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The Unwritten Rule | Part 1

synopsis: Aditya and Kashish have been bestfriends from a long long time. Several ups and downs throughout their lives but they are the only constants in each other’s journey. So perfect together. Just meant to be. Atleast that’s what all of their mutual friends think. Should they be together already? Kashish is confused about how she felt, until one night and then everything is clear.

warning: cheating

genre: bestfriends to lovers, angst, fluff

Guilt. Frustration. Heartbreak. Those are the negative and the only emotions you were feeling right now.

It was 1:00 am in the night and you were as awake as an owl staring at the pictures of him and you in your cellphone. HIM, the person who has taken up every corner of your mind, the person who has been with you through all the thick and thin times,  one who would do anything for you.

Your one and only bestfriend, Aditya.

Yes, he is your bestfriend for almost 3 years now and he has seen you in every situation and trouble. Done things to put you in trouble and then help you get out of it. Yes, he always had to face the consequences of his actions but he never minded it and neither did you.

You are staring at the pictures of him reliving all the things you did with him, the memories, the laughter. Suddenly your phone rings. You read the name on your phone and you panic again. Your bestfriend has called you again. Panicked, not knowing what to do, you put your cellphone down just as soon as you read his name. Two minutes later a notification pops up. You raise your phone and the screen lights up.

Adityaa_

Hey

You see a text from the same person whom you've been avoiding for a month now. You don't know what to do right now. You feel all kinds of emotions. Guilt being the strongest one. Aditya, your bestfriend whom you've been avoiding since one month is trying to reach out to you, text you, call you, hoping you'd respond. You are not sure if you should reply to his message, well you know someday you'll have to face him, go through the most difficult part for you now. It's time you finally tell him this or it will to be too late.

Another text from the same person pops up.

Adityaa_

There are chances you might be asleep right now but

I know ur not. Pls reply so that we can figure

this out together.

Kashishx

hey 

Adityaa_

Oh my god. You finally responded.

I knew you'd respond someday.

 Kashishx

I need to tell you something important.

Meet me at the park at 6.

Adityaa_

Yes, sure lets meet.

Kashishx

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Your roommate finally managed to convince you to go and meet him. It was her idea to text him and call him to meet up. Sure, you yourself wanted to meet him but you were not sure if you should. To be honest you are still having second thoughts about this whole thing. But you know you need to get this done. You can't avoid your bestfriend for your entire life, you also don't want to lose your friendship with him and not talking to him will do definitely do that.

It's 5:45 pm. You are in the cab. You will make it on time. The cab starts heading towards it's destination.

You know exactly what you are going to say to him. You don't know if you're doing the right thing or not, but you know this needs to get done. This will either mend your bruised friendship or break it completely. You clearly remember what led you two to the point where you are right now.

A month ago it was one of your common friends Kaira's birthday, Aditya and you were invited in her house birthday party. Alcohol, DJ, pool, everything you could ever ask for was there. But that's not what you wanted. You wanted him, your bestfriend to be besides you, to kiss you, to hold you, to tell you that he loves you too. You probably shouldn't think about some other man and definitely not about your bestfriend when you are here with your boyfriend Akshit who is right beside you kissing you, holding you, loving you, doing all the things you wish Aditya did to you. You felt horrible. This isn't fair to your boyfriend. You are just using him, pretending like you are still in love with him, yes, subconsciously but still. You are a horrible horrible person.

You like him and he is a really nice person but you are not in love with him anymore only because recently you've started to gain feelings for your bestfriend and as much as you want to accept this fact, you can't. Yes, your bestfriend, and he has no idea about it. It's better this way. You don't want to ruin your precious friendship with him just because of some stupid feelings. These are just feelings, they'll fade, they'll go away....right??

"I'll be back in few minutes." says Akshit while looking at some of his friends who are calling him from a distance. They are calling him over so you let him go. You nod giving him a green light and he gives you a kiss on the forehead before whispering 'I'll be back soon', his warm breath hitting your ear and then he disappeared in the crowd.

