cutest yet temperamental frog is the funniest possible species choice for her, you have good taste LMAO

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The way you draw Narinder infuriates me. And that isn’t meant as an insult. Every time you draw his smug face it pisses me off so bad, and based on your other posts about him I think you do it on purpose. So I want to tell you that it’s working. He ruins my day every time. And I really love your art style.

Okay you had me in the first half, I was SO sure this wasn't going anywhere pleasant but I started laughing my ass off as soon as I got to the third sentence. THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I'M GOING FOR WHEN IT COMES TO NARINDER, just a guy that you want to tie into a pretzel out of anger and throw into a brick wall because you'd do anything to wipe that smug grin off his face. But he just keeps on smiling......because he KNOWS his job as the death god means he's technically too important to be killed off. Bro can get away with aNYTHING and it's the WORST!!

I posted the leshy autism shirt thing earlier and it's actually from a sketch dump of all the bishops wearing stupid shirts I found on the blog "shirts that go hard", here's the narinder one especially for you because he pisses me off too </3

(idk why it's a crop top I just thought it'd be funny, plus he's way taller than everyone else so I don't think regular clothes would fit him right)

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got back from my 2nd show rlly tired and i see one of my favorite artists have posted?? thanks, this will fuel me for my show tomorrow

hope your vacation went well and wish you a full recovery from the chaos in your life :DDD

Rest well tonight and I wish you luck on your show tomorrow, if you've already done two of them I know you're gonna kill it on the third one!! I can't say I know much about musicals if that's what you're referring to, but I used to do concerts (was a violinist/pianist/harp player in school) and the last show is generally the easiest imo- you've already learned from the last performances what works/doesn't work and you know the end is coming up so it feels less stressful than the previous ones. You can just put your all into it, pass out that night and wake up the next day knowing the hard part is over!

I haven't been able to draw much new art because things keep getting crazier over here but the vacation WAS pretty sweet and I DID start a comic the other day to keep me from losing my shit during the storm. THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MUSICALS BUT IF MY UNRELATED, UNFINISHED FANART CAN IN ANY WAY BRING YOU JOY, THAT'S ALL I COULD WANT TBH

I did the lines for this but the power grid went out and they are gone now......which is the funniest possible way I could've lost art progress on a tornado comic tbh

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Boo! Birthday Heket be upon ye

I’m either too early or too late but either way I crashed back into your inbox like the kool aid man to say I hope you had a nice birthday!:D and that your are enjoying or have enjoyed your trip!

Didn’t have much energy to do a digital drawing so markers to the rescue to make it look a little nicer-

Really wanted to make something a little special just because your shamura drawing literally gave me sanity I swear- things just kept getting worse so I would just pull out the drawing and stare at it and I would feel a little better and judging by how things are going I’ll be doing that a lot more for as weird as that sounds-

Okay I not only missed out on the previous heket drawing but A SECOND HEKET DRAWING AS WELL?? I heavily regret not checking my inbox sooner cause I was missing OUT dude omg. My birthday is on may 2nd so you're not too late, I used up like alllllllllll my money on that cali trip so I was fully expecting the celebration to be over already, but the party was in my inbox the whole time????

Thank you sincerely for the b-day art, I get real fuckin moody on like ALL my birthdays because I spend em alone and am always broke so I usually just sit with my own thoughts every may 2nd. I'm honestly tempted to just start asking y'all if I can print your drawings and put them on my wall or something because it's like the highlight of my day when someone draws me something. Even if it's a mutual interest I'm still like THIS VIDEO GAME FROG DRAWING...WAS FOR ME SPECIFICALLY...AND THAT MAKES ME WANT TO LOOK AT IT FOREVER.

I'm very glad the shamura drawing helped you feel better despite everything, this one definitely perked me up so I'm just happy the feeling is mutual!! Dw about sounding weird cause I'm just glad my mura blessing art could do you some good. I'm sorry things kept getting worse on your end, I know I can't really do anything besides offer my support through text but I'm like manifesting good things happening to you with my limited powers. I'm telepathically beaming good vibes into your mind >:)

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Shamura angst kills me. Also, I hope you enjoy your vacation!! If you ever see this ask, here’s a little Heket for you!! :]

WAAAAAH I WAS PUTTING OFF SCROLLING DOWN MY INBOX, AND I CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED OUT ON THIS. LOOK AT HER!!!!!! I ACTUALLY ADORE THIS SO MUCH I'M NOT EVEN SURE WHAT TO SAY, I'm just like a massive fan of frogs and my whole room is decorated like a swamp + I have multiple pet frogs so you could say I enjoy amphibians. So seeing one of my favorite bishops AS A REGULAR LITTLE FROG IS. HFDSKJHFJSDKA?? I want to hold her in my hand and feed her waxworms as a treat. I really appreciate you taking the time to draw me a tiny little heket with the best features frogs tend to have (pouty mouth + beady eyes!!!!) and I am so sorry it took me so long to respond to this. I've been having a weird time lately and this made me smile irl so thank you

(Do you mind if I make this a sticker and put it on my printer?? I just got accepted to table at a zine fest in a few months so I'm trying to make my printer all cute to feel more inclined to actually start making comics again. I have a few frogs on there so far but this one is a MUST if you're okay with it)

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I. Got misophonia and mesothelioma confused for a second and was VERY confused why you gave it to Shamura.

