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Childhood makes us experience how beautiful life is without thinking any problems and just playing outside with so much fun. But life doesn't always like that, life is challenging and will challenge you how you will face life trials in life. The little me before is just sad when my mom don't allow me to play outside with my cousins.But now i used to think so many what if's.

Hello everyone my name is Jillian S. Cotimar. I was raised in Pajo Capricorn Lapu-lapu City. Before i like to go to my cousin's house because i want to play with her, i even cry if my cousin will go home because i play alone again. When i was around 7 yrs old i always think of what my life would be if my father is here with me. Whenever i look at other kids having fun with their father, i always think why didn't i experience this kind of life. I'm still a kid i also want to experience how does it feel to have a father. I can't help to feel jealous of them because I didn't even see what he looked like, I don't have a picture of him and I never saw him in person. I used to think so many what if's before like what if we look a like, what if he's still alive, what if he will come back. But i know now that would never gonna happen, life goes on, i still have my mother and i will always love her no matter what.

In elementary days i really love to play chinese garter after class i always told my classmates to play with me because my day is not complete if i don't play chinese garter after class. Hahaha i remember my shorts ripped off because im trying to reach the devel part of the chinese my mom scold me and i just said it's part of the game haha. When i was a child i used to dance all the time and then there's one time that we will have our practice in our school and then i see this one boy eating outside our room and i find him cute and i caught him staring at me, he's staring at me and im thinking what if he likes me but noo. He is staring at me because he also wants to dance he's staring because he is memorizing our dance steps because he's gay omygash he even dance better than me. Elementary days is so fun for me because i have a lot of bff's just a mix of plastic and pure hehe a black pink lover friends and a twice lover friends haha love playing with them and i love dancing with them because my circle of friends before loves dancing, we used to dance some of blackpink dancing video and i love jennie so much. I love to dance because my voice doesn't like me im not gifted in beautiful voice so if you don't want me to ruin your day just don't let me sing hehe.

During my junior high school days i have this one friend na i don't think he is gay or not because the way he talks he sounds different like gays, sometimes he moves like a boy sometimes he also moves like a gay like it's so confusing. And we became friends like almost everyday we talk we jam we're like bff because i also like his personality. And then one day after class he confess to me and give me flowers and that time im so nervous because i don't know what to say. He confess to me he said he likes me, he said he's confused because even him he doesn't know if he likes boy or girls, if he's gay or not. But he said he really likes me because of my jolly personality before, but i rejected him. I said i just see him as a friend and he accepted it he said it's okay as long as we're still friends. But its almost year na since our last talk and i found out that he's in a relationship with a guy and im just happy for him because he knows now the real him(he's gay). I really don't want to entertain any guy's like just no because i just want to read wattpad stories, reading wattpad makes my standard so high.

And during pandemic my comfort zone is reading, i just want to be alone and read some wattpad stories i even finished the story in just one day. During pandemic i just want to be alone all the time,like im scared talking to other people even my relatives i don't want to face them, i dont want to talk to them i just want to be alone in my room. And in my senior high year, this year is also so hard specially on my grade 11 days since im scared to talk to other people i dont even want to take off my mask because im used to it, im insecure and thinking what if they will find me ugly what if they won't like me. And then time passed by i adjust myself to make me feel comfortable in front of people so that i can communicate with my classmate. lm scared of public speaking like it makes me feel so nervous. It was hard for me but time passed i realized that this is our world, we need to face challenges to test our capabilities and what are the things we can do to survive in life. I'm happy because i meet new friends and i meet this guy, i will keep it nalang hehe.

I'm happy now, im contented of what i have. I have my mom who's very supportive, i have my friends who always makes me happy. Life is too short, we cant go back to change the beginning, so love the people around you. You are given this life because you are strong enough to live it. Whatever life gives you, live for it, because it gives us a chance to build something better.

