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Hmmmm so….. I have a fic finished and literally about to be posted basically tomorrow but what if I tore it apart completely and rewrote it. What then…….

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we do not talk abt cas possessing claire in the rapture enough. like i wonder what cas said to her pre-possession. i wonder if he gave her the same promise he gave jimmy, that he could protect her family, that he would save them. so she says yes and cas does his best but then jimmy is dying. jimmy is dying and cas is saying “you served heaven well” and is about to let him die instead of healing and saving him. he’s going to let jimmy die and keep claire as his vessel. but then jimmy offers himself up, completely, unconditionally (and was this, perhaps, a strategic move by castiel all along? i think so. he IS a soldier and military strategist. the apocalypse is coming. he needs a committed vessel, one with no strings, one who won’t try to expel him.)

so then cas relinquishes claire, takes jimmy, and proceeds to not think abt the novaks for many years. actively ignores claire’s prayers. it’s no wonder claire is so angry with him when they meet again (though i think she could’ve been angrier). and YET. she forgives him and she grows to care for him and love him, even. (and how dean-coded is that. so much heart ! so much forgiveness !)

but i still think the possession should’ve been brought up again. claire, angry at castiel for lying. feeling like she was just a pawn in heaven’s game. feeling like it’s her fault her father got taken away a second time. claire describing what it was like to have all that power. that chained to a comet feeling. she could’ve easily saved jimmy, but cas had other plans. and i love cas, but there’s so denying early seasons cas was colder, more ruthless, still under heaven’s thumb and doing what needed to be done at times. as claire says, “The Castiel I met? He was crappy. Like super stuck-up and a dick.” and as cas elaborates, “Before, I was very self-assured. I was convinced I was on this righteous path. Now I realize that there is no righteous path.”

i don’t really have a conclusion to this post lol i just think we should’ve gotten a scene where claire is just screaming and crying “you promised me!!! you promised me you’d protect my family. you said you could save them and now they’re all dead!!”

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[ LUKE 2:8 ] AND, LO, THE ANGEL OF THE LORD CAME UPON THEM, AND THE GLORY OF THE LORD SHONE ROUND ABOUT THEM: AND THEY WERE SO AFRAID.  

⋙ “body horror” and “animal/nature” for @carrotfricker‘s follower celebration, congrats liv! ❤️

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Yeah, I'm a little obsessed with Catstiel too

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time-loop where when cas is taken by the empty it resets to the moment he grips dean tight and raises him from perdition. 12 yr time-loop, start and finish with dean winchester is saved. they never notice and they can’t stop it but each time they recognize each other instantly, soul and grace reaching for one another because, you feel familiar, like i know you, like i’ve always known you somehow 

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September 18, 2008

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I think it’s often underestimated how much potential for angst established!destiel offers too

twice the worrying about getting ganked

bad guys using the other as leverage/bait

after years of being touch-starved, Cas’ affections get too much for Dean sometimes

Cas taking a while to adjust to having a home

Dean and Cas going infuriatingly slow with their relationship because they’re not sure what exactly the other wants out of this, and they’ve gone too deep with their miscommunication in the past to be able to openly ask

Dean and Cas having their first fight as a couple and, since neither of them have a whole lot experience with long-term relationships, they think the other doesn’t want them back after this

too high expectations for their first time

Cas not staying in Dean’s bed until the next morning and Dean being heartbroken over it every time

Dean sometimes slipping back into his bro-facade around Cas out of habit, making Cas retreat

worrying about their friends not accepting them

hunters/angels looking down on them

Sam being worried that their relationship could cause a shift in the TFW dynamic

Dean and Cas fearing that if they fuck this up, they won’t just lose their partner, but also their best friend

one of them getting cold feet before a next step in their relationship (maybe moving in together?) and leaving for a few days. insert mutual pining

Dean fearing he is taking too long with his first “I love you”

Cas thinking he has to be Dean’s protector now more than ever and Dean being pissed about it

Cas worried that he keeps Dean from having the family with kids he’s always wanted

an ex of Dean turning up, stirring up old feelings. Cas getting it in his head that he has to let Dean go now

Dean getting insecure once his first gray hair appears because soon he’ll be an old man and will Cas still love him then?

