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This sketch was marinating since July. Its time has come.

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i finally have a spare evening and strength enough to finish a sketch that has been poking at my mind for weeks...

oh and while i'm at it - i have recently been asked if i could make any less safe for work stuff; tbh it feels like there's already enough skilled, amazing artists who do exactly that; imma stick to the barely decent tenderness, and i hope you can feel it 💜🩶🤍

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Post s2 cryptids ~

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i also love love love that they gave us sugar daddy control freak "gremlin" armand, but with louis instead of daniel. not because i think louis deserved it (he didn't) but because it does help set the stage for this potential story. armand having a habit of caging his songbirds. locking down his things. appeasing them with the material world to distract them from anything else.

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I just love Armand so much. He is my favorite blorbo and I feel so blessed he exists.

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he has synesthesia he sees dead people he was a monsterfucker from the start he's been a theater director a cult leader a lawyer and a mall architect he loves honky-tonk music he had his own mad scientist laboratory he's excellent at interior design he can identify cocaine by scent he once got so frat boy drunk he fell into a filthy canal and then got drunk again the very next day he's plump and juicy he's cinderella at the ball and as if the devil still retained the face and form of the angel after the fall

happy birthday armand i love you so much baby girl truly the character of all time

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i’m reading a lot of vampire related criticism recently for current writing project related reasons. here’s a list of articles i’ve read that the wonders of jstor search have brought me - not making any judgements about quality, but they are all of interest to many of my followers…:

“You Can't Trust Wolves No More Nor Women”: Canines, Women, and Deceptive Docility in Bram Stoker's “Dracula,” Keridiana Chez

““Such Blood, Such Power: The Lot Complex in Anne Rice’s “Interview with the Vampire,”” Debbie Joyce Chung

“Women and Vampires: Nightmare or Utopia?,” Judith E. Johnson

“The Second Vampire: “Filles Fatales" in J. Sheridan Le Fanu's “Carmilla” and Anne Rice's "Interview with the Vampire”,” Gabriella Jönsson

“Un/Speakability and Radical Otherness: The Ethics of Trauma in Bram Stoker's “Dracula”,” Jamil Khader

“The Vampire, the Queer, and the Girl: Reflections on the Politics and Ethics of Immortality’s Gendering,” Kimberly J. Lau

“Childhood Sexuality as Posthuman Subjectivity in Octavia E. Butler’s Fledgling,” Kelly McDevitt

“Angel in the House, Devil in the City: Explorations of Gender in "Dracula" and "Penny Dreadful,” Lauren Rocha

“Oral Sex: Vampiric Transgression and the Writing of Angela Carter,” Sarah Screats

“Repossessing the Body: Transgressive Desire in “Carmilla” and “Dracula”,” Elizabeth Signorotti

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Season 3 is going to be a challenge for some of you Armand defenders, but not for me, because as soon as we get Armand in Paris tying his hair back in ribbons and wearing cravats and frock coats or whatever other cunty historical outfits the iwtv costume department cooks up, Armand could commit any number of heinous, evil actions and I would simply stare at my TV with cartoon heart eyes popping out of my head anytime he is on screen.

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Do you ever miss a character from a show but not like in the way that you want to rewatch the whole show because theres so much stuff going on and thats not what youre looking for but you miss your boy

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woof

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the thing that strikes me about armandiel is that they have the freakiest fucking dynamic. they have a dynamic that has a kind of "anything goes" energy to it. there's a lot of random crazy unhinged shit i can see them engaging in but i also think they like to watch the real housewives so they're a lot of fun is what i'm really saying.

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O YOU whom I often and silently come where you are,          that I may be with you; As I walk by your side, or sit near, or remain in the          same room with you, Little you know the subtle electric fire that for your          sake is playing within me. —Walt Whitman

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gave to lestat my period cramps because he should suffer instead of me

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i think i struggle with feeling a lot of sympathy for louis over losing claudia, because he--TO ME, IN MY OPINION--abandoned her a lot sooner than she abandoned him. he tells her, "you and me, me and you," but he doesn't honor that, which she calls him on later in season 2. he brings claudia in under false pretenses and continues to see her not fully as herself, at least, not very often.

and i'm not necessarily....i'm not necessarily ragging on louis about this. i don't resent him for it. i see louis and claudia as a strained mother and daughter, and having that kind of dynamic in which the mother can never really relate to the daughter and the daughter can never really relate to the mother, and yet both are so strongly identified with the other to outside observers. because they are the same, they can't truly connect, but the love felt is unshakeable despite how much it causes a rift.

so when i see posts that touch on the "you and me, me and you" stuff, they don't hit for me in that sense of...oh, what a loss! because I don't really think louis ever meant "me and you, you and me." and if he did mean it, he forgot about it right quick. which again, i'm not really angry at him for.

i'm sick and my brain is foggy, so i'm not explaining this well because it's my first attempt to get the words out. but almost like. almost like a less hateful india stoker/evie stoker. like, in the sense that louis is not designed to parent. he parents not because he truly wants to, but because he needs to for some less generous reason than simply wanting to have a family. and claudia is the one who suffers for louis' caprice. she's made on a whim so louis can feel better and then dropped repeatedly when he does.

but the same way i think evie is a shit mother to india (and they really aren't the best example for this point, i just literally cannot think of anyone else right now) because she just kinda lacks that maternal vibe and especially doesn't know how to handle the way india is so fully her own person, i think louis is a shit mother to claudia for the same reason, like, there are aspects of louis' personality that are baked into him by previous experience (like his brother killing himself and becoming estranged from his family and his whole fucked up history with lestat) and that make it hard for him to connect. and i don't fault him for that, but claudia is the one who has to deal with it.

like just to get back to what i first said, i don't really feel sympathy about louis losing claudia, but i do feel a shit ton of grief and sympathy for claudia herself. i just think louis was never really going to be the mother/father/brother/friend to claudia he might have thought he was going to be, and though he maybe doesn't see or accept that for most of the show thus far, i do. and i don't think he ever meant "you and me, me and you."

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