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My Life Journey From Childhood to Adulthood

Hello everyone I am gian cristel apiag, 18 years old. The story of my Life I have a very fulfilling feeling about what I have been able to accomplish in my life so far. Before my family is so close to many kids, that's why I'm so friendly. I want our house full of kids, so that I have friends to play with. So everyday we played so many games like bahay-bahayan or family roleplaying games, and so we played we cook a rice into the can of milk and our viand is dried fish and we are happy for that. And one time my cousin is cooking a rice and my other cousin put a salt and nips on it, she told us when we put salt and nips we don't needed a viand. So when my older cousin taste it she is so angry because it taste like spoiled rice, and that was the only rice we bought because we don't have enough money, and if we get rice from our house our mother would get mad because they think that we're just playing the rice. And the other day we played again and their is a sofa that my mother throw it away because its broke, and we open the sofa and there is a lot of sacks, so we get it and make a house. When we are done making the house (we make a house with a second floor using a chairs and fly wood) so we played and we slept at the second floor, and when my cousin(boy) is coming with his friends he sat on the chair were we put the flywood to make a second floor, and then he pulled the chair so we fall and he just laughing with his friends and they sing the hala nahulog song, so I get mad. And so, I get a lot of rocks and throw it to them and they cried. So my mother get angry because why were so noisy, so she told me to get inside of our house and they crashed our play house. And many weeks had pass, we have a neighbor that has no TV so my mom let them get inside of our house to watch. And also we have a tree of a guava and the brother of our neighbor climb and get some guava and I ask him if can I have some because I dont know how to climb, and he told me no. And so what I do is I get his slippers and throw it away and shake the tree of the guava hahaha.

And when I get older we did not play a bahay-bahayan anymore, what we play is hide and seek. And we play it at night to make it interesting because it's so hard finding a person at night and also it so scared because it's so dark. And many days we played I getting fall in love with one of my friend, but sadly the one I crush on is have a crush to my cousin. So I did not play with them anymore. I only standby in our house and watch movies. Many years have past and I get older, zia(my cousin) always took us at the mall and eat Jollibee and also she bought us dresses or anything. And also there is a time when I was a kid we make fun of my cousins hair because it is bald, so she get mad and we just laughting and he chase us with a big rock on his hands so we ran and my cousins saw a jeep and they climb on the top of it and I'm the last one who climb and I get caught with my cousin climbing the jeep so he pulled my feet so I fall to the ground from the top of the jeep and my right hand got injured so I cried a lot .Sadly my mom and dad is in the market so my cousins call my dad,so my mom and dad rushed home because they told them that my arms got injured. And they make joked that my hand would cement and put tiles on it so I cried even more. But thankfully it is just a lame, so we went to Lola Carmen to massage my hand.

Time flies when I was in grade 7 I met a lot of people and they become my best friends, and we got a very nice and generous teacher, because every salary of our teacher she free us a snack. And we are very thankful that she is our grade 7 adviser. And when I turned grade 8 I met new people I had 5 best friends, with them I tried going to the beach and going to the mall without my parents. And I'm so happy that I tried those things and I always cherish those times and I won't forget those moments. But sadly there is a virus from china that stops our face to face class. And many people lost their job and especially my father. Thankfully we have a neighbor that sells a vegetables and he let my mom sells those so that my mom can provide our daily needs during covid. Though my COVID days is a bit fun because my relatives always in our house they always cook there and we will eat together, so that I gained a little bit of weight because there is a lot of food those times. And when face to face class are back I was already grade 11 and their where I met those 4 monkeys who makes me happy at school and enjoy my teenage years. Everytime we had achievements we eat at fastfoods nor we go to the beach. And I always thank them for completing and makes my teenage years memorable and unforgettable. Though my life isn't that interesting but the time to breathe before advancing further in my future, the difficult moments instead of discouraging me, these moments give me motivation and the necessary energy to move forward. The journey to childhood to adulthood is not something that happens in the blink of an eye but rather within time.