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Okay so this isn’t a vent but i very much need to say it:

Bit of a long post but:

Im not going to be inactive for a bit, it might be a month or it might be until next summer, I don’t know.

At the moment, I’m going through a lot of change, which is a very scary thing— and i need space off the internet and to myself to figure out what i want in/out of life.

I’m also coming to the point again in life where i need to make a lot of big decisions, both medical and school wise and i think im online a lot, this has been clouding my judgement and distracting me from things that need my attention more, I think I need to establish my life in a way i can enjoy it and become more confident in it. Because I currently have no life outside academia and the internet, i want to find myself and figure out what i like and dont like, hobbies and what i truly want out of my classes and everything else. I’m probably going to be active on my other discord account if you wanted to keep in touch and you have it purely because i use it for school and work purposes. But yeah, if you dont hear from me for a while that’s why.

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Who up & searching for a sense of belonging

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at this point it would be less of a liability for elon’s lawyers to just kill him and take their chances on a murder trial

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List of White Rappers Who Have Been Corrupted By The Amulet

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are you guys OK. sometimes i get the vibe, that you are at your wits end

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one of my girlfriends only tells the truth. my other girlfriend only tells lies.

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Got a new favorite spam email

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ok well im going to build a good future for myself whether i like it or not

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for anon

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everyone on this site like "we LOVE weird genders give me weird genders I love boydykes and girlfags" and then a transfem person with a beard will call herself a lesbian. or a bigender person will identify with being gay in both directions. or a gay man calls his partner his wife. or a butch lesbian connects too closely to manhood for your comfort (or a butch exists, in general). or someone just has a weird and contradictory relationship between their gender, sexuality, and sex in a way that you don't understand

and then you all shit bricks and start sobbing and wailing.

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no boyfriend no girlfriend no money no prospects but at least i got all these images on my cell phone

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To all the straight girls who take a photo of a gay man (real or fictional) and photoshop the nails, sparkles, and kissy face emojis on them. Then say shit like "Yaassss""Queen!!!""She slayed, she ate""Girlypop!", especially to characters and people who have nothing to do with that aesthetic, just because they want to make a caricature of a gay man. I hope you know you're being homophobic, it doesn't matter that you're "supporting" their queerness, you are actively making fun of them for being gay. Plus you're being fucking demeaning to gay men who are actually flamboyant, they are not a prop, they're people.

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To all the straight girls who take a photo of a gay man (real or fictional) and photoshop the nails, sparkles, and kissy face emojis on them. Then say shit like "Yaassss""Queen!!!""She slayed, she ate""Girlypop!", especially to characters and people who have nothing to do with that aesthetic, just because they want to make a caricature of a gay man. I hope you know you're being homophobic, it doesn't matter that you're "supporting" their queerness, you are actively making fun of them for being gay. Plus you're being fucking demeaning to gay men who are actually flamboyant, they are not a prop, they're people.

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i’m realizing that i have so much time. i have time to grow my hair long. i have time to cut it all off and then to grow it back again. i have time to discover new hobbies and give up on things that no longer serve me. i have time to grow and change and travel and change my opinions and live differently than how i am now. i have so much time. take a deep breath and slow down

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people new to tumblr angry about being blocked or writing huge paragraphs about why they chose to block someone like i promise you it’s not that deep i once blocked someone because their blog was obnoxiously orange and i hate the color orange

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You are going to laugh until your stomach hurts again. You're going to be in awe of a sunset. Watch your favorite show while you eat your favorite food. Find money on the street. Discover a great band you haven't heard of before. You will find your way back.