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I fucking did it. I hit my goal weight. 18 lbs down 5 more to go

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Last night I was at a Halloween party and I was walking by and one of my friends said, “ Kennedy you look so good!” And I was wearing a skeleton body suit so it was meant to be tight and when she was leaving I gave her a hug and she told me how fit I felt and how she could feel my stomach and ribs. I was fasting for 50+ hours and felt so euphoric

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Starting this today<3

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this user has an ED but supports and encourages recovery

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you should skip breakfast today, you messed up yesterday.

ok, im sorry

check the scale.

i messed up, im sorry.

do better or you'll never get anywhere.

i will

go to school

done :)

probably skip lunch too

i can do that

go to work

i did it

don't eat too much for dinner, you'll just mess everything up again.

i won't, i promise

write that essay and do good on it

i got a B!

you got an A last time...

im sorry, i'll do better.

just remember, you're only worth it when you're perfect.

im trying

try harder.

im tired

you're just lazy.

ur right, im sorry

you know i do this for you, don't you?

yes, thank you

no breakfast today.

alright

check the scale

...

you're not hungry for lunch either, right?

no, im not.

do your homework.

all done :)

i don't think dinner is a good idea.

me either.

what did you eat today?

not much

good.

are you...proud of me yet?

are you perfect?

no, but im trying.

try harder.

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I miss that euphoric feeling while fasting

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I cant wait til I looks as sick as I feel

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If I actually got my shit together I would be at my ugw in less than two months

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TW:ED

Alternatives to Splenda

I think I found the best 0 cal sweetener that doesn’t taste bitter. There are two different taste receptors known as TAS2R31 and TAS2R43, whereas TAS2R31 is the bitter receptor and TAS2R43 is the sweet. Sweeteners such as Splenda and sweet n low have the ability to give off the receptors unlike actual sugar.

Alternative: monkfruit

I’ve been using monkfruit for about a year and it’s the closest thing to sugar that I’ve ever had.

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TW/// ED

I really want to talk to my friends about my eating disorder

It’s been so difficult having an ed for two years and not having anyone to talk to about it. I’ve recently had to quit a sport that I’ve done for 13 years because of it and I am so tempted to open up about it. I’m terrified that if I say something, they would think I’m faking it or I’m being dramatic but it is so stressful dealing with this on my own. Now don’t get me wrong, I have absolutely no intention on recovery but I am so weighed down on this secret.

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Why am I starving myself?

Because I feel like I have to be perfect to be loved

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They’re going to wish they never fat shamed me

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One year ago a 16 hour fast was difficult

6 months ago a 20 fast was difficult

Now I can a 48 hour fast

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You love to see it

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Summer is in a month I need to get my shit together