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[annawayne]

Happy Saturday! Chapter 3 of Where the Spirit Meets the Bones is out :)

This is the longest thing I've ever written and I'm very proud of it. I hope you guys enjoy 6k words of angst! :)

[annawayne]

*breaking my silence*

Both Annie and Armin don't have rizz in the conventional way, because both of them fall out of the usual "standards" and archetypes both in their psychology and appearance.

Annie is presented like "cold bitch", Armin - like "innocent sunshine", and this is what Isayma makes us believe for a very short time, until we see the *true* colors of them, where these characterizations are still present, but it's only a part of them, the mere glimpse. Natural, adoptive or false - it's another question, sometimes it's all together, sometimes - only one is true, sometimes - it changes.

So, they don't have a "rizz", but they have an underlying charm - doesn't mean the one from "fairytales". It couldn't be explained by simple words like this or "rizz", because it's something more on the surface, something that we could name or imagine when we mutter the word - yes, media also played a part how we see, but it's not the point (I certainly wouldn't go on the essay how we see a lot of characters through the prism of stereotypes the media taught us).

They attract and interest people, pretty much like the flowers that turned out to be poisonous - but some people can teach themselves to be resistant to this venom. "Rizz" would be an insult to call them because it's too feeble word to describe their personalities; "charm" - isn't correct either; "charisma" - something that is in them but not in a way we imagine it to be.

So, no, no "rizz".

But the strange, almost twisted appeal, that falls out of the usual order of things? Sure.

Well... That's my very subjective opinion :D

Do you guys seriously believe that aruani is rizz4rizz!?!

[annawayne]

Ask game but I'm sliding in your inbox instead. 🤭 (sorry I'm bored and high on medication soo..)

Tell us about the plot of the first fanfic you ever wrote. (Published/unpublished)

Oh, Raine, hello!

I hope you're alright, considering you're on medication, so I wish you all the best and to recover as soon as possible! All the best wishes to you and 🫂

Thank you a lot for asking!

My first ever fanfiction is, not surprisingly, AruAni - both my first fanfic in general, first written in English, and first published. Yeah, it's just all the "firsts" that this story took!

It's Bury Me in The Shadows of Spring - the story set in the 1920's, post World War 1 setting, with Annie being an artist, and Armin - her muse and the model.

This story originally was in my thoughts as original, with the difference that it had three main characters, but then, I decided to convert it into AruAni AU - same setting, same relationship (artist/muse, except in the original, it was artist/2 muses... Yeah, my OCs were in polyamorous relationship originally). But, I did my best to adapt the original AoT story into 1920's AU and only as AruAni main couple and main characters. Now, it's completely two different stories that share only the setting and the time period.

I love when AU is made with the adoption of the original story into the new setting, saving the unique personalities of the characters - that's why, I think, to create a solid, new AU is quite a challenge because you have to - literally - dive into the characters even deeper since you have to project their behaviour in different circumstances.

I did my best to adapt the AoT universe into an Eastern European setting post World War 1, but I don't know how much I succeeded, but, well, I honestly did my best.

The whole story is planned (just like MYLYSW, to be honest, but with this fic is quite hilarious and a bit embarrassing story) and I hope to finish it one day - not in terms that I don't want to, no, I love this story as much as I love MYLYSW, but, let's say, it's more of the existential question.

Anyway!

As much as I love post-canon/canon-compliant/solid canon-divergence stories, solid and magnificently built AUs - for me, that's great and I really, really like it!

BMSS is the only AU I have, and, truth to be told, most likely, it'll remain the same.

But still, this story has a special place in my heart.

I focus now on My Yellow Light in Your Soft Whispers, but if everything will be alright, I hope to update BMSS in the summer, after I reach the *certain* chapter/milestone in MYLYSW.

Thank you, once again, for asking and for your interest! I wish you all the best and take care (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

[annawayne]

⏱️❄️Chapter 31: As always, some chaos, some fluff, some angst ❄️⏱️

This is the latest I've ever delayed in updating #_# But somehow, by the power of... Idk, Aruani, I guess? I got it done. Now I'm gonna just go die. Bye.

(also I've been writing so long in present tense, I can no longer summon two legible sentences in past tense. Very sorry 🥲)

[annawayne]

Mention five of ur fav AA bloggers/mutuals and leave them a message! (not a question but meh)

Hello, hello!

Hm, you know, sorry, but I would skip this one, and let me please explain!