You order a drink for yourself sitting on the bar stool alone, now waiting for the drink to arrive.

"JUST ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU ARE NOT IN LOVE WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND ANYMORE. KASHISH, WHY CAN'T YOU SEE YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR ADITYA!!" you get the flashbacks from yesterday when your roommate and you were having a conversation, more like having an agreeing- disagreeing session.

"OH MY GOD will you stop saying that!!! I love him, I love Adity-- AKSHIT..." you take a pause to wrap your head around what just happened. That's just mix of names, you got confused with their names, that's it, you try telling this to yourself. But clearly your roommate doesn't think the same as you because you see her smirking but you don't comment on it, rolling your eyes at her is enough of a reaction itself.

"Besides Aditya is my bestfriend. Why would I love him? I have a boyfriend AKSHIT, yes!!" you say highlighting 'Akshit' to show her that you took the correct name this time but she just gives you a sarcastic smile. You are trying to convince her on the outside but deep down you yourself know that you are trying to convince yourself more than convincing her. You know what your roommate is saying is true but you don't want to accept this truth, because accepting this truth could probably ruin your friendship with him, lose one of the most important people in your life. You can’t fall in love with your bestfriend and definitely not when you have a sweet, caring boyfriend who never falls short on making you feel special. It makes you feel guilty.

All your thoughts are long forgotten when you feel someone tap your shoulder. You look at your shoulder, eyes following the hand to look at the person who is none other than Aditya, your bestfriend. You look at him and your heart warms up, a wide smile automatically taking it’s place on your lips.

"Hey, where have you been? I thought you'd cancel." he starts the conversation with a bright smile playing on his lips.

"Yeah, like Akshit was going to let me cancel them." you say with sarcasm while taking the glass the bartender hands you while Aditya chuckles.

"Akshit is here too?" he questions and you nod as a response. "He's meeting his friends." you reply while looking around, trying to search him with your eyes.

"Why don't you go dance with the girls on the floor?" you suggest.

"Are you kicking me out of here?" he asks and then chuckles. You chuckle back. "Besides I'd rather sit here with you." he says giving you the warmest smile there ever was. This made your heart warm. You take a sip of your drink making you squint your eyes from the bitter taste that now lies on your tongue.

"Shut up...just go and have fun, dance with the ladies, probably take one home." you suggest but then he smirks.

"You want me to hook up?" ofcourse you don't want that, but for some reasons you still say that to get a reaction from him. The smirk still not wiping off his face.

"Meh, I mean besides all men do is think about sex." you point out, acting nonchalant and purposely say this to get on his nerves but he just doesn't want to give you that satisfaction.

Instead he smirks and says "Hm, I can see your point," Aditya purses his lips "but sometimes it's hard not to think about sex when there's a beautiful woman."

You chuckle looking at your drink but when you don't receive the same reaction from him you look up only to look in his direction to see if he is serious, he doesn't laugh instead he looks at you more seriously this time. You choke on your drink, your heart beating more louder than before. But you try to mask it with your expressions, arching your one eyebrow at him shamelessly.

"Are you subtly flirting with me, Adi?"

"Do you want me to?"

Fuck, this man is so shameless sometimes.

Do you want him to?

The butterflies coming alive in your stomach are most likely a good answer for that. But it's very dangerous no matter how exciting and good it feels.

But then Aditya bursts out laughing, scrunching his nose at your face as you slap his shoulder, frowning annoyingly at your nails and fidgeting with them. "Dickhead!"

"Hey now," Aditya playfully frowns. "C'mon finish your drink quickly," he suggests. "I wanna dance with you."

You are not sure if any physical contact with Aditya is a good idea right now, especially when you feel your heart picking up it's pace and the sight of Aditya brushing his fingers through his hair isn't helping at all.

"Why?" trying to get yourself out of this, even though the thought of dancing with Aditya is tempting and it's been a while since you had fun with him in the form of dance. "Why don't you go dance with other girls? I'll sit here and cheer you on!"

