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HEARTSTOPPERCENTRAL’S 4K CELEBRATION favorite moment: Narlie - by ricky: @jonmercer

You’re just good at everything

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nick and charlie + those little moments after they kiss

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Y’all, I’m so excited I don’t have the words. All I’m going to say is this is why book adaptations need to have the author so heavily involved. I know I haven’t shut up about Heartstopper since it was released last month, but it is the best book to screen adaptation I have seen. I am so excited to see how the cast continues to bring this world to life!

(Also, just speaking into existence Mr. Farouk-Mr. Ajayi for all of us who figured out our sexuality in our twenties)

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heartstopper + tumblr text posts pt. 2

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THIS has to be one of my favorite scenes.

We've seen Charlie apologize for things that aren't his fault before but *this* scene in particular, where he immediately reacts to Nick getting angry (even though Nick’s anger is not at him, but at his shitty friends) and instantly shuts down and apologizes, is such a moment for folks with extreme anxiety. It’s such a knee-jerk defense mechanism to apologize your way out of a stressful situation, I know this feeling all too well.

Nick cares so much for Charlie, and works so hard to reassure him, but he's also genuinely frustrated that people treat Charlie so terribly, and he’s had to learn to just put his head down and apologize.

I just want to hug both of them.

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heartstopper is such an unproblematic show like. i literally have nothing to say against it, it's the one show i'd give a 11/10

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#nick’s bisexual journey

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“He’s always had a tendency to believe him just existing is annoying for other people.”

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so i did a thing

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ok we know the whole heartstopper is a huge cliché (but it's so well done 😭) anyways. if we're doing cliché, i wanna say that "a thousand years" by christina perri is definitely charlie and nick's song. i'm sorry but i'm right

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literally THANK YOU for the ones on the left 😭 my parents always check my phone for time and stuff and if they saw some gay stuff being there they'd literally kill me (cuz they're homophobic and i literally hate them for that) and the left ones 😭😭😭 they're SO COOL 😭 TYSM

heartstopper wallpapers - nick & charlie

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joe locke deserves the world btw

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So I binged all of Heartstopper the day it dropped and just finished watching the whole thing again, and I don’t know if anyone has talked about this already, but I want to talk about it, so. I’ve never seen a closeted queer character be treated with as much respect as Nick is in this show. 

Time and time again closeted queer characters have their being in the closet treated as them being ashamed, inauthentic, or cowardly. A lot of times, them being in the closet is painted as a burden on their out partner or correlated with them being a shitty partner. Maybe I’m wrong and there’s tons of shows that don’t portray closeted characters in this way, but it’s the only way I’ve ever seen them written.

Early on in Heartstopper, I was bracing myself for more of the same. It opened with Ben as the shitty closeted partner to openly (albeit against his will) gay Charlie, and while emphasis was placed on the issue being Ben treating Charlie poorly and not him being in the closet, I was worried, especially when there’s later a clear comparison drawn between Ben and Nick both wanting to keep the relationship a secret. I was really, really hoping the narrative wasn’t going to demonize Nick for being in the closet, but I was keeping my expectations low.

And then the show did the exact opposite of everything I’m used to. A few examples off the top of my head in no particular order:

Charlie from the beginning clarifying Nick is nothing like Ben when Nick looks guilty about the commonality

Tara telling Nick he shouldn’t come out before he’s ready

Nick apologizing for pulling back from a kiss when someone bikes by and Charlie telling him not to be sorry

Charlie continuously checking in that Nick is telling people about them because he wants to and not because he feels pressured to

Charlie being conscious of PDA with Nick to make him comfortable

Tao telling Nick Charlie would never force him to come out and shouldn’t

Nick talking to Charlie about possibly being bisexual before he’s sure and Charlie being supportive of that

Nick coming out entirely of his own accord with people he trusts solely because he feels comfortable

No big or public coming out at the end to solidify or validate the relationship, no guilting or shaming Nick for not telling people yet, no framing like Nick being closeted is burdening Charlie, no framing like Nick wasn’t being true to himself by not being out and proud

AND all of this was accompanied by giving a balanced view of coming out from different perspectives, such as how Tara feels unprepared and overwhelmed by the ramifications of coming out. The show acknowledges both how coming out on one’s own terms can feel really good and how there’s also pitfalls to be considered. The narrative treats Nick figuring things out, accepting his identity, and slowly coming out as as valid as Tara and Darcy being openly queer to their whole school.