IF YOU OR A LOVED ONE HAS BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH MISOPHONIA YOU MAY BE ENTITLED TO FINANCIAL COMPENSATION!! ESPECIALLY IF YOU'VE HAD TO LISTEN TO LESHY CHEW HIS FOOD FOR MORE THAN 10 SECONDS

I never thought of those two conditions in the same sentence but I absolutely see where the confusion came from cause the names are so similar, imagine one day I drop hc shamura lore where they built their temple out of asbestos and have eternal mesothelioma as a result KJHSDFKFJSD

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okkk wait this is the anon that sent an ask about autistic narinder and leshy hc 😅 i retract my statement they're all autistic 🤯🤯🤯🤯

I WAS LITERALLY IN THE MIDDLE OF ANSWERING THAT ASK TO SAY "I FEEL LIKE THEY'RE ALL AUTISTIC" BEFORE THIS ONE GOT SENT IN, I was two sentences in so your comedic timing was impeccable actually

I know there's like no evidence in-game to back my claims so this is purely a vibe check (and also me being unable to write for neurotypical characters) but yeah no I 100% feel like all the bishops have autism for some reason. They definitely express it in different ways and I was actually thinking about that in the car ride back home tonight??

SEMI-DETAILED HC EXPLANATIONS BELOW THE CUT

For leshy, I feel like since he's the youngest...when he came along, everyone was like "yep. We don't even need to get this one tested" after seeing him in his natural element. Which sounds cruel but that's just personal experience after people in my family started getting diagnosed and we started noticing things about each other better LMAO. I kinda actually designed my iteration of him to be like a big stim toy, I did that shitpost sketch in the last post but even the first time I drew him I was like "this dude is made out of orbs that make satisfying noises when they click together", so if I had to categorize the way his neurodivergency manifests, it's definitely "I NEED TO MOVE AROUND!! RIGHT FUCKING NOW!! MAYBE SCREAM A LITTLE IDK IT JUST FEELS RIGHT!!"

Heket is for sure the one that fights the most against people labelling her with it, just because she's like I'M SO NORMAL GUYS. LOOK HOW NORMAL I AM. LOOK HOW WELL I CAN ADAPT TO CHANGE AND LOOK AT ME NOT FREAK OUT AT ALL WHEN I'M OUT OF MY ELEMENT!! She's the new leader of the family so she does her best to hold it together but if you make plans with her, she's gonna be in Waiting Mode as soon as the plans are made and might tear you limb from limb if you flake or reschedule. Something my therapist told me recently is that me getting absurdly upset over injustices (small or big) is likely directly related to being autistic, so if heket feels like something is wrong she will absolutely be vocal about it. If someone says something mean to her, they are her fucking arch nemesis from that point on. The block button is NOT enough she wants them DEAD

For narinder, I feel like he maybe bonded a lot with shamura over the fact both of them feel pretty disconnected from everyone else? The way his autism manifests is probably the feeling that he's on a completely different wavelength than everyone else, and can't experience empathy the same way his siblings can. He'll like have conversations with people but it feels like someone just talking at him, and him having to mentally choose the dialogue options that make the conversation end the quickest. He probably feels like a completely separate species from everyone else on more levels than just "I am a cat and you are not". I know this doesn't line up with my narinder art so far but I have a distinct characterization of him pre-schism that's completely different from post-schism. I feel like he also resented the other siblings for having the same condition as him but presenting so differently, he felt like he got the short end of the stick.

Kallamar........is a FREAk ABOUT TEXTURES. Bro will actually throw up if he has to eat or touch something gross. He would probably excuse himself to go hurl if he sees leshy combining everything on his plate and shovelling it into his face. I'M actually about to hurl just thinking about it. I have to have lotion on at all times or I freak out when I touch things with my hands, and I feel like kallamar needs to have that famous Cephalopod Mucus Layer in order to exist in his body without wanting to implode. Maybe even a special oil he formulates himself? I also feel like he probably has the most freakouts and has been left crying inconsolably + hyperventilating on the floor over something seemingly stupid MANY times, but shamura is understanding enough to be patient with him and not try to grab him or repeat phrases at him over and over.