You propose lightly and innocently, although devilish glint in your eyes as you look up at him, lips wrapped around your nails biting them lightly causing Aditya to frown.

"Stop biting your nails," he gently hits your hand causing you to frown. "And I'd much rather dance with you."

Fucking Aditya and his mouth for letting such words come out. His honesty no matter how it sounds when you think about what he just said now, your head spins. You are not drunk. The drinks you've been drinking are low percentage alcohol but you feel slightly relaxed from it. And it's dangerous because your mind already wanders into places it shouldn't have.

So you do what you do the best and you start whining, masking your panicked heartbeat and mind. "I'll look like an idiot next to you!" and you mean it in more ways than just one.

First of all, you are not drunk enough to be confident to dance with him. It's not just silly dancing you do at home. It's a big party and there are drunk people everywhere, you doubt everyone will have their eyes on you, but still. Aditya is like a magnet to eyes.

"That's not true," Aditya disagrees, grabbing your wrist gently as he shakes it a little. "Just one dance then. Please."

And he pouts, widening his eyes just like he knows, in that innocent and cute way that makes you shut your eyes as you let out a loud groan, knowing you've lost. "Okay, but I'm gonna finish this drink and you're gonna have one too."

He sits like an obedient student, flashing you with your favorite grin.

Aditya's convincing skills are good, just not as good as yours because finishing your drink meant two more and Aditya's one drink turned into three, all thanks to your pleading eyes, shameless begging and Aditya's soft spot for you.

He finishes his third drink and waits for you to finish your drink too. By the time you take the last sip and finish your drink, Aditya's already standing up. He doesn't give you any time to react already leading you towards the dance floor tossing you a handsome grin across his shoulder.

Realizing you've no chance, you deduce you feel tipsy enough to let yourself loosen up, even with Aditya's close proximity and his hands on your hips and yours on his biceps.

Aditya's one dance never ends with one dance. The alcohol flows freely in your body, the last three drinks you recordly gulped down causing everything to feel numb.

Everything except Aditya's hands.

You like the feeling of freedom the alcohol brings you. Overthinking is left somewhere else, letting you enjoy every second and touch of his.

It's a hard task to stay unaffected and you're failing miserably, feeling your insides twirl with excitement that you thought is long gone but it's proved that only Aditya can make it come to life. You're both still tipsy which is good because it means none of you are drunk. Tipsy to want to get close enough to Aditya which is freaking stupid, because he's already close enough as it is.

Aditya's warm breath hitting the crook of your neck causing you to shudder, shudder out of excitement and Aditya himself.

You know you've lost. It's too late to end this – at least that's what you tell yourself because you don't want to end this. You wish he'd just lean down and press those lips onto your neck like you love.

God, you're fucked. And tipsy. And horny.

And fucking stupid because when you shamelessly grind your ass against Aditya, there's no chance it looks like an accident. If you could turn around and look at him, you'd see him biting his lower lip.

His hands squeeze your hips, just like Akshit. AKSHIT!!Fuck, you completely forgot about him. He's probably out there somewhere thinking about you, saying nice things about you to his friends and Aditya is your bestfriend, so what the fuck are you doing?

Aditya's lips brush against your jaw, nose nudging it right after as you whimper, thankfully the sound gets masked by the loud music and bass that vibrate through your body. Everything is hazy, just not Aditya.

"Are you trying to make me hard?" he asks lowly, almost amusingly and he sounds so hot that you've a urge to turn around and kiss him, just because he's close and you're fucking horny, thanks to him.

Get a grip, Kashish, don't make a fucking mistake because you are tipsy and stuck with these feelings with him.

"Is it working?" you ask breathlessly and loudly enough for him to hear and you want to mentally slap yourself but the temptation and excitement are holding an upper hand here.

"I'm trying not to get hard," Aditya points out, maintaining the same low and deep tone as if he's telling you the deepest secret. "Don't start something you can't finish."

And that spurs you on even more, accepting the challenge as you turn around, staring into Aditya's dark and very much awake eyes. He has a lazy grin on his lips, living for the fire in your eyes and you're not sure whether he is amused by all of this or he's feeling it too.

