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I feel like I’m in the bottom of the world

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This is Me

Hello, everyone or kamusta! This is my last chance or my last hope. First of all I’am new at this and this is my last hope to change. I’am a girl of age 22 years old, as a 22 years old I have many problems, but my biggest problems is probably my weight, yes! (I think that’s every girls problem?) I’am a 92kg!!! I mean in KG NOT IN POUNDS! my height is 5’2, a very short and chubby girl.

Becasuse of being a fat girl no one likes me, everyone bullies me and treat me like an outcast, even at work, I never really cared about anything as long as I enjoy my life as being me, but it all changed when reality strikes! I realised how fat I’am and how ugly I’am, I never wanted to get to this point, but I just said that it was my fault, all mine because I did not restrict myself and just let my self loose.

Now that reality has strucked me, I decided to change, to change for the better! But it was never easy, I did everything I could think of just to loose weight like go to the gym, but i never lasted, decided not to eat for many days, but the next day I started binge eating anything i want, I have some supplements and other slimming coffees, but nothing lasts

It continued for a month of me trying anything just to loose weight, but nothing works for me. Once I attempted to just end it all, yes, I attempted suicide, just for the reason that all my old clothes did not fit, so that means instead og loosing weight, I gained more weight, it was too devastating for me, I was so tired not from exhaustion but my mind and heart is too tired for me to handle.

Woohoo! Yey! Congrats! To myself I just developed a mental disorder, which we are all familiar of, Depression, my mother noticed something off about me not physically but mentally, when I always cry without a reason in front of her and when she asked me why? I just say I don’t know, because I really don’t know and at that time there’s really nothing wrong with me, then she decided to consult a doctor and the doctor said i have major depression.

I don’t really know what it means because for me depression are all depression, right? But my doctor said, it was not, there are many types of depression and i fall in that category, at that time I saw my mother cry, but it did not affect me seeing her cry and I don’t know why? My mother always talks to me and asks me what I want at that time and I akways say I want to be beautiful and to loose weight or to be just an ordinary girl. My mother told me that she will help me but first, I need to cure my depression before I want to do those things

That’s why I rested for half a year from work and did many things to cure my depression and to be myself again, now that I’m finally out from my shell, I want to loose all of this weight and start a new beginning. That is why I’am seeking help and tips from everybody on how I can loose weight and how to do it fast. Again this is my story, if you help me, I would be truly greatful to you for helping me ❤️