I have a few people who are more than "mutuals" to me, they're now my dear friends I cherish, love and care a lot, and among them there's also a person I'm extremely close with.

There are also people who I like seeing in my dash, in my notifications, having conversations in comments, who make me giggle, smile, cry from their heart-wrenching (and incredible) angst, who makes me SOO grateful for being here, and honestly?

I like them a lot, some, who I know a bit more, some with whom I never interacted aside RB/likes, but who also is an essential part of this fandom, who makes this fandom this great, warm and welcoming.

So, let me say - everyone who is my mutual, everyone who creates in this fandom - drawings, fics, headcanons, AUs, Videos etc, everyone who just liked or reblogged or commented on my arts/fics/posts - they all are wonderful!

[annawayne]

Hello Anna, I hope you have a lot of fun on your special day. Happy birthday 🎈🎂

Hello (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

Thank you so much for these words, thank you, and I wish you all the best!

[annawayne]

I hope it's not too late to wish you a very happy birthday!! 😊🎉

Marta, hi!

Oh, no, it's NEVER too late, so please don't worry! It's still April 22 for me over there, so everything is good! And thank you a lot for your wishes 🥹

Wish you all the best!

[annawayne]

HI HELLO YOU WONDERFUL PERSON

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUU, AND MAY YOU HAVE THE HAPPIEST DAY OF THEM ALLLLL

much love,

Cris, hello!

Thank you so much for your wonderful wishes and for the fic, I honestly, truly, appreciate it so much! Thank you and have a wonderful evening!

[annawayne]

Cris! T_____T

You just know how I ADORE this AU, and how it has its special place in my heart, and OH MY this is the prequel of Perfect love and Nothing Sweeter Than You!! Prequel how they fell in love! (I assume)

Cris, thank you so much(⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

Happiest of birthdays, @annawayne ♡

Thank you for existing, and always being so kind. May you have the happiest birthday of them all 🎉

This one is for you, especially. I hope you enjoy it :))

Under the Willow Tree, part three of the Star-Crossed Lovers Series

The boy wipes the sweat off his forehead, swipes blond locks of hair out of his face, the torrid sun burning his skin. He slams the scythe into the ground, takes a deep breath in before continuing with his work. Ever since his grandfather has fallen sick, he’s had to do all the work on the mayor’s land– the wretched man didn’t care who did it as long as they got it done and didn’t ask for anything more than he’d offer. Which was barely enough for the two of them to get by, but more than nothing. Any help was good enough, and maybe, with some luck, he’d afford to buy his grandfather’s medicine this month. Maybe he’d even afford a bucket of milk, he thinks. Maybe if he does some extra work around the mayor’s property, he’d agree to pay him a little more– his folks have been working for the man for decades already, he could spare them that much.

A sudden rustle snaps him out of his thoughts. Armin stops in his tracks, scythe frozen in hand. He listens cautiously, glances around, scanning his surroundings– the land lying before him endlessly, the tool he’s abandoned by his side, next to his discarded shirt, the dark forest standing tall to his side, the village buzzing by the feet of the valley.

For a second thinks it’s an animal, but then the sound of shoes against dirt makes him reconsider. He gazes at his bare dirty feet as he continues his work, dreading whatever interaction might follow. He can only hope it’s just a passerby.

That thought disappears when he hears a quiet, whispery voice calling his name. He doesn’t have to turn around to know it’s the mayor’s daughter, her voice is enough of a giveaway. A glance towards her is all the confirmation he needs, the sight of her leather shoes enough to give her away. He presses his lips together and keeps his head low, acknowledging her with a nod but not raising his eyes. Getting in trouble for even daring to be in her immediate proximity is not something he's willing to do today, or any other day, so he keeps doing his work, raising the scythe and slamming it back onto the ground, dragging it towards him. 

The girl doesn’t move an inch, her eyes burning holes in the back of his head. Suddenly, Armin is very aware of his scrawny figure, unprotected by the shirt he's abandoned by the side of the property when the sun got too unbearable. But he tries to ignore it, minding his work, trying to ignore her gaze. But his ignorance seems to only make her gaze more intense, for she doesn’t budge, nor does she move, not giving any sign of leaving anytime soon. Eventually, he sighs, straightens his back, and raises his eyes to her level. 

"Is there anything I could do to help you?" he inquiries, a slight notch of annoyance in his voice. 