"You out of all people should know I never start something I can't finish." you point out, smirk clearly visible on your face.

There's the boost of confidence growing inside you, very much thanks to the alcohol and probably hormones that are making you do and say all these crazy things.

Aditya's features darken and it's unbelievable that you can see it even through the shitty lightings.

Hands brushing against his chest, you slowly brush them down against his toned abs that you can feel through his button-up causing you to bite off the gasp that wants to get out.

Aditya chuckles, the corner of his lips lifting in a smirk as if he sees right through you.

Can he see how much he tempts you?

Is it just one of those times where you are teasing each other but are very close to playing with fire?

You're not sure but you're enjoying the thrill his eyes bring to you as they stare at you, crinkling at the ends while his hand touches a few restless baby hair and strands that got messy and slipped from your ponytail.

   "I know but who am I if I don't challenge you?" he says with full confidence and a smirk on his face.

  Breath hitching, it takes you a moment to release a giggle and you've no idea why you're suddenly giggling, maybe it's the way he wiggles his eyebrows - something he does frequently when he is fooling around.

  "Shut up," you say, making him laugh while you watch him throw his head back a little before he's looking at you with a wide grin.

Not even a minute later and Aditya's hands are all over you again and so are yours, wrapped in his hair like you wanted them meanwhile the other hand holds the nape of his neck. His mouth brushes against your cheek and you shiver, whimpering how good it feels but it's just not good enough. You want more.

"Adi," you mutter into the air but it's almost impossible for him to hear you through the music, but once you turn your head slightly to look him in the eyes, you're met with the sight of his lips again.

You tilt your head back a little, finally seeing those dark orbs that watch you attentively, hands not leaving you. Shameless and fucking brave is what you are because your eyes find their way to Aditya's lips again. Wanting to cry out of frustration, you know your body longs for something else and your rushed breaths are one of the first indicators for it.

And then you grab the back of Aditya's head, inching his face even closer. You wait for him to pull away or at least give you a reaction that would say this is not what he wants. You would be fucking embarrassed if that happened, but maybe it would be for the best.

  However, he lets you and just stares at you, almost as if he's challenging you to take the first step. Does he want this too?

Does he feel the need to kiss you just like you do?

He probably feels something because he would pull away if he didn't, you try to think rationally.

You try to bring your face closer to his, closer than it already is, your nose touching his and you wait. You wait for him to take the next step but Aditya looks at you with his hooded eyes not budging at all.

His eyes dancing between your eyes and lips, Growing annoyed and frustrated, you're ready to groan because there's something holding you back and you hate that at the moment but as always, Aditya saves the day and with a little bit of force forward, he finally lets his lips meet yours for the first time.

In a time you thought would never come.

Oh, Aditya's lips feel amazing and you feel like whimpering or cry out of pure satisfaction. They're soft, the softest. Your whole body feels hot, insides shivering with anticipation mixed with lust. The kiss feels good, it's not a hurried one, instead it's a slow and passionate kiss, like in a way he is telling you how much he loves you or maybe you are overanalyzing just like Akshit. AKSHIT!!! FUCK. You are kissing your best friend while your boyfriend is somewhere out there trying to find you.

But this feels good, you don't want this to end, you don't want to let go of him.

Aditya pulls away to catch a breath and looks into your eyes before diving in for another kiss. But before him attaching his lips to yours one more time, you budge and take one step behind. You budge because you know you fucked up. You fucked up bad time.

All you can think about is Akshit, how unfair all of this is to him, you cheated on Akshit, with your best friend. Your fucking bestfriend with whom you have also successfully ruined your friendship with, something you feared the most.

"Kashu" he calls you, hurt and guilt written all over his face, his hooded, dark eyes long gone, your gentle, sweet bestfriend coming back. He knows he fucked up too but you ignore him and turn. You turn and you run towards the restroom thinking you'll atleast get some air to breath there and time to process what just happened, realize how much you've fucked this whole thing up.

You run towards the restroom.