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I wanna be the woman that everyone stares at whether out of love, hate, or envy. I wanna be the woman who goes for walks every morning with her dog before stopping to grab a quick coffee at a small, cozy café. I wanna be the woman the barista falls in love with at first sight even though I'm a hot, sweaty mess. I wanna be the woman servers want to return every night just to see her. I wanna be the woman who goes to a fine-dinning restaurant by herself because she doesn't need anyone to treat her; she treats herself. I wanna be that woman.

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Damn babe you reread a book you love instead of reading one of the many books on your to-read list? But now that youre done youre going to read a new book right? Right??

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Yes.

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It's always "I love you" and never "the only Heaven I'll be sent to is when I'm alone with you"

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I'm such a slut for casual intimacy like laying on the floors together

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KinnPorsche production details and acting choices that make me feral part 3/?

Porsche’s facade crumbling when Kinn brings up That Night. The knee, the jittery knee. He doesn’t say a single word but his whole body conveys that there’s still so damned much left to unpack before he can deal with the fallout.

And Kinn must notice but they’re out of time, there’s no kind way to approach it. They have to face it head on.

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APO NATTAWIN as PORSCHE (14/?) KINNPORSCHE (2022) dir. Khom Kongkiat | episode xii — I wanted to pay for my mistake by having you work here, so that I could take care of you and your brother. If I’d told you directly, would a stubborn guy like you have accepted my help? Then your thinking is correct. Thank you, for trying to help. But I don’t want it.

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can’t believe our beloved gay mafia show is going on stage and giving us even more gay little shenanigans. like they gave us a random talent show and the internet ate it up like the thirsty kinnporsche stans they are

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okay obviously there’s so many jokes about mile’s dreams coming true because he gets to play apo’s love interest and they literally just get to kiss on stage all of the time but. i can’t help but look at these two and feel the magic that the create together because of the safe space that is so apparent that they have with one another. that these two people genuinely love each other and are soulmates in every sense of the word. that they’re so extremely close and look to each other for a shoulder to lean on and just make each other happy. the world tour is so cringe but you can tell that they’re having so much fun getting to be silly and spend time with their best friend yk ?? they’ve both been through such a unique experience that binds them together forever and get to face every day with that person beside you ??? feeling comfortable enough to constantly kiss and hug and hold hands and joke around with each other and have serious moments ??? let alone in front of millions of people ?? they are what makes kinnporsche so special and i only hope to have a relationship half as real as theirs one day

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Mile really said I'm gonna act out the best BL AUs with my 10-year crush and no one can stop me

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imagine someone asking you what your favorite show is and you have to look them dead in the eye and go “oh it’s a gay mafia drama funded by a rich man who really wanted to kiss some dude he met ten years ago and it did so well because of the batshit plot, drama, violence, and sex and now they’re doing a world tour where they sing and dance and strip and kiss each other while being cringefail but also it’s really fun anyways yeah you should watch” like??? i think i would simply have to crawl in a hole and never come out

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the thing that gets me the most about the kinnporsche world tour is how impossible it is to categorize. like it's a concert. it's a musical. it's a burlesque performance. it's a cosplay contest. it's a comedy skit show. it's a martial arts demo. it's a kpop dance rehearsal. it's a striptease. it's a comic con panel where they do cast interviews and preview teaser trailers. also they make out on stage. BOC really threw in everything but the kitchen sink for this cash grab and i wouldn't have it any other way.

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there’s something so crazy about mile seeing apo for this first time and immediately telling him that he looks like a character (who he finds handsome) from his favorite show, then ten years later they film a gay drama together and now they’re on stage cosplaying the characters from said show. my guy manifested his own zhan zhao

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This is the most adorable thing in the world. Kinn/Mile's voice is unusual and so angelic. Porsche/Apo can't stop smiling, he's so happy. And that hug at the end

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I think kinnporsche really showed me that weekly episodes are so much more fun than a whole season at once (at least when it comes to ~1h long episodes):

1. The hype every week is insane and it adds so much to the excitement and appreciation of the show

2. Same with the engagement and the fandom interaction - it doesnt just fizzle out like for bingeable shows and there are no spoilers if you’re up to date, so you can just scroll the tags at any point safely!

3. The weekly behind-the-scenes content is very cool as well! Seeing the cast’s reactions to each episode is awesome too

4. The viewing experience is so much more conscious, since we all have a whole week to digest one episode - everyone analyses it and truly notices all the hidden details and authorial choices (as opposed to glossing over them while binging)

5. It’s fun for a longer period of time! :)

6. Something to look forward to

7. It’s just healthier than (for example in the case of kp) watching 14h of content at once :’)

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The devastation of saving the one who could have been The one ...                               Part 1.

Did you notice that Porsche had to push Kinn away to make them let go of each other ?

 Did you hear Kinn let out this tiny sound of “Hngh” when he is pushed back…Like he’s just been punched in the gut ,like he is trying to take a breath but there’s something stuck in his lungs…

Did you feel as bereft as Kinn did after Porsche walks back ….just standing there …empty handed , Porsche’s warmth slowly leaving his limbs… the hope of love disappearing like mist in midnight rain …barely had a glimpse of heaven to fall back to hell

Did the knowledge that Porsche can still walk away from him and sprint towards his freedom, whereas Kinn is now so far gone his only option is to be the one left behind .. Did that hurt more or less then the bullet that thore through his flesh….

Did you feel the visceral, clawing regret set in after Porsche is gone …Kinn just let go of his one ray of sunshine in a future of darkness … He used all of his dwindling willpower to unclench his fist and let the firefly slip though his fingers ….

And then the reminder that the only reason he even got this much light was becouse he captured a Phoenix , traped him, took advantage  …..wondering how much of it was given freely , if any …

And then comes the rage ….born of the cold finality of your circumstances , the need to scream your helplessness in to the starless night until you throat is so raw you are coughing blood …

The devastation in the knowledge that you were forced - against your selfish desires - to save the one who could have loved you -body and soul - from yourself….A Pyrrhic victory against your own demons …….

Because you know there is only so many times  you can watch a caged phoenix rise from the ashes ,sickened by the knowledge that your love is the cage  ……..and you are the one who keeps making him burn ……

part 2