The girl doesn’t immediately answer, giving him time to observe her, his eyes glossing over her appearance. Her shoes are too spotless, her long white dress too clean for her to be standing there, the sleeves richly embroidered with red flowers. The same pattern adorns her waist, then the skirt flows all the way to her ankles, the hem adorned by the same red flowers. Her hair looks freshly washed, whereas his has been getting greasier by the day.

The blonde girl says nothing, her lips pressed together, her hands hidden behind her back. Her icy eyes pierce through him and he finds himself holding her glare for a brave moment. 

Seeing how she wouldn’t spare him one word, Armin drops his gaze with a sigh and goes back to his work. Only when he raises the scythe above his head for a third time does the mayor's daughter speak.

"There is something you could help me with."

He slams his utensile into the ground again and, with a tired sigh, drops onto the floor himself, his legs too tired to keep him up straight. He takes a moment to catch his breath, then crosses his legs and raises his eyes to meet hers again, intrigued to find her frowning at him as if he were intimidating her. Armin raises an eyebrow.

"What can I do for you, Annie?" he asks, his voice softer when he speaks.

The girl opens and closes her mouth as if the words won’t come out. Armin tilts his head at her, looking her up and down quizzically. As if her presence here wasn’t weird enough, her behaviour is truly strange. What could it possibly be that she, the daughter of the richest man in the region, would need from a mere peasant like himself? And why can’t she just say it? 

She raises on her toes then falls back on her heels, and takes a deep breath in.

"I need you to teach me how to dance," she eventually mumbles, looking away. 

It takes a few seconds for the words to register. Armin blinks once, twice, looking at her quizzically. Her complexion grows pinker under her eyes, her frown deepening. A tiny smile creeps onto Armin’s lips– she’s the flustered one now. Oh how the roles reversed.

"I saw you at that wedding last week," Annie says quietly. "You danced all the folk dances as if they were in your blood. I want you to teach me how to do that."

Armin frowns slightly, recalling the event. It wasn’t that big of a deal. His neighbor married one of his daughters off to some lord on the other side of the river, one of the mayor’s close friends. His friends’ and his childhood friend, someone their age. The most they could do was send her off nicely, make her wedding night memorable. So, Eren, Mikasa and himself danced with her all night, and started most if not all dances. Most people joined in on their joy. Some clapped along to the music. Some simply watched. 

"What's in for me?" he asks, amusement creeping into his voice.

Annie’s lips twitch up, as if she just regained control of the situation. She finally takes her arms out from behind her back and reveals the book she’s been hiding, holding it so he can see the cover, but not close enough for him to touch. His eyes widen at the sight, betraying his excitement. He quickly scans the cover, thick and pristine, and simple enough– a light brown cover, with golden edges and black letters spelling out its title in the middle, too small for him to read from afar.

"You get to read this," Annie says slowly, "but only when you're with me. You cannot take it home, and you cannot tell another soul about it." 

Armin presses his lips together, his eyes transfixed on the book, hungry to hold it in his own hands. He's wanted to put his hands on one for so long, it almost feels surreal to have a book this close to his face. He considers her preposition for a long minute before saying, "I cannot teach you now. I'm supposed to be working."

"Well, you're not," she retorts. She crosses her arms over her chest and raises an eyebrow.

"Well, I should be."

"What about tonight then? Down to the river, after you're done with work," she suggests, as if she had all this planned.

Armin doesn’t hesitate when he agrees, earning a satisfied smile from the mayor’s daughter. 

"Good luck with your work then," she says, turning around. "Don’t take too long."

And for the first time in a long time, Armin has something to look forward to.

[annawayne]

I want to thank you, once again everyone who wrote to me all the birthday wishes, words and support, in asks, in messages, and in posts! I NEVER received so many wishes, great and kind words, attention and praise, and you all just turned me into a great emotional mess but in a good kind!

I'm so grateful for everyone and thank you, all of you, for welcoming me in AA fandom, for reading my fics, for liking my arts, for appreciating my posts. Thank you you all, you're a wonderful treasure of fandom and I'm honestly so happy to be a part of it with all of you 🖤🖤🖤

[annawayne]

Happy birthday Anna!! Hope it's splendid!! 🎊🎊🍰🍰

Hello!

Thank you a lot for your words, I really appreciate it!

Have a great *timezone* (⁠灬⁠º⁠‿⁠º⁠灬⁠)⁠♡

[annawayne]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRIENNDDDDD.

