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I’M TIRED OF SMUT, I WANT TOOTH ACHING FLUFF AND HEART SHATTERING ANGST.

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"What happened to us?"

7:33pm

"Chris" i say

Ignored

"Chris, we have to talk.." I spoke, but my voice seemed so small, so little.

But again no response

It always seems as if im speaking to a wall.

The past couple weeks chris has been slipping away, more than i would like to say. Chris and I have been arguing more and more each time we meet.

I know its usual for couples to have their ups and downs, but not this much. Not every single time we meet up. Or everytime we try to speak to one another.

"I think we should take a break.." It might seem impossible but my voice seems to get smaller and smaller each time i speak.

"What? Why would you say something like that?" He spoke as if he had been completely brain washed from the fact he acts like he hates me, or barely even looks at me.

"I feel like you don't love me anymore," i mumbled so quietly i thought he might not even hear me.

"What do you mean? Of course i still love you" he said, but i could hear it in his voice, the minute he said it. The hesitation.

"Then why does it feel like you always try to dodge me every single time im in your sight." And it was all true, he was fading away.

"Why do you always have to do this?" Chris slightly raised his voice.

"Do what?" I said completely confused on why he was dodging my questions now.

"Your trying to start stuff! Why?!" He was basically shouting at this point.

I knew i would most likely get frustrated during this conversation, but why is he?

"Im not starting anything, im trying to have a conversation with you, why are you getting so worked up?"

"Because I'm not trying to have this conversation right now, I don't want to talk to you right now." He spoke in a weird tone, as if he was trying to be nice but obviously failing miserably.

"That's my point! You never want to talk to me anymore, You never want to hug me, kiss me, or even look at me!" I shouted but it didn't help this situation. I could see his body tense, like i struck a nerve.

"I'm going for a drive, I'll be back later." He stated, grabbing his keys of the kitchen counter, then walking away. He did it again, brushed me off his shoulder like I wasn't important in his life anymore.

I opened my mouth to say something back, but he was already gone. The door had slammed, but it was so much more than just a door shutting, it seemed like it was mocking me, mocking the fact that i don't have the same chris I used to, the chris that would spend every second of everyday with me that wouldn't get annoyed of me, the chris that would come to my house in the middle of the night if i had a bad dream, the chris that would actually love me and show it.

After chris left i managed to make my way to my bedroom, shower, put on pajamas, then lay down to try and sleep.

But I already knew that wasn't going to work. I could feel the tears running down my face, i didnt even vother to try and stop it, it was no use.

Now I've been tossing and turning for hours, I grab my phone off my night stand to look at the time.

10:54pm

I sighed placing my phone back on the night stand but then i heard it. Heard him.

I was frozen in place as i heard him walk through the house, up the stairs, and through the hallway to my room.

There was silence for a moment before he knocked.

"Baby, are you awake?" He said so gently.

I sat up and walked to the door. I unlocked it, and opened it the tiniest crack.

"What do you want?" My voice cracked. I knew he saw my red, puffy eyes. And i could see his too.

"Can i come in?" I stepped to the side as he walked past me and we sat on the bed, with about a foot and a half of space between us

"Baby im so sorry for pushing you away, i know I've been distant. Nick, Matt and I have been in an argument for a while. I haven't seen them in over a month. I know that's no excuse for being disrespectful to you, and im sorry. Im sorry for being mean, sorry for causing issues, I'm sorry for being such a douche. I love you so so much and I cant imagine loosing you."

"You know you could have talked to me, right?" I said. "instead of pushing me off, i could have helped."

"I know and im sorry but I didn't even realize what i was doing until you said something earlier."

i sighed. I opened my arms for a big because i could tell he was about to cry.

He came closer and accepted my hug.

"Its ok chris, just please talk to me next time."

"I will. I promise. I love you so much."

I guess we all go through stuff, and we all go through things differently and i really do love chris. So one mistake cant be that bad.

Guys this is actually really bad but idk tell me if you liked it byeeee

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NOOOOOOO HE SHAVED ITTT WAHHHH😭

(He looks good, but DAMNNNNN😭😭😭)

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and DANGGGGGGG DO U NOT SEE THAT BADONKADONK 😭

THIS MAN HAS A BOOOOOOTY AHHH😫😭

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Chris wearing yellow makes me wanna pinch his cheeks and kiss all over his face

He looks like a ray of sunshine

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Pink kisses bear tee I will always love u

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Miserable

My past week has been terrible. Everything went to straight shit after the party last weekend.

One week I've been lying in my bed

One week of laying in my bed, thinking about him.

Him....him is Chris

One week ago i was the happiest i thought i could have ever be. But that's the key word

Thought

But its 4 months exactly that my life completely changed, its like happiness turned its back on me to make my favorite person in life make me want to end it all.

Chris was my favorite person ever. He was so many things to me, he had my whole heart in his hands, but it's like he really did have my heart in his hands and squeezed his hands shut at full force. Chris was my best friend, my boyfriend, the person i thought i would spend the rest of my life with....but i guess not.

3 months ago me and chris got invited to a party, i loved going to party's. So there we were walking into the party, as we walked in the influencers house, i was met with a heavy wiff of weed and alcohol. He met with some friends and I left his side for a while to hang out with mine.

"Chris, I'm going to look for some friends but I'll see you in a bit." I slightly shouted over the music being blasted.

"Okay, please be careful." And with that you walked away to search for your friends.

That brings us to about an hour and a half later, you were almost drunk but not enough to be unaware of anything. You were only saying some weird things from the alcohol you have been drinking.

You have left your friends in search for chris. You walk to the kitchen. Nope. Living room. No. Then to where he was with his friends before, the couch sitting on the outside porch.

You look your eyes around for a bit but you don't see him but you see one of his friends from before.

"Hey, have you seen chris?" You ask with a worried expression on your face.

"Umm yea, he is right there." He says pointing at the 2 people you saw making out on the couch when you first walked out.

You looked over and saw the back if a fluffy brown haired man who looks like chris with a girl you have never seen before. You start to look closer and realize that is chris.

You drop the red solo cup filled with beer in your hand, when it hits the floor chris and the girl stop kissing.

Chris pov (2 minutes before you walked outside)

I am extremely drunk right now. I thought to myself

I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turn around and see a really pretty girl.

"Hey your really cute" she said really straight forward

"Um thanks you too" I said to her

In the span of twenty seconds we were already making out.

During me and this random girls make out i heard a smack of plastic hitting the ground. We stop and i open my eyes to see something that made my heart stop.

Y/n pov

When my cup hit the ground chris looked up and saw me. I didnt even realize i had tears streaming down my face.

Chris' face looked like he just seen a ghost when he was me.

I couldn't stand to be there for any longer. See him with another girl.

So, I ran.

I ran as fast as i could. While running out of the house I heard chris trailing behind me calling out my name.

I made it to the sidewalk outside the house before i felt a familiar hand grasp ahold of me. i dont turn around because I already know who it is.

"Y/n, please just listen" I heard chris pleading for me to listen

"No chris. Stop. You listen. You completely just humiliated me infront of every person in there. I thought you loved me..." I say but whispering at the last part.

I just wanted to go home. Laying my bed. Under the covers. And cry. Cry until i couldn't anymore.

"No no no no i do love you i love you with my whole heart. I dont know what i was thinking in there kissing that other girl-" Chris got cut off by me pushing him away from me.

"Chris I don't wanna here your excuses! We are done!" And that leads us to now. Laying in my bed, miserable.

should i make a part 2? -A (:

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GYATTTTTTTTTT

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hello!? HELLO!?