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Thisss

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it’s been a minute but i’m the thinnest i’ve been in years and honestly the end finally feels in sight. gonna get back into the motions on here cause i wanna hold myself accountable. when the goals begin to feel achievable you can’t let them go, you know?

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ORSEUND IRIS

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i never post about purging on here like explicit bc it’s so nasty i’m never proud of it but it’s the biggest thing i struggle with and it i’m so used to smelling like puke at this point that i don’t even blink

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lmaoo going thru my shit and ofc i was doing this cause of a man what else motivates me most?

heres whats happened since ive been gone

my doctor threatened to hospitalize me back in October when i wasn’t eating anything because i was on wellbutrin back then and that plus EDs = seizures so i slowly started recovering. when that happened i was 171 lbs and then i crept back up to 182 lbs, but stayed at 182. i was doing really well up until january, when the binge eating issues came back. by june i weighed 196 lbs and i felt dangerously close to how i was when I started this blog. breaking two hundred is a big no for me so i had a couple of false starts, lots of purging with metformin, and now im just back to not eating again. ive dropped to 191 in three days so that’s progress i guess? but it never feels enough. you all know the feeling lmao. i fasted for two days and took metformin like crazy until yesterday at work i felt like i was gonna pass out and started crying in front of my boss (partly due to other reasons but I think the state i was in physically really prompted the meltdown). he offered to buy me food so I had a sandwich. felt awful for breaking fast but better physically. took like six metformin the second i got home and got rid of that garbage. took four more this morning. it hasn’t been fun but i feel almost cleansed of the food so idk. anyway, im gonna go back to fasting because there’s an event on Friday and i wanna break the 180s by then. hope you all are well, stay safe!!

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i smell like puke again

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guess who binged on fuCKING APPLES

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ED movies be like *compares self to other girls* *pretends she already ate* *steps on scale* *pretends she already ate* *steps on scale* *eats a sandwich* *throws up* *steps on scale* *lies to parents* *lies to parents* *hair falls out* *lies to parents* *health scare* *lies to parents* *another health scare* *eats* *the end*

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me telling people about my life

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Sorry can’t go out cuz I’M FAT

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I hope this hasn���t been done yet

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Honestly, you might be on to something there.

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post on the thinspo tag : ✨✨reblog to lose 10 pounds overnight!! ✨✨

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