I know I’ve only been around shortly but in the time I have been around it has been amazing being moots/friends with you. Never change bc u are amazing. Don’t let anyone tell you differently. 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

Have an AMAZING day friend.

Ce, hello!

Thank you a lot for these amazing wishes and words, and I'm honestly so, so grateful for every word!

Thank you for your support and for your wishes, I wish you all the best(⁠ʃ⁠ƪ⁠＾⁠3⁠＾⁠）

[annawayne]

Happy birthday to you, my fav AA's artist. I love retro vibe in your art and your fic. Can't wait to see your next art.

Martha, hi!

Thank you so much for such big compliment and that you think so about me T///T

I'm honestly so grateful, and thank you so much for appreciating my style, both in art and writing!

I wish a good *timezone* 🫂

[annawayne]

Hey Anna! 🎉 Happy birthday!

Wishing you a fantastic day filled with all the things you love!

Thank you for being part of the AA fandom, this place wouldn't be the same without your beautiful creations ( ˊᵕˋ )♡

Mar, hello, hello!

Thank you so much for your kind wishes and thank you for making me also feel like home in AA fandom! I'm really grateful for all wonderful people in this fandom, just like you, who are so kind and so creative!

Thank you a lot, and I wish you all the best꒰⁠⑅⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ⁠꒱⁠˖⁠♡

[annawayne]

@distortedclouds @moonspirit @aruxani

OH MY-

Thank you all of you, for such wonderful, wonderful, wonderful words and I just don't know, you all literally turned me into the emotional puddle, and I can't even wrap my mind that such talented, kind and amazing people think so about me T____T (can you tell I'm really bad in receiving so much praise and attention but I'm so grateful T_T)

@distortedclouds , thank you so much for thinking so highly of me and I'm honestly absolutely in awe reading your wishes and your words about me, and thank you a lot, Clouds 🖤🥹

@moonspirit thank you so much, dear Moon T^T I'm so grateful for you, Clouds, Ally and all wonderful people in this fandom who make me feel like home in AA fandom <3

@aruxani thank you so much for such a big compliment! I'm honestly in shock so many people tell me these kinds of words and I'm so ENORMOUSLY grateful! Thank you!

I wish you all the best, everyone (⁠◕⁠દ⁠◕⁠)

@annawayne happy birthday today!!!!

I maybe haven't known you for so long, but you're one of the people who make me happy I decided to brave it and join the aot fandom! You're one of the kindest, sweetest, most talented artist I ever met and I'm filled with joy everytime I see your art or one of your very extensive and informative deep dives into fashion and culture history for aot!

Happy birthday! And here's to more to come 💕

[annawayne]

ANNNNNAAAAAAAA!!!!! ANNAAAAAAAAWAYNE YOU FREAKING TALENTED ARTIST GIRL!!!!!!! HELLO HELLOOOOOOO AND OMG I LOVE YOU!!!

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

A WHOLE YEAR OF KNOWING YOU *AND* YOUR BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!! WHAT A DAY!!!

I'm so glad and happy I know you and have the luck of being so close to you T______T Thank you Anna for being in this world, and for everything, EVERYTHING you do! You're truly amazing, a fantastic and wonderful inspiration and SO MUCH MORE!!!! HERE'S TO MANY MORE BIRTHDAYS AND YEARS OF EXPERIENCING LIFE WITH YOU!!!!

🖤🖤🖤Moon, Moon, Moon, hello! •́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀

Oh, I'm honestly so emotional right now from all the words I've received, from all the words YOU told me, and I'm so ENORMOUSLY grateful for everything, and thank you for being in my life (I'm definitely more lucky to have such an incredible person close to me)! I appreciate you and love you a lot and thank you for these wonderful words and wishes, I'm really grateful you think so highly of me T____T

To many more years, Moon! I wish you all the best (⁠っ⁠˘⁠з⁠(⁠˘⁠⌣⁠˘⁠ ⁠)

[annawayne]

Wooo - i hope you have a wonderful day !! ❤️❤️

Oh my, Meli, hello!

Thank you so much for the kind wishes and for this adorable doodle! (This cake is so delicious, thank you! :3)

I wish you a good *timezone* and also thank you for your time sketching this adorable thing for me (⁠｡⁠・⁠/⁠/⁠ε⁠/⁠/⁠・⁠｡⁠)