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I am a creature formed of power

I am divine, ethereal

I am carved of stone and gold, I hold myself with pride

I am a creature of strength, I wield the sword of god, one wing dipped in blood

I cannot be contained, for I am air itself

I am an angel, I am power I am light I am gentle I am war.

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If I had a shrine I'd want it to be a sanctuary.

I'd want it to be furnished with comfortable chairs underneath a roof. A fireplace where the offering is a constant supply of dry wood and tinder.

I'd want people to hang out there, to know it's a spot of peace, protected by their goddess to escape away from the chaos of every day

I'd want lovers to meet there, no flowers ever left for me but scattered petals, remnants of humanity's love all over it's floors.

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⚜️Angel Knight ⚜️

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A quick reminder: your nonhuman experiences are your own. They don't have to be 'cute' or 'fun' or 'aesthetic' and don't feel weird if your nonhuman behaviours aren't like the average experiance.

There is no average nonhuman experience, don't think too much about how others perceive your behaviours because it's no one else's business.

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i love pictures of the international space station which are just completely overexposed because that is just.. unequivocally an angel.

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i don’t know if i believe in any god(s) or if i am even religious but i wrote this tonight about how i feel. i have a terribly strong urge to go and shout the last line up into the stars from an open field.

i can feel my wings tearing through the muscles of my back, aching and twitching and burning inside me. they are connected to my soul and they want to be connected to my body.

must i suffer so? must i live this way, trapped in a body that fights against my very presence within?

my god, o my god, why hast thou forsaken me?

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I miss Heaven.

I miss the gardens and the rivers and the pavilions. I miss training and dancing with my little siblings.

I miss Uriel's library, and Raphael's halls of healing.

I even miss the throne room, where nobody sat.

I miss the endless sunny days, and the butterfly-like creatures that danced in the air.

I can still see it, but it's different to physically being there.

To all my siblings: I love you, and I miss you.

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ANGELS WINGS in movies & tv-series :

Passion Play (2010) Dogma (1999) Hellboy 2 (2008) Supernatural (2005-2020) Good Omens (2019) Constantine (2005) Lucifer (2015—) Date with an Angel (1987) Legion (2010) Dominion (2014-2015) Wings of Desire (1987) Michael (1996) Angels in America (2003)

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Does anyone else (particularly endels) have an issue taking care of themself sometimes due to species dysphoria? I am a divine creature and this body is just a shell I’m living in. It’s difficult for me to take care of myself currently since it directly clashes with who I feel my real self is. It feels like pretending to be human brings me farther from my true self/form. I outwardly play the part of human for the sake of the people around me, but I don’t know…sometimes I get tired <_>

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What to do When You Retire from Sainthood

Take the jewels from your eyes. You must learn to see the world differently now that you are no longer blessed. When before the world was beautiful and cast eternally in the glow of glory, now you will see it for what it is; and the loss will drive you to madness.

You must keep hidden. Disappear into the woods or mountains, hide your face in the cities, for there are those who still worship you and kill in your name. They would consecrate your body again, should they find you; they would drill holes in you and fill them with libations, paint your feet with their blood. The trauma of losing a patron saint is too great, they cannot allow it.

Do not answer their prayers. You will hear the screams of the innocent and the demands of killers, all begging for power, control, peace, victory. You have no power to help them, but still their voices will ring in your ears. Do not promise relief that you cannot bring. False hope will only increase their suffering.

Your name has been struck from the scrolls. Take a new one. An empty name with no meaning and no power. A name unknown by the Divine you once served. It will keep you from being called back into service.

Do not visit your churches. Those shrines are for a you that you are not anymore. Paintings and sculptures stare back at you like mirrors, a tryptich showing your birth, canonization, and death, all painting so lovingly by the hands of your disciples. Laypeople light candles and kneel before your image, pleading for your intercession. You torture yourself. Come, let us leave this place.

Your wounds will begin to fade now. The crack in your heart, the brand on your skull, your fingers, your eyes, they will all return and heal but only this once. You will not be granted this clemency again.

Another will take your place and become favourite and perfect in the eyes of that Holy Thing. They will visit you in the place you have hidden yourself and they will look upon you with pity and jealousy. Here, see how they extend their hand to you, offering you mercy and salvation? See the sneer that catches their lips? The desperate desire in their eyes? They hate you. They cannot help but adore you, for you were the first. They pray to you now, every moment of everyday their wretched voice cries out to you;

WEAK THING! TRAITOR AND COWARD, they scream, hands clasped and knuckles white as the kneel before your image, I WILL SERVE YOU. I WILL SHOW YOU! I AM ABOVE YOU, I AM FAVOURED! WHY WON'T YOU LOOK UPON ME? ROTTEN THING! PATHETIC, LAUGHABLE, BEAUtiful, adored, perfect, perfect.

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“I’m an angel.

I kill firstborns while their mamas watch.

I turn cities into salt.

I even, when I feel like it,

rip the souls from little girls,

and from now till kingdom come,

the only thing you can count on in your existence,

is never understanding why.”

- Did you ever notice how in the Bible, when ever God needed to punish someone, or make an example, or whenever God needed a killing, he sent an angel? Did you ever wonder what a creature like that must be like? A whole existence spent praising your God, but always with one wing dipped in blood. Would you ever really want to see an angel?

The Prophecy (1995)

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To be created without wings is the cruelest of punishments.

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Angel Week

Creatures from Judaic religion, also used in Islamic and Christian belief systems. Originally the messengers of God with no freewill of their own, but later changed by Christians to be capable of independent thought and even falling from grace due to sin and rebellion.

Sunday: Sin - Holy Messanger and Unholy Recipient - "What's a birdie like you doing down here? Are you lost?"

Monday: Blinding Light - Botched Blessing - "I come in the name of God. Please don't resist. It'll only be worse for you."

Tuesday: Wing Clipping - Demonic Posession - "Do not be afraid."

Wednesday: Divine Punishment - Stranded - "Please forgive me. Something as beautiful as you can't possibly be this cruel.

Thursday: Hellfire - Eternal Separation - "Do angels bleed? I bet it looks real pretty like."

Friday: Feather Plucking - Abandoned by God - "Let us rejoice in the name of our Lord. For he is eternal and we will serve Him until the stars go out."

Saturday: Eye Gouging - Stripped of Freewill - "It was a mistake. That's all. Please don't hurt me."

Have fun ♡♡♡

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Do I, an angel, really need a god to worship?