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Well I put my name in the drawing for the 2019 New York City Marathon 🙈😬😬

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I haven’t blogged since April of 2018. Way too long. At one point I believe my blog was inspirational to others but then life got in the way and for me life isn’t always inspirational. Sometimes I’m in a grove other times I’m fighting through. Where do I start? Well I did not do a full marathon in 2018, I wanted to but life and my self motivation had other plans. I did however, PR my half marathon time. My first Half Marathon was in April 2017 3:30, and in November 2018 I did the Space Coast Half Marathon in 3:10. I was so happy, beyond happy. I set out to PR and I did. I trained, I eat right for my body and I did it.

Work is awesome, that’s always good. Kids are great, that’s always a blessing. I have a niece now. She’s so precious! I haven’t met her in physical form yet, but I can’t wait. I realized I used to talk about God, single life and football a lot. These days I talk about running and thanking God for another day. Weird how the other older you get, your priorities shift. You realized that there aren’t enough hours in a day and you find yourself not spending time of the things that don’t grow you. There’s been times I’ve been mad at God and currently is not one of those times. I’m happy for that. These days I spend a lot of time trying to figure him out, and others I give up and say “your right, not my plan… yours”. More like a parent/child relationship. I wasn’t always good at those as a child lol. He has a great sense of humor. He likes to show me that the same face or thoughts I give him, my 8 year old will follow suite. My x husband has been married for a year and a half, for those of you that followed my divorce blog. I don’t have any comments on that, remember what I said “if it doesn’t grow me it doesn’t require my time”. ;-) We co parent very well and for that I’m grateful.

My half marathon in 2018 was a destination race (traveled solely for the race). That was a new concept for me. The hotel experience was horrible, and the race was wonderful. I only got 3 hours of sleep the night before due to the horribly loud air conditioner in the hotel. And I still managed to PR. I was going for a time of 2:59 but it’s all good.

So what’s been going on in this head of mine… I’ve been on IG more. I’ve found tons of inspiration on there. I’ve learned you don’t give anyone any constructive criticism , no matter how strong, cool or Christ like they claim to be. You only give good feedback or none at all. Note to self. I’ve learned there’s a lot of comparison in this world. I’ve learned people love short cuts and hide their weakness. I learned that the run community is amazing, and I’m so glad I’ve plugged in. I’ve learned you can loose yourself wanting to fit in. I’m speaking of myself not only the people I follow (and have unfollowed). I’ve always been transparent in my blog that will never end.

I still go to church, do bible study when it’s not focused on being a single mom or being a woman. How about bible studies that focus on balance of fitting in, in this crazy world. How about reminding ourselves that our bodies shouldn’t be coved in scales and that we can achieve anything no matter our BMI or marital status. Or stop being judgmental when your God is really money and not God himself. I lead a Financial Peace study last year and I was amazed how many Christians did not want God to be God over their money. Well in case you doubted, God is still God of my life. He comes before my kids, running, work, relationships, food prep, fitness, or anything else. My mental health depends on him. Speaking of mental health. I’m not shy about telling people I deal with anxiety. It’s not anything for me to be ashamed of. It affects all areas of my life. I don’t take medication, not that anything is wrong with that. Mainly because I hate swallowing pills and some of them affect my appetite. As long as I eat to fuel and run/work out it helps tons.

Well, I’ll wrap this up. Writing has always been therapy for me. I feel like I need a little therapy. I feel like what I have inside could help others. Even if it’s just to let someone know, hey I struggle with the same things. I claimed 2019 to be the year of continuous for me. I feel 2018 got be back on track in my life and I want to grow and improve on that and continue the momentum. I want to expend on my passions and start to see some traction on the legacy I want to leave for my kids. This year I turn 40, my focus has no longer been weight (although I do have some I want to lose), looking for love (although I miss someone caring about me), or comparison (of all of the above). Strengthening my foundation is my focus. I may blog a few times back to back just to categorize my thoughts. Happy New Year and Be Well :)

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Last week was rough Pms it is was it is... no weight loss this week still on the #weighlossjourney grind I have so much IG inspiration that I follow! Just wanted to say I don't follow or allow followers that use pills for weight loss. I also don't follow or allow to follow me people who don't embrace curvy runners... I don't have body issues but it makes me wonder you do if everyone is size 3 on your page 🤷🏽‍♀️ just saying #irunthisbody My life priorities are God, kids and fitness and working to contribute to all of the above 💋 My hope is to be the best mom and runner I can this year to get back to the best version of myself 😘 I'm working towards 26.2 by 40 and an ultra by 50 Hopefully do some destination races 🏃🏽‍♀️ I've been single for almost a year and it that's ok 👌🏽 my time will come 😻 I have awesome friends! .... unless I find someone who's goals are similar to me 😉 a girl can dream right 💋😘 Happy Saturday #gettingmysexyback #motherrunner #runningwhilefat #plussizerunner

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I haven't blogged in forever!!! Almost a year!!! Well I'm still alive, still single (yeah I know you can't believe it lol) and still loving life 😘 Current weight 174 (got phat again 😘) Goal 147 Next medal up for grabs 5k 4.8.18 Oh yeah and I'm training for the Savanna Rock n roll marathon 💋 Why? I say why not!

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So this happened today my first half marathon whoop whoop and this is when I hit my wall lol

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First race of the year 5k time: you don’t want to know :-( 44:14

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My brother in law is home 🏡 after almost a year away in Kuwait... Thank you Jesus!!! So yeah I get upset when people don't stand for the flag 🇺🇸and support people who don't stand... because people like my brother in law (a minority like myself) put his life on the line everyday so 🏀ppl can keeping owing cars that are 3x most of our salaries and most likely yours... chew on that... So the next time you are watching a game on your big screen TV and the national anthem comes on and you think about not standing 💭.... my sister spent 320 sleepless nights wondering if she would stand next to her husband again.... #mylastventof2016 I don't love everything about USA but God put me here...and not to acquire more "stuff" #livesmatter As a 300 woman I always work on offense... so sit on your throne and enjoy the freedoms my Brother~In~Law provides you 💋

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This is so cute!!