I’ve never seen a closeted queer character be validated like this and it almost made me cry. Heartstopper represented coming out in all of its nuance and complexity, and watching Charlie be completely and unwaveringly supportive of Nick’s journey with self-discovery and coming out really got to me. There’s a strong impression left that Nick is able to feel comfortable and happy coming out specifically because he was given so much space and support to figure things out and come out at his own pace, to who he decided, entirely because he wanted to and thought it was the best decision for him.

In the first episode, this show said “Being in the closet is okay–what’s important is how you treat people,” and it stuck to it, because Nick is in the closet, but he’s also openly friends with Charlie, he sticks up for him, he’s physically affectionate, he looks out for his feelings, he’s patient, he gives genuine apologies when he’s screwed up, he tells Charlie exactly how much he means to him.

So many movies and shows give teenagers the impression they need to know who they are and come out asap in order to live truly as themselves, that they need to be out in order to be good enough to date someone who’s out. Heartstopper called bullshit on that and instead sent the message that self-discovery and coming out is difficult and complex and wonderful and can happen in any timeframe. I’m an adult with years of experience coming out, but I’m so so glad and grateful that this generation of teens gets queer content targeted at them that validates their journey no matter what it looks like, where they are in it, or how long it takes.

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hi!

my name's amina, i'm a minor, and from central asia. obsessed with heartstopper, marvel, harry potter and classical music (finished music school playing a folk instrument but i'm obsessed with piano rn, started playing in in february 2021). yeah.

i also read all the heartstopper comics (and waiting for updates). i'm absolutely in love with them!!! kinda wish i could read all the books, but the finals are coming up and i can't 😭 i rly loved the series though!

ships i ship (hehehe): mainly drarry and sambucky, other than that i don't really care tbh

favourite composers: rachmaninoff (obviolusly), ravel, debussy, sibelius

i also enjoy watching twosetviolin

i'm making this post in hopes of finding friends here, so, if you're interested in anything i've stated earlier, please interact? i want to make more friends!

xx

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"lmao why were they always saying hi like that" NO YOU DONT UNDERSTAND OK YOU DONT UNDERSTAND ITS ABOUT NICK BEING SO HAPPY TO SEE CHARLIE IN PUBLIC ITS ABOUT HIM GIVING CHARLIE HIS ATTENTION SO FREELY AFTER CHARLIE'S SPENT MONTHS BEING IGNORED BY BEN AND THINKING HIM SIMPLY EXISTING IS A BURDEN TO EVERYONE AROUND HIM WHILE NICK IS JUST SO HAPPY THAT CHARLIE EXISTS AND IS NEAR HIM WHETHER ITS AS A FRIEND OR A BOYFRIEND OR ANYTHING HE JUST CHERISHES CHARLIE SO MUCH AS HE DESERVES

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how I felt reading Heartstopper

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ABSOLUTELY NO ONE is talking about joe locke’s incredible performance in heartstopper and it’s so upsetting to me!! he makes the show, there is something so inexplicably charlie about him that makes the two of them work together !! you can’t have nick without charlie and i think kit connor was just as wonderful and incredible but EVERYONE is ignoring the intricacies of charlie’s character that joe has so expertly weaved into little moments such as the anticipative fear and anxiety that hides within charlie!! playing a character like charlie is hard and he did a bloody brilliant job of it !! BASICALLY a joe locke appreciation post

p.s. i love kit connor’s performance just as much but i feel like the love needs to be more evenly spread