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Ancient elven god falls in love bc local woman snores louder than the voices in head telling him not too

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2 Different Eggs, who will you eat?

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some ridiculous Dragon Age 4 Thoughts comics I drew ages ago. The last one was inspired by this blessed post with Jeff Goldblum as the Black Divine.

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It is the middle of the night and I cannot sleep and am once again thinking about what Veilguard could have been.

Do you ever think about the fact that there's not a single abomination in the whole game? Doesn't happen. Not even to Venatori. No, Lucanis does not count. He genuinely is not actually an abomination. It's just that most of the cultures of Thedas don't have any other term for spirit possession. I just think it's interesting that in the game where your whole and unquestioned job is to keep the Veil up, there's not a single example of this well established tragic consequence of the Veil.

Not a single living ancient elf. Solas had agents. There were unequivocally still ancient elves around. We see none. No one who could attest to what the world once was. No one who might dare agree with Solas. And what of the spirits who were waiting to help? Not a one in Solas's own crossroads? None. The spirits there are silent. They have no voice.

Is there a single mention of uthenera? I don't remember one. The unknown number of elves who might still live, cut off from their bodies. Don't worry about it! Don't you worry.

We roam the halls of Arlathan itself. Not a single veilfire rune with visions of a time before death, when magic was as easy as breathing. Not a glimpse into the world that existed before the Veil. Not a moment of wonder over what once was.

It's been scrubbed.

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bellanaris | wisdom + determination

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I'm reminded of Cole's comment about how it's harder to read inky because of the mark, that it's like "counting birds against the sun", and that he can only read people when they need him (compassion).

Cole is sensing Solas's pain first and foremost, which allows him to connect to Lavellan's.

So whenever I get this banter all I can think about is how not only Lavellan is hurting so bad that Cole is able to pick up on it, but that Solas is also still so distraught that his mental barriers are down until he manages to shut Cole out.

It's also worth noting the amount of time it required him to do so, Cole just about ruined this man's whole career by starting to blurt out Solas's biggest secret.

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He just loves his other half so much Bonus:

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As a horse girl I completely agree with this and I am losing my mind over how predictable I am.

It’s not about making them better for everyone, it’s about living in harmony and knowing you can trust each other even when previous interactions have damaged that trust

I cannot emphasize enough that after a series of hideous personal reckonings today has shaken me to my core, if your favorite romanced/deeply-connected-with character in a work of media is:

-unattainable

-mysterious

-only softens for one person

-generally distrusted by most (and even wanted dead by some)

-causes pain (sometimes hospitalization-worthy) but just needs to be reminded what love feels like

-so beautiful it hurts

then you owe a horse girl an apology because that's it that's the prodigal Horse Girl plotline right there they've been telling you for years about the power of loving the Broken Beautiful Thing back to its full potential and you didn't listen but whooo buddy your subconscious sure did

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don’t trust the apostate 2: reborn

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Y’all seen these videos

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Varric: People are dying!!

Solas, who invented people being able to die and is currently trying to uninvent that: Yeah, man. Glad we can agree on this.

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Cole: Don't worry. I'm fast enough to be where you need me.

(if Iron Bull is in the party)

Cole: You can send the Bull further in. He knows where the archers are.

Iron Bull: (grunts) What is it this time?

(if Cassandra is in the party)

Cole: She can kill four of them. But she'll get hurt, too.

Cassandra: Why are you looking at me?

(if Blackwall is in the party)

Cole: You should send someone with Blackwall. Then it's just like the tourney.

Blackwall: What in the world is he talking about?

(if Solas is in the party)

Cole: Solas can't stay there. He needs to see you.

Solas: I need a line of sight to cast a barrier, yes. What are we discussing, exactly?

(if Vivienne is in the party)

Cole: Vivienne is strong. She can hold the front line, but then she can't see what's behind her.

Vivienne: Leave me out of your games, demon.

(if Dorian is in the party)

Cole: Don't let them surround Dorian. He doesn't have enough fire for all of them.

Dorian: Yes, do not let them surround Dorian. What are we talking about, again?

(if Varric is in the party)

Cole: Varric is too far from the others. He shouldn't be alone.

Varric: (uneasy laugh) What's this about, Kid?

(if Sera is in the party)

Cole: Sera has fire and lightning, like you. They'll think that you're mages if you make it bright enough.

Sera: What? No! Don't want any of — whatever that is.

Cole: It's us, but smaller. He's moving us in his mind, trying to make us not die. I'm trying to help.

Aqun: I — were you hearing all of it?

Cole: Just the parts where you were afraid.

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Ancient Arlathan Solavellan Au

Vallyn is June’s champion and Solas is still Solas lmao. They meet while he is trying to copy June’s notes/transcripts on eluvians to make his own.

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The help meme makes my whole life

Professor AU memes. Rook totally fucks with Solas so much.

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in light of veilguard, the valleslin removal scene as solas's turning point is fascinating to me

up until that moment, he has spent inquisition indulging in quasi-denial. he's lost a good proportion of his power. he has no authority. no one fears him or respects him. during that time, he is not and cannot be fen'harel

can you imagine how free he must have felt? he can't do anything about the veil in his current state. he tried, but it didn't work, so now he has to help fix the mess with corypheus before he can deal with the veil. that burden has been at least temporarily lifted from him

so he focuses on the present crisis. he does what he can: he fights alongside his allies (friends) and supports the inquisitor (vhenan) with his knowledge (wisdom). he is and can be solas

but etched into the skin of the woman he's grown to love is a horrible reminder of his true duty. he looks at her and sees either the tyranny of one of the evanuris or the debt he owes to mythal. and he desperately wants to erase that reminder. he tells himself that he wants this for her sake, so that when he tells her the truth and they face the future together, they will stand as equals

but he is so focused on what her valleslin means to him that he has barely given any consideration to what it might mean to her

and in the moments after, whether she has (perhaps somewhat reluctantly) accepted or refused, the realization hits him: he just encouraged her to change herself to please him

just as mythal encouraged him to take a physical body to please her

(when he first displayed his physical form, do you think mythal gently touched his cheek and said, "you are so beautiful"?)

and the spell he's been living under breaks. all that comfortable denial comes crashing down around him. he has not been solas for millennia. he is and always will be fen'harel

and he will not drag the woman he loves down with him

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In the light of your forgiveness let me open up to you

And I will let you see the war inside of me

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THE FOOL