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I’m blessed, praise The Lord 😭

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Today’s weight: too heavy to report I put the scale on a first class flight ✈️to MIA lol Today’s mood: Blessed and sipping Tea ☕️ and Green at that 💋

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Let me take a Selfie

Hello all, another day another dollar. I will admit I am loving my gig these days. That’s defiantly an answered prayer. I was reading the other day that people who take selfie’s are happier. Now I’m not sure that’s true for the teenager at the stop light, fixing her hair 20x’s and taking a selfie with each flip. I know you’ve seen them. When you’re at a really long light and you glance at in the mirror. Or the KK sister’s, really I can do without the published ones that are posted on the front page of MSN or Yahoo. And no I’m not jealous. In my mind this theory would be crazy. The other day my 6 year asked for a phone holder while she watches Netflix on the phone. I thought “what are you talking about”. It appears she saw someone with a selfie stick while we were out, and Thank GOD! She doesn’t realize what it really is.

We have social media outlets that cater to taking pictures. But I still hate Facebook. Sorry but I don’t feel the need to be that available to my high school or college graduating class. They even have a song about it. Selfies that is. Which I have run to, many of times and I actually like it. Okay, so my point… I think the article may be right. The other night I took a selfie of My Guy and I while on date night, and then the next day was looking at it while at work. It made me smile. For me it’s hard to remember to capture the moment on camera but when I do I love it. I can easily pull it up and relive it. And yes, I still have a boyfriend another month down. Whoop whoop! It’s been so awesome. Just on a side note lol. In pictures all I do is smile and I love it. That wasn’t always the case. And that’s okay. My guy makes all my hang-ups worth it. Looking at ourselves is hard. Most people on a weight loss journey started because of a picture. When you see yourself how others see you it hits you harder. Some people have bigger bank accounts then other and so they buy a new body, house or stuff to make the picture better.

Myself I change who I am from the inside and then the picture develops on the outside. Sometimes I take a selfie while running a 5k, to remember that “I did that”. Sometimes I take one of the kids and I in the car, because why not let them know that I’m all about that bass (the Disney version). I can be cool too. Yes, secretly the best ones are of my boyfriend and I. He’s so silly and I love it. Because the best parts of my “selfie’s” you actually don’t see. Yes, KK sisters, some of the best things in life are better left uncovered ;-)

To close, the next time you think about it “take a Selfie” Who knows you may cheer up, or you may see things you need to change. Both are positives.

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Being exposed is not a bad thing… You can focus on the details, enjoy the Beauty and redress your life 😘

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Pulse check

Hello I’m still alive Thank God!!! Life has been crazy for sure. Not sure where to start. My kiddos are great, I hate my job actively looking for another one, weight is up 5lbs, okay 7 lol, the last race I ran was a 10K and these days 2 miles are a struggle…last but not least I have a boyfriend. Took me months to give in to him, I’m lying it was love at first sight. It’s been about 2 months were I can say I have a boyfriend without laughing. These days I’m so proud to call him my guy, my boo lol my babe.

The love bug has made me a bit fluffy but I have returned to the gym. I got 3 race medals already this year and I’m going for 3 more. One of them will either be 9.3 miles or 13.1 maybe both ;-)

Dating after divorce wasn’t easy, but I realized that being with someone that brings out the best in you feels easy. At first you want nothing to do with the opposite sex, then you say “if this is all there is I’m good” lol, then you meet someone who sneaks up on you when you least expect it, and to be honest you both kind of say “what the hell” and it becomes the greatest moment of your life.

We are pretty serious and I think he’s “the one”. That part doesn’t scare me it makes me smile for days. He’s had some health issues since within the last month. Which did scare me at first, and still does. Lord knows I’m not the best care giver, I can get you take out for days and meds from Walgreen’s but the middle part needs some work. I’m hanging in there. Praying his health will get better and my patience.

I’m so happy it keeps me up at night. I hate to go to sleep and miss out on thinking about him. I know that sounds cray cray lol and for once in a really long time I have pictures with a real smile! Of course it’s not all great all the time we drive each other equally crazy. Which I think is so funny not in the moment, but shortly after. Keeping a relationship healthy is like having a running partner. Making a conscious effort to stay at the same pace or at least 10ft difference lol. Motivating each other to be first place and yet compassionate enough to take a needed walk break. Creating a pace that both are comfortable with.

As a Christian woman I was made to feel like I couldn’t/shouldn’t ever date again. Which made me really mad at Christians. Mainly because they don’t make Christian men feel that way and remarry them with no problems. So I’ll forewarn you now, if I continue to blog I’m not going to sound like the perfect Christian or the perfect health nut. This is my journey and that’s ok.

Well gotta go! Have a dazling weekend! Lee

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Some of us do “Get Ugly” “Yeah!” Considered a fool cause I drop out of highschool 😘"Juicy" at the the end of day “Boom, I got your boyfriend”, cause some of us like to have our “Cake by the ocean” 😜 u know Latina’s they get “Krazy” #runplaylist #irongirl5K always hungry for bling 😛

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Lent Day 31.... When the time change is kicking your a$$ and now your eyes need some cucumbers

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I eat 5k's for breakfast! Does the body good 😜 I'm still sore just had to report lol

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Sunday run motivation….I’ve been slacking big time! I only ran 7 miles this week 😝 next weeks goal 12!

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Just because my team is not in the playoffs doesn't mean they still don't pump me up for my Sunday run 😘