LASTLY, SHAMURA DOESN'T THINK THEY HAVE AUTISM. They're like "I love my Neurodivergent Family :) can't relate tho" but all the siblings have unanimously agreed they have something going on up there, even before the TBI. I think they're very book smart, and have little file cabinets of their brain of stuff like "arthropod husbandry" and "dreamcatcher making techniques" but are totally clueless to how other people operate. They don't really know *why* people do the things they do; in my prequel AU thing, they gain most of their social knowledge through people watching rather than like...being normal and just knowing how to behave. Out of all the siblings, they've probably been told the classic phrase "but you don't look autistic!" the most LMAO

Also shamura 100000% has misophonia and that's the reason I didn't have them sitting at the table with the other siblings in the voidpunk comic I did of them. They love their family to death but they have to make the conscious decision to not shake baby leshy every time he loudly chokes down his dinner, so they just sit out meals and eat on their own time. If shamura was real I would build them a shrine and sacrifice my noise cancelling headphones cause idk if they have sound reduction methods in cotl world <3

I know autism kinda encompasses ALL of these traits and isn't something that can be categorized into "this one hates noises, this one needs to follow a schedule..." but I also don't want to just point at one bishop and go "YOU. YOU WILL BE MY VESSEL" because I'd never get to write all that I have in mind if only one character had it. There's definitely overlaps in symptoms between them but I just wrote down what I felt would be the most notable to that specific character. I've been wanting to do a comic about their special interests or the times they just like sync up and have a brain blast jimmy neutron moment, cause usually they're all over the place. I have literally never said the word "autism" so many times in my life I think I gotta cut it here, THIS IS SO LONG. I REALLY DID WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS THOUGH SO THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK GENUINELY. IDK IF YOU EXPECTED A SMALL ESSAY ON THIS BUT I WROTE ONE ANYWAY

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about to go to a pow wow to meet up with my family, midwesterners don't know when tf to leave a gathering until one of us slaps our knees, stands up and goes "I s'pose it's time to head out" so I probably won't have time for more art today. Here's a sketch dump of stupid shit to tide you over til I can work on new stuff, NO context is provided cause I gotta shower and get ready asap. Most of these are from bigger sketch dumps I may never get around to finishing, but the gif is from me practicing brainrot breakcore AMVs in capcut because I wanna work on an edgy PMV thing sometime

I HAVE...LIKE 30 ASKS NOW...I AM SO SORRY TO EVERYONE WHO SENT ONE IN BECAUSE I TRY TO DO THEM ALL BUT THERE'S SO MANy. I'LL DO WHAT I CAN.

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Posting old shit while I regain my bearings after recent events. Having trouble focusing enough to finish new art. So here is my "BRING SOME COKE TO THE PARTY" BISHOP ALIGMENT CHART(tm)

Leshy was in the "brings cocaine" spot because it's the Chaotic thing to do, until I remembered kallamar is like.....a medieval era disease specialist......he probably has a bunch of shit laying around like cocaine tooth drops (look it up if you don't believe that existed at one point). Heket is hosting the party and KNOWS narinder is gonna put a giant hole in the temple wall eventually; she is not happy about it. Narinder got turnt before they even decided on what music to play, and he WASN'T EVEN INVITED! Shamura is the kind of person to queue the same fucking song over and over in the playlist and lose song choice privileges. I like to think they put their tiny stupid pepsi cup on a table for all the siblings to share kshjfksdjf

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Your heket is so shaped I wanna squish them /pos....

GOING THROUGH MY DRAFTS AND I GUESS I NEVER POSTED THIS??

HEKET BEING SQUISHED FOR YOUR AMUSEMENT

I actually drew TWO hekets for this ask because the first one didn't come out very good, this one isn't ideal either but I think I just use bad colors for gifs tbh. Here's the non gif versions:

(feral frog version)

(normal version that didn't turn out good in gif form)

you thought I was going to put a 348234320 paragraph ramble about heket (my beloved) under the cut? WRONG. I MADE A SHITPOST VERSION BECAUSE THE GIF MAKER IS SUPER FUN

GET PETTED YOU AMPHIBIOUS IDIOT

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pray 4 me yall

I've been back in the midwest for like two fucking days there's apparently a tornado headed DIRECTLY FOR OMAHA which my tiny ass town is connected to. I was literally doing ask doodles and suddenly the end of the world started happening outside so uHHHH MIGHT BE GONE A WHILE LONGER. FUCK LMAO

update: we have 13 tornado warnings and the hail is massive. Got a pic but I can't post it yet. I SHOULD'VE STAYED IN CALI BRO WTF

update again: I THINK?? IT'S OVER?? MOSTLY. The airport I just arrived from had a tornado touch down, that shit is a 5 minute drive from my house. A different tornado fucked up downtown omaha and a THIRD one demolished the suburbs my dad does carpet jobs at. I'm actually extremely lucky, I managed to miss all of them so far. Idk how many people follow me live in the midwest but I hope you guys are okay, shit was scary and I had all my small pets in tupperware in case I had to book it to the shelter. We haven't gotten a storm like that in a decade, what a welcome back to the midwest lmfao

