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"Poison is in everything, and nothing is without poison. The dosage makes it either a poison or a remedy." --Paracelsus

[amelia-brown-chase]

so long; based on no way home <3

Based on spiderman: no way home ending

-slight spoilers btw-

Growing up, I thought losing a best friend was bad. Because they know you exist but pretend you don’t. but that didn't even come close, to the pain I feel now. I know what I had to do, everyone almost died because of me.

I know this but it doesn’t stop the tears that accidentally leave my face whenever I see them. I would’ve settled for them to absolutely hate me but know I exist.

But now, they- they don’t know me at all. They don’t remember me crying on their shoulders whenever something bad happened. They don’t remember us watching "The Time Traveler's Wife" and me sobbing my eyes out.

I would give everything to have them hate, to have them dislike me, and curse my presence then opposed to them not even being aware of my presence. That final moment before I erased their minds, they looked at me, knowingly like I was going to bring them back one way or another. But as soon as it was all set and done, as soon as I approached them, the words turned to bile in my mouth.

My hands shook anxiously. And I stared at their surprised faces, and I knew they were better off without me. The first and only good thing I had going in my life is being taken from me, but that is the price you pay by having to juggle the whole world in the very palms of your hands. I start to sweat before I shake myself off. “Hi, my name is Olivia Williams and I-” I pause. Tightening my eyes before opening them to meet his.

“And I would like a coffee.” I finish, smiling awkwardly. Comedically, he pushes up a tight-lipped smile and I could almost tell he thought I was weird but he looks at me with a sense of an emotion I could not detect. “Okay, no problem, Olivia Williams.” He says, smiling awkwardly as he moves out his hands from inside his pockets.

I stare off into the direction of my best friend, across the room, staring down at his phone, awaiting a text message. "Olivia?" I hear him call. I turn to find him holding my coffee. "Is there anything else?" He asks slowly, as if confused and bewildered at my very presence.

I'm stricken dumb as I stare up at him for what seems like the last time, and I can't help the tears that dangerously almost fall. I quickly shake my head. Taking my drink and putting my cash on the counter. I smile as I exit through the doors, the tears finally spilling as I slip into the frosty night.

(also hi I'm Athena, this is my first time on Tumblr so I'm kind of scared but sorry if the layout is bad. I'm trying to experiment right now. It's nice to meet you guys though!)