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This is going to be the last

I never believed in love. I thought it was just a word used by people who can’t endure to be alone. I don’t understand people who give their everything in the name of love. And then “she” happened to me.

I remembered her all the time. I can’t get enough of thinking about her. I find it hard to focus on my work. Everything around me reminds me of her. Never have I experienced this kind of excitement my whole life which I live in routine. I am a person who is selfish and who loves herself more than others yet I find it hard to say ‘no’ when she has a request. I became very concerned about her. I didn’t even notice the presence of other people and I felt that no person is as awesome as her. She became the only person that matters to me. Even when I’m with my friends, I find myself constantly texting her. I tried to impress her by talking about things she likes. My day is never complete without seeing her or talking to her. 

But I just recently learned that all these feelings were never reciprocated.

Lately, I stopped talking to her and I find myself lonely everyday. I am frustrated because she changed me so much that I no longer recognize myself. I used to be time-cautious and self-conscious. I used to enjoy my time alone. I used to run during my free time. There are so many things I did in routine and I no longer do now.

Yesterday, I suspected something was going on between her and one of our common friends. I wasn’t jealous. I was just angry at myself why the hell did I fall for this trap. Why did I even pushed myself to an unsure situation. Now, I don’t know what to do. 

At least now I know that love is a true emotion. But the saying “It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all” is just bull shit. Never again will I let myself fall deeply. So maybe this is going to be the first and the last time I will invest in love which I’m uncertain of. 

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Sorry not sorry

Hey! There's something i need to tell you. Actually, i've known you for quite a while. From the first moment i saw you, there's something that i've felt inside of me. Gusto ko sana makipagclose sayo because you seem cool pero nahihiya ako. Sayo lang ako ganyan hahahahahaha, di talaga ako mahiyain sa mga tao. I think i like you. As in i have a crush on you. Sorry ang weird hahahahaha but I would really want to get to know you 😸

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Mother's day celebration at Koko Buri 🍴🍗

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This is me being eaten by a dinosaur 😑

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Mother-daughter bond 👩👧

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Soundtrippin' through one boring day 🎧

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I’m in love with everyone I’ve ever met in one way or another. I’m just a crazy, unhinged disaster of a human being

Edie Sedgwick 

Everything you love is here

(via lovequotesrus)

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Aww :(

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SHIT!! Huhu *cries*

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OMG Regina and Robinhood :)

Have w-… Have we met before?

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I want you to come to New York with me.

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do not comment on what I’m eating

do not comment on how much i’m eating

do not comment on how little i’m eating

do not comment on how healthy it is

do not comment on how unhealthy it is

do 

not

comment

on

what

i’m

eating

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#the worship reflected in his eyes #he is amazed #daddy is proud of his little princess #daddy loves her so much (◡‿◡✿) #but this was just a dream