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on here to resist the urge to break my fast with a snack. literally sitting in the gas station parking lot. just have to kill time till I have to go back to work.

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It’s Jan 1st, I’m back on this bs.

I have 5 months, 138 days till graduation.

I weight 198, I want to weigh 130 by may 18.

That’s 68 lbs in 138 days. It’s 13.7 lbs a month, 3.4 lbs a week.

The plan is intermittent fasting, ⭐️ing, heavy calories restriction, and increased activity.

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going back to omad + fasting. Here we go again, I’m so sick of myself

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TW:// m3ansp0

~ Imagine having an ed and there being no evidence of it.

~ Imagine wearing a crop top and there’s a bulbous roll of f4t showing underneath it.

~ Imagine getting told, “you look like you give good hugs.”

~ Imagine his disgust when he sees your body jiggle as you walk.

~ Imagine standing in front of the mirror and seeing a sweaty ton of lard staring back.

~ Imagine being called, “the thick one of that friend group.”

You won’t have to imagine if you don’t put that plate down.

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will probably spend all day on here to avoid breaking my fast and binging

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I obsess about my weight and food so much when I’m fasting. I can’t do anything else but look at this shitty app

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My psychiatrist told me to keep a food diary so I’ve been eating mostly like a normal person because I know he’s gonna see it. But I’m done with that.

I have a goal of 160 lbs by new years. I’m gonna start doing long fasts and restricting again. I’m motivated honestly.

Cw: 195

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manifesting this bc I’ve been feeling so heavy and weighed down by my body

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the goal? to look like I have an ed by graduation

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I’ve undone all the progress I’ve made in the span of 3 days,,, I hate myself

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I’m miserable.

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I have a psychiatrist appointment today and idk if should be honest w him or not

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fasting is so easy when your busy. Like going to work and getting abused by the kids is a honestly such a great distraction.

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this is me manifesting no binging

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ok it was 46 and I survived. Just ate about 200 cals and am starting another 46~ hr fast. I like feeling disciplined. I don’t like not having any of my cravings satisfied.

doing my first long fast (44 hrs) and I’m weak rn. It’s so hard to not eat when I have free time. I can’t sleep either or it’ll mess up my schedule. Currently on hour 21…

Going to hold myself accountable. Going to show myself some discipline.

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doing my first long fast (44 hrs) and I’m weak rn. It’s so hard to not eat when I have free time. I can’t sleep either or it’ll mess up my schedule. Currently on hour 21…

Going to hold myself accountable. Going to show myself some discipline.