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welcome back!! Gives you a little welcome back kissy

THANK YOUUU I AM HAPPY TO SEE YOU BACK IN MY INBOX FOR MY RETURN!! It was raining when you sent this so I drew my classic "I'm having emotions and need to frolic in puddles" gear, I was running around at 2 AM in the flooded streets because I had a bad day yesterday lmaooo

I'll have to make a long post about my trip when I get a chance because it was a rollercoaster at times, there were record highs and record lows truly. I've literally never left the midwest once in my entire life or even been on a plane, but TL;DR I got put on the guest list for one of my favorite bands (glass beach!) cause I got sick and the drummer saw my reddit post giving my tickets away. Which is still INSANE to me, nothing cool ever happens to me so that's a core memory for sure. So me and my bff went to las vegas, los angeles, san francisco and minneapolis in the span of less than a week and I'm STILL kinda overwhelmed tbh. Our home lives ended up falling apart the second we got back so I'm glad we at least had an epic cali vacay before it had to go south again.

I hadn't left my bedroom for more than a few minutes at a time for like a month prior so it was weird going from "iowa town of ~3,000 people" straight to CALIFORNIA?? I'll stop writing here and save it for the Trip Post but MAN WHAT A WEEK. AN EXPENSIVE WEEK. CALI IS EXPENSIVE. I AM UNBELIEVABLY BROKE NOW

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Hello! Are you okay with people using your art as icons, banners, etc with credit? I hope you have a lovely rest of your day!

Hi, thank you for asking!! I'm totally cool with it if credit is given, I don't *require* permission beforehand but I have gotten jumpscared by seeing my art in random unexpected places in the past so a heads up would prevent that hahahaha

I think it's really cool that you find my art worthy of being an icon or banner or something along those lines tbh, sometimes I think about that one user's phone lockscreen being my cursed shamura red circle edit or the other person whose icon is my lamb crayon drawing and it brings me joy every time :') I hope you have a great rest of your day as well!

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I AM BACK FROM MY TRIP I kinda underestimated how exhausted I'd be when I got back. So I'm gonna take a few more days to just chill out and come back when I'm more ready, I couldn't even really form words at my med/psych appointments so for once I'm not gonna ramble on here. Here's a quick forneus ref because I'm working on an angst comic of how she lost aym + baal (it's long af so idk if it'll ever get done)

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MY BAD FOR LIKE SPAMMING I DIDNT CHECK YOUR BLOG IN LIKE A WEEK AND I ATE ALL OF YOUR RAMBLINGS AND ART

I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT YOU LITERALLY KILLED ME WITH THE ANGST THINGYS

FLIGHT GOT DELAYED, I HAVE CHOSEN THIS ASK TO BE THE FINAL ONE FOR NOW BEFORE I SHUT MY PC OFF. I just wanted to say there's absolutely no issue with spamming me because number go up = more dopamine so I'd be insane to complain. If anything I think it's neat when I see familiar names in my notifs/inbox, it's been forever since I've had an online presence so I love going "oh look who's online!" when I see someone liked a bunch of my posts sdfkjhsdfkjs

ABOUT THE ANGST STUFF. I AM SORRY I KILLED YOU WITH MY ANGST COMICS, BUT AM GLAD TO HEAR THEY ACTUALLY LIKE AFFECT PEOPLE?? I bum myself out when I do sad comics but in like a good way. I haven't been invested in anything in sooo long, so I like feeling every possible emotion towards this stupid game. I HAVE...MORE ANGST......SO MUCH MORE. I work on it when I'm sad about irl stuff cause being sad about fictional stuff is more fun.

I'm gonna put a sketch comic under the cut, it's the one where shamura is accidentally gaslit into having a freakout and killing one of their followers. AVERT THINE EYES IF THAT'S TOO HEAVY, THERE IS ALSO SLIGHT SKETCHY GORE WHERE I COULDN'T REALLY CROP IT OUT

I cropped out the part where they explode their follower from the inside out. I was formerly a warrior cats kid so I like drawing edgy violent shit, but I understand not everyone wants to see that SDJFHSDFKJ- it'll be in the final comic if I ever come back to this one (tagged appropriately)

I wonder if it's obvious that I'm projecting hardcore in this comic but also, I feel like if I HAVE to have the health issues I do, I might as well make lobotomy spider comics based on my personal frustration?? I have a few more like this but one of them is...idk if I'll ever post it cause it's more soul crushing the other ones I've posted.

What a way to leave my blog for the next week. ENJOY THE ANGST, SEE Y'ALL WHEN I'M BACK FROM THE BEACH B)