anotherbasicdepressedartist

[anotherbasicdepressedartist]

Goals, this was once me

Oh I remembered something.

When I was 56kg / 123 pounds, boys would actually stop me in the middle of the street and ask for my number. When it happened the first time, I had a panic attack, not knowing why this boy got closer to me and boldly asking for my number. He complimented me, told me I looked super pretty.

When I was fat, that never happened. No one asked for my number, flirted with me, did flirty eyes.

The second time it happened, I smiled but said no. People would stare at me. Boys would confess their fucking love for me after I broke up with my then bf. It was annoying to be honest. I became a heart breaker. I didn't want a boyfriend after the mess.

I felt confident. Even my walk changed. I didn't stomp on the ground, I looked super light and felt like a feather. I wasn't even at my goal weight. There were still 6kg / 13 pounds to go (I never reached that goal but this time I will)

Boys wanted my attention, they wished to converse with me. It was such a bizarre concept for someone that was never an eye catcher to begin with. I actually felt threatened by the sudden attention. I was terrified.

It didn't feel like how the ana posts would describe those encounters.

I now know how to behave around boys who flirt, I now know how to flirt back but my body is fat yet again.

It felt so good though. To know that people desired me. That I looked sexy. My ex even wanted me back. Three times actually. It was such a power trip. I had control.

Control, whom to let closer to me.

It was fucking amazing.

I will feel like this again.

I will be skinny again.

I will be dainty.

I will be angel like.

I will be confident again.

[anotherbasicdepressedartist]

Reblog? Yes ma'am gotta remember dis

Restaurants Safe Foods Masterpost

Food from my master post, this is just so you don’t have to scroll through the whole thing if you didn’t want to on my masterpost

A&W

Applebees

Arbys

Bojangles

Burger King

Bj’s

Carrabas

Cheddars

Chick-Fil-A

Chilis

Chipotle

Chuck E Cheese

Cici’s

Cracker Barrel

Culivers

Dairy Queen/Orange Julius

Denny’s

Dominos

Dunkin Donuts

Fire House Subs

Five Guys

Fuddruckers

Golden Coral

Hard Rock

In and Out Burger

IHOP

Jasons Deli

KFC

Krispy Kreme

Little Caesers

Krystals

Logans Road House

Long Horn Steak House

McAlisters Deli

McDonalds

Movie Theaters

Olive Garden

Outback Steak House

Panda Express

Panera Bread Co.

Papa Johns

Papa Murphys

Pizza Hut

Popeyes

PF Changs

Red Robins (yuUUMMM)

Ruby Tuesday

Sonic

Steak and Shake

Subway

Taco Bell

Texas Road House

Tim Hortons

Waffle House

Wendy’s

White Castle

Zaxbys

[anotherbasicdepressedartist]

Food log 4 2day-

Halotop-330 (mint chip)

Rice cakes (2) caramel- 100

Egg-70 w/spray of fry light- 5

Protein bar- 220

4tbs of creamer (split between 10 cups of coffee, ik it's a LOT)-120

Pasta-235

Halo top-370

Yogurt with grape nuts cereal, stevia, and nutella- 450

1900 tday

[anotherbasicdepressedartist]

Ahhh a food log for when you're stressed and have the flu, I have an eating disorder in the sense I have to track everything down to the specifics or I can't eat it sooo

Sugar free cough drop (5) - 40cal

Chicken noodle soup (1 can, campbell's) - 150 cal

Banana yogurt- 90cal

Cucumber (2)- 40 cal

Blood orange- 70 cal

Coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer (5 tsp)- 50 cal

Rice cake plain (4)- 140

Melon (watermelon and honeydew)- 140 cal

Hot pocket- 310

Pint of strawberry halo top- 270

Bomb pop- 40cal

Cheeto puffs (13 chips)- 160

Kodiak cakes (1/2 cup powder pancake mix mixed with half cup water)- 180 cal

Sugar free syrup (1/4 cup)- 20

1700 today, I'm trying to gain muscle and I've been forcing myself to eat :) you deserve food babes I'll probably eat some oreos tonight :))

[anotherbasicdepressedartist]

I need help tooo 😖😖😖

Dear skinny people community,

How do you keep your stomach from grumbling in class???

I know the trick or trying to chug water but that doesn’t seem to help me, it still makes ungodly noises. Any tips?