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Let me lose weight please

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The most taboo fashion talk: the first rule to look effortlessly fashionable is to be real thin

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The most taboo fashion talk: the first rule to look effortlessly fashionable is to be real thin

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I needed to gain weight for my job requirements. To pass those medical tests for japan. Now that’s all cleared, I want to lose all the weight I gained. And lose more

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Well I passed my medical exam for japan. So I’m back to smoking

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You know how I should not be gaining weight because I have hyperthyroidism. But I just want to lose more weight

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Sorry I’m back in my parents so I won’t be able to skip meals do a long while. Wish me luck

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It’s happening again. I don’t want to do anything. I’m being lazy. But I have an interview later. I should at least clean my room

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The Philippines has this event called fiesta. It’s basically all you can eat and more like thanksgiving in the US. And of course I binge eat.

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Tomorrow I promise I’ll be kinder to myself

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This is me reading this book hoping it’ll fix my life

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So my mom just fueled my ed. saying why I’m the last to leave the table as if I’ve been starved for days. Well guess what— won’t happen again I promise

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Breaking my fast with this. Seriously why did I fast in the first place? I’m stuck at 40skg

I actually gained 1kg? Yep

I realize I do fasting to at least not gain weight. I don’t lose weight anymore

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I’m not hungry really. But I’m shaking. And I noticed my tongue is wavy. I googled it and it’s called scalloped tongue. Says I should hydrate, maintain healthy weight, and quit smoking

I don’t know

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I don’t diet. If there’s food, my ed would take over and I’ll consume everything. I can’t do portions. It’s either I binge or I starve

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One day down. 20 hours to go

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Signing up for a 2 day fast. Because my life sucks and the least I can do. The most I should do is lose weight