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Seije Hakazuki

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How do I know that I'm alive?

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I'll pay you to stab me in the chest

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I need to leave again

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Call me what you want, but you can't call me broke.

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You were my moon.

You said I was your sun.

We carry an Alaskan relationship,

But I can’t tell what season it is.

Have you not seen me?

Or, is it the other way around.

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I just want somebody to understand and not say I’m wrong. 

Since I was 16 I have been drifting farther and farther away, and as much as I wish I could stop it, it just won’t end. This feeling of being so different and misunderstood, no matter how much I connect with anyone, still feels so constant. I had one friend, who truly seemed to understand. Not even a close friend, just a friend. We understood each other. We both dealt with similar demons, with similar thought processes, and similar addictions. We both acknowledged it. We talked about it daily, and thought it didn’t end the struggle, it made things bearable. Then he left, and I haven’t heard from him since. Even my closest friends don’t seem to truly understand. 

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Constantly putting myself in fucked up situations to make sure I'm still an idiot.

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I just need somebody to get me drunk and take advantage of me sexually.

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Congrats to @like-changing-seasons for having a better sex life than me.

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noble1

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Havva goooood night

I actually had a great night, now for another.

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Gay

Typical.

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Ha, thanks. Maybe I'll follow you

I wont stop you