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[amorous-raine]

you throw coal into the pit in my stomach

with a single glance I’m a blaze

You make me sick

You make me stutter

You make me want to run away

Or run into your fire

Youre made of embers

Glowing and golden

Everyone loves a warm fire

But I am far too cold blooded for you

You make me overheat

It’s as much as I can stand

I distance myself from you and am still ever so drawn in

What do you want me to do with this rage

I cannot give it away

I hold it close and smush it up and throw it in your face

But you hit it back twice as hard.

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He is half my soul, as the poets say;

My body forever awash in your light

I will have that again some day.

Your undying romantic heart would never stray

And our souls locked together so tight

He is half my soul as the poets say;

Oh how I cried out for you to stay

And you begged me to calm with all your mite

I will have that again some day

The distance growing as my hearts dismay

Banging at my Time Machine to take flight

He is half my soul, as the poets say

Then finally, the passenger seat of your car I lay

And the wrenching of my gut keeps me up at night

I will have that again some day

Never had my body felt what you relay

Making all the chaos of the world feel alright.

He is half my soul, as the poets say;

I will have that again some day.

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song lyrics that gut me to my core, an ongoing list

- “i never touched you how i wanted to” triple dog dare by lucy dacus

- “i’m scared to death that i’ll scream your name,” id have to think about it by leith ross

- “what in the world do we have at a quarter to four,” in the bed by dodie

- “i’d go hungry and crazy and honest for you,” a concert six months from now by finneas

- “life’s too short to worry about the things we got wrong,” hug all your friends by cavetown

- “here everyone knows you’re the way to my heart,” punisher by phoebe bridgers

- “did we look like lovers or partners in crime?” partners in crime by finneas

- “if you got married, i’d object, throw my shoe at the altar and lose your respect,” christine by lucy dacus

- “don’t you think it’s funny that i’m asking you for your mercy after all those nights you asked me for dance,” carefully by ben platt

- “call me if you need a friend or never talk to me again but please stay,” please stay by lucy dacus

- “and the funny thing is i would’ve married you, if you had stuck around,” doomsday by lizzy mcalpine

- “i didn’t know you then and i’ll never understand why it feels like i did,” smoke signals by phoebe bridgers

- “i don’t know why everytime that i think of home, i can picture you standing in the snow,” same boat by lucy dacus

- “one word from you and i’d jump off this ledge im on baby,” first love / late spring by mitski

- “will you call when you’re back at school? i remember thinking i had you,” august by taylor swift

- “but for some reason, you’re not here and i refuse to believe that means something,” means something by lizzy mcalpine

- "i hope i was wrong about someday, right about today," what a year today has been by hana bryanne

[amorous-raine]

Louise Glück, Winter Recipes from the Collective; from 'Winter Recipes from the Collective'

[amorous-raine]

And where do my hands go if not to yours? Where do I place my overflowing cup when it deserves to be gulped from — if not your place at the table? And where should I look when there’s no other thoughts to be had or when there’s too many to conquer?

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Where do butterflies go when it rains? When they don’t watch the news and get caught in a down pour. Their wings fluttering to try and save its dust while plummeting toward concrete. How do they stay safe when the world is such an unpredictable place. Can they feel it in their gut like I can feel it in mine? Do they know bad things will happen before they do?

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Reflection

I am a doll in the display

Surrounded by panes of glass and formed to be the perfect mold

I am the mannequin on the wall

Giving you the silent glare from across the way

I see no light, yet I am not dark

There is no color, but somehow there’s a spark

I want to reach them, I’m clawing my way in but the glass is too thick and I don’t have the skill

[amorous-raine]

Sanober Khan

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Sweet Things

after a very tough day she walked through the door,

and I held her close, wordless love and comfort

then tears on my shoulder, and I began to whisper

sweet things into her ear,

as every fragment of negative

simply melted away….

© copyright Black Dog in the Woods

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— franz kafka, letters to milena

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Can you hold me a little longer? I don’t wish to leave our paradise just yet. Although the world is around us, in your arms it’s as if it’s cold hands have never touched me

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The way the bees love the flowers and the frogs love the rain is the way that I love you

Like a tireless writer going manic from focus and ideas I cannot stop thinking about your beautiful face and bringing it close to mine

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I’d kiss every part of you you didn’t like until you believed me when I said you were the most beautiful thing on this earth

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“I am constantly trying to communicate something incommunicable, to explain something inexplicable, to tell about something I only feel in my bones and which can only be experienced in those bones.”

— Franz Kafka | Letters to Milena

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I’ve decided I will run away

To somewhere they don’t know me

To somewhere I don’t know me

To someone I dont know where

I’ve decided I need a break

Not for a weekend or a week

But for an eternity longer than heaven but shorter than hell

[amorous-raine]

I wear a lot of hats

Some are big, some are small.

Some are itchy and I don’t like wearing them at all

Some are more worn down than others from the frequency I use them

My favorites are the brand new hats that feel warm and fit me well

But you know what they say about wearing hats too much

You’ll start to go bald they say

Your head needs to see the sun at least once a day or your hair will fall out and you’ll feel a sense of shame

But I like my hats, I try to yell

But no ones around to hear it

So I take off my hat and place it on the rack and look in the mirror and gasp

A shining head, dark eye bags, and a rash above my forehead

Without my hats I’m nothing but a skeleton

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Please be gentle with me

Although I look strong and made of metal, I am delicate and wish to be handled with care

Don’t fret about shattering me like glass because I will keep my tough exterior until the final cracks connect

But please be gentle with me