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got a package notif from river place and I’m not entirely sure what to do,, options are as follows:

1. text my [wretched dna donor] that I’m going to pick it up (he also gets package notifs I think)

2. Ignore it until I Have to do something (i.e. wait for my [wretched dna donor] to tell me to go get it, in case he already has something else in mind (i.e., getting someone else to go get it) OR wait until I get the second notif that says hey come get ur package

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Shirley Jackson, We Have Always Lived in the Castle Vincent van Gogh, Garden at Arles (1888)

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blergh I miss my friends

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love how my mom keeps texting me “call me I miss u” but refuses to actually put in the work required to love me in the way I need to be loved or repair what she destroyed / refused to build in the first place

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beauty & the beast aesthetic

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Proper boundaries

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2 months!

hi so uh. I have a girlfriend now???

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You know that idealized version of yourself that haunts you with guilt about what you haven't yet become?

They didn't show up.

They don't deserve your praise.

The you who is reading this made it here, despite everything.

This you is the garden worthy of your love and effort.

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blegh. google maps lied to me and said there was a starbucks here but it either doesn’t exist or is inside a building I don’t have access to

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thinking out loud

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don’t talk to strangers on the internet or else you might end up doing things like getting on a metro train at 5 in the goddamn morning and having the time of your life

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"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

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You know what, since I'm thinking about it anyways, let's talk formalwear accessories. Most of these are traditionally menswear but a bit of gender fuckery is good for the soul, and frankly most of these are about making your mass-produced clothing fit and lay properly without having to go to the tailor.

Shirt stays: these go around your thighs to hold your shirt down, so that it stays smooth and tucked in. They're usually elastic, with 1-3 clips, and if you wear skirts frequently this is a GREAT way to make sure your top doesn't ride up. The clips will be visible if you're wearing something tight, so loose pants or skirts are where these do best. There's also an insane version that clips to your socks, but that is for lunatics. If you wanted, you could also use one of these clips to hold up thigh-highs.

These do a great job of smoothing and narrowing the waist area by keeping your shirt from bunching there.

Sleeve garters: usually metal, leather, elastic, or silk. These are usually worn with button-down shirts to adjust where your cuff falls on the wrist or hand. They're properly worn on the upper arm, and you pull the fabric of the sleeve above the garter until you cuff is where you want it. Because this creates a puff of sleeve at the bicep, it also broadens the appearance of the shoulders. It's great if you're working with your hands or if your sleeves are often too long for your preference.

Waistband clip or belt adjustment clip/buttons

Three different ways of tightening the waistband of a pair of pants or a skirt. You're not going to get more than an inch or so tighter without weird bunching, and for most of these you'd want them to be hidden under a shirt or jacket, but they do the job if that's something you're having issues with.

Collar pins: There are so many fun ones out there, both with and without chains. They're not terribly practical, though the slight weight may help keep your collar where you want it. Also consider collar tips, which pin (surprise) to the very tips of your collar points.

Sweater clips/guards: meant to hold your sweater or cardigan mostly closed. Great if your cardigan doesn't button, or if you don't like it to be buttoned all the way.

There's tons of other stuff out there like this--etsy is a great place to find this stuff. A lot of these are old solutions to the very modern problem of mass-maufactured clothes not being as one-size-fits-all as advertised, but they're also a fun way to put a bit of personality into businesswear.

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“I miss talking to you call me when you have time” -my mom yesterday

ok do you miss me or the version of me you created in your head? Are you willing to engage with your leftist genderweird child who won’t put up with bullshit? Will you listen to me talk about my girlfriend and my drink making and my friends I met online who are so extremely dear to me, without getting weird about it or changing the subject? Will you separate yourself from the man who has hurt / continues to hurt all of us, or will you just continue to enable and defend him because it’s “too hard” to do otherwise? Will you accept the fact that I’m no longer christian and do in fact have beef with god? Do you accept me, or only pretend to so you can wriggle back into my life and then do a 180 and eat me from the inside out? Do you want me, or someone else? Make up your mind.

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can you infodump to me? (i love you) is this overwhelming? (i love you) is this the right texture? (i love you) is it ok to touch you? (i love you) do you want the subtitles on? (i love you) do you want to go somewhere less noisy? (i love you)