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Suptober | Day 18 - Inferno

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"We need to talk, Dean. Alone" ↳ 4.01 - LAZARUS RISING

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4x01 lazarus rising || 1x12 faith

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🌌➤[02/??]  4x01 Lazarus Rising // Stephen Hawking’s Reith Lecture // the first-ever images of a black hole

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I’ll write your name on my skin, as a promise that we’ll never be apart again.

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While the warm wind blows through the Eastern Halls, the Angel tends to the Dead. 

Dean / Cas Horrorfest presents: 

The Forgotten Halls

Art by @thestarsmakemedream-art Story by allthismusic 

Rated: T  Word count: 9k

Tags/Warnings: Inspired by Piranesi by Susannah Clarke, post-canon, the Empty, amnesia, non-euclidean space

Summary: A long time from now — maybe decades, maybe centuries — there are only the Halls, and the Entity, and the Angel. They exist in harmony, mostly. When an outsider changes their routine, a routine so long-standing that the Angel remembers nothing that had come before it, the disturbance will threaten the fabric of their entire universe.

Coming this October to @deancashorrorfest 

Preview: 

“You could be like them,” the Entity says when it comes upon the Angel gently moving the remains of a boy in red clothing so that he does not get washed away by the next tide. The Angel looks up from his task to greet his visitor. “Still, you do not rest,” the Entity says. Its face is familiar to the Angel in a way that reminds him of his own, but there’s something about it, something behind it that seems to shift and change and somehow makes the Angel feel as though he is looking through the Entity rather than at it.  “They need me,” the Angel explains. “And you have asked me to observe the Halls.”  “Your selflessness knows no bounds,” the Entity says dryly. The Angel does not understand why this does not sound like a compliment. “But yes. If you cannot find it in yourself to diminish, then it is very useful for you to expand our knowledge of these… Halls.”  The Angel follows the Entity’s gaze around the Halls, with its dark recesses and its gothic arches. There are three statues in the chamber where the Red-Clothing Boy rests: a sweet-looking cherub, a lion’s-head bust, and an intricately carved bird that the Angel thinks might be a phoenix. It is one of the most interesting chambers of the Halls, but the Entity’s eyes seem to slide past its elaborate statues and its intriguing nooks and crannies. “Have you seen anyone else here?” the Entity asks. Its tone is carefully calm, but there is a metallic scrape to its words that betrays a sense of intensity.  “Yes, of course,” the Angel says, and the Entity looks taken aback. But when he starts reminding his visitor of the other Dead, like the Red-Clothing Boy, who dwell stilly and silently within the Halls, it quickly becomes clear that the Angel’s charges are not who the Entity is asking about.  “There are Others who seek to find this place,” the Entity explains gravely. “There may be as many as three, but I think only one will come. The Hunter.”  “What is he hunting?” the Angel asks.  “You,” the Entity says, and though a hint of threat is present in its answer, the Angel feels unexpectedly hopeful. “Me,” the Entity continues. “These Halls… if the Hunter finds his way here, the very architecture of this place is in danger, along with all its inhabitants. If you see him, you must tell me immediately, and you must not speak to him.”

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Biblically Accurate(?) Castiel I guess 👁️👄👁️🫵

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Saying,"God, I'm alive," but the whole place is quite

[enlightenment, d. alan holmes || the rapture, supernatural || when galaxies get too close, dirk h. lorenzen || much ado about nothing, william shakespeare || heliocentric, keith s. wilson || on the pin of a head, supernatural || the great escapist, supernatural || lazarus rising, supernatural || anthem, leonard cohan || unity, supernatural || despair, supernatural || the last scene in the movie, eleanor hsieh || all along the watchtower || what's up, tiger mommy?, supernatural || gargantua black hole || rumi || still, noah kahan]

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Jensen Ackles | SPN S1 Promo Photo 

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don’t bring me to tears when I just did my make-up so nice // E // deancas // ~2k words // written for the prompt: “for the first time I feel”

Dean’s feeling real fucking generous, so he gets down on his knees.

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