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uhh i just lost 25k pics, notes, and my entire life on my phone... so idk... life sucks and also life is amazing lol never felt so weird, sad, happy and confused. like a ghost but whatever~

if i am not here is because i'm trying to do damage control... this year has been... lol not exactly my year (losing my life, also got stung by scorpion, and other intense stuff) but i cannot complain because the beginning was amazing.

anyways here's a pic i managed to rescue from the catastrophe lol

also, maybe... idk but~ i think i am going to disappear from internet for a good while and go back to reading and stuff. This might be the laaast post in a good while. I will come back. Sure. But idk when...

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class is in session!

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Dutch Warmblood stallion Kyton

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OWNED BY TAYLOR SWIFT

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You belong with me. 💚💛💜❤️🩵🖤

Letter on my site :)

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♫ It just shows, when you're wicked You're left only on your own ♫

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rewatching a movie you loved as a teen and realizing it’s actually really really really really not good

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"aroaces can still date!" like okay?? then have you ever considered that allos can still want to be single as well but i guess ppl don't talk about that for some reason.

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I adore Spike. But I don't dislike Angel at all, IMHO i just disliked the last two chapters because they did dirty on the trio ha! e.e otherwise than that i have zero issues with it... and i'm currently re watching the series, and falling in love with Angel dorky side lol cuz he is so awkward appearing and disappearing while throwing mysterious lines 💀

There are several reasons why I love both Angel and Spike despite/because of their MANY major flaws, and we could delve into a deep analysis and all that, but for me the main thing comes down to the fact that Angel and Spike are both in their own special ways such enormous nerds and dorks?!

Angel is painfully, relatably socially awkward, he cried at ballet "even when he was evil", he can't make small talk or even medium-sized talk to save his life (I mean, technically he's already dead, but you get it!), when trying to bond he goes in for a fist bump at exactly the wrong moment so he's left with his first just hanging awkwardly in the air, his idea of a perfect evening is canceling plans and just hanging out alone in the dark, he's so notoriously bad at making jokes or even understanding other people's jokes that his "I'm a funny guy" has become among his iconic and ironic lines ever, he's nerdily uptight about stuff that doesn't matter, he declares that "this socializing thing is BRUTAL", he vacillates from totally flat and the most introverted manpire on earth to dorkily excited about ridiculous stuff that no one else cares about, he knows his "two modes with people are 1. bite and 2. avoid" and so on. It's true that the writers (very wisely, in my view) leaned into this relatable dorkiness much more once Angel got his own series, but part of it is evident on BtVS as well.

Spike, meanwhile, is chaotically evil and supposedly "punk" yet the most hilariously soft creature on the planet, he freely admits to anyone who will listen that he's "love's bitch", he gets hopelessly addicted to afternoon soap operas (Timmy is down the well!!!), he practically cries when the people he's tried to murder don't offer him a cookie, he lives for cheesy poetry, he feels very passionate about whether cavemen or astronauts would win a purely imaginary battle, he launches into unprompted soliloquies about romance and devotion while others just stare at him awkwardly, he wears Xander's Hawaiian shirt, he cares deeply about whether his hot chocolate will come with mini-marshmallows, he runs frenetically around with blankets over his head and somehow still always gets burned a bit by the sun, just holding Buffy and not even kissing her has him proclaiming it the "best night of his life" (and that's a loong time), he sobs shamelessly over his love life to relative strangers even before he has a soul, he makes awful jokes and then looks around with this desperate "please, someone pity laugh!" smile, he chooses to spend his likely last day on earth at a cheesy poetry open mic event.

I know most people here love Spike a lot more than they like Angel, and I respect all opinions, but both of these dorky disasters have an equally special place in my heart!

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Accept gifts without protest

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i’m such a whore for everlasting eternal love that transcends all realities through space and time

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what's grief if not love, persevering?

"If I were orpheus I wouldn't look back"

But we look back everyday- rechecking emails, making sure a friend is still behind you, checking to see if you remebered to pick up your keys. It's second nature, a habit of care.

It was second nature for him too. He looked back, not out of weakness, but love. For what is love, if not to look back?

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sometimes i follow people and i don't even realize that they exist unless they do something important or special... or get related in something i'm obsessed with lately.