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archivewriting · 11 days ago

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Determined for you

Pairing: rafe x reader

Warnings: slightly toxic rafe, cursing

Summary: A situation occurs between you and Rafe where the subject of him relapsing is brought up.

You stared at the video replaying over and over on Ellas phone. Toppers private story on Snapchat named "pov we've fucked" and posted was a video of Rafe snorting lines of coke off a random table at a house party. Toppers voice is heard through the backround with other guys yelling and cheering Rafe. Your stomach flipped as you watched in horror. Yes Rafe didn't have the best reputation but he had sworn he was clean.

"I'm sorry, I just wanted to show you because I overheard him telling you he was 5 months clean last week" Ella explained as she shut off her phone and looked up at you. She looked sorry for you and it made your stomach turn.

He lied.

It was no secret Rafe struggled with drugs and alcohol. But he swore he was clean when you almost broke things off with him the first time.

"Please baby I promise jus-just don't go" Rafe begged as you gathered your things.

"You said that last time Rafe. I just can't keep this cycle going"

Two weeks later and after 200 roses being sent each day to your front porch and numerous apology cards Rafe and you got back together under the condition that he was to stay clean.

"I don't even know what to say or do" you said as you gave Ella a small frown.

Your heart hurt. Rafe. Your Rafe was lying, and you weren't sure if he'd done it before you saw the video. Everything confused you and caused a headache to occur.

"If you need anything I'll be here for you" Ella says. You give her a small nod before getting up and heading out over to your car.

You sat in your car in silence trying to figure out what to do with the situation. Your head was aching the video of Rafe high out of his mind replaying over and over again. Your phone began to buzz, looking down you see many texts from Rafe.

Rafey🤍:

I miss you rn

Rafey🤍:

Wyd baby

Rafey🤍:

ur location says ur still at Ellas

Rafey🤍

giving her all your attention come over

Rafey🤍:

I'm abt to come over with Top in 5

Your eyes widen as you read his last message. In an attempt to quickly text back you hear a loud engine and music blaring to your right.

Fuck.

You look over and see Topper sitting in the passenger seat, Rafes figure barely noticeable in the drivers seat.

Topper stares at you through the passenger window smiling and waving at you. You give him a small laugh before shooting Ella a text.

Y/n:

was on my way to leave & rafe texted me he was on his way with topper now we're all here outside your house

Ella:

shit I didn't see topper texted me too

Y/n:

act casual don't even bring up the video

A knock on your window causes you to jump. It's Rafe giving you a grin. You smile sincerely before unlocking your car door stepping out as Rafe opens your door.

"Hey baby" Rafe says giving you a long kiss on your lips before wrapping his arm around you.

"Missed you" He said slyly pulling you closer to him.

Feeling awkward you give Rafe a smile before walking with him in silence. Topper ahead of you both.

You weren't walking in silence he was telling you about his day with Topper, they both headed up to the country club before he missed you.

Rafe could sense the tension coming from you. You were much more distant with him today than you ever have and he could tell by your quiet demeanor. You weren't being mute you just weren't talking as much. He figured you were having a bad day and didn't want to push you.

Which is why he didn't ask why you were outside in your car. He could tell by the moment you all entered Ella's house something was off.

Rafe was no idiot especially when it came to his girl. He sensed the way you'd stare off mid conversation. The way you looked down at your lap more than you looked at him.

Were you mad at him? He thought.

"Uh you know what, Ella could you just give Top a ride back home" Rafe asked blankly starting at you.

You were out of it especially when the three were talking you hardly spoke to Rafe never finding the courage to look at him. All the anger you felt had disappeared and disappointment settled in. The conversation brought you back from your thoughts. You looked up to see Ella shooting you a smile while Topper sat next to her oblivious about anything occurring, he was too busy gawking over Ella's side profile. But you could feel Rafes intense gaze onto you.

Rafe lied to you.

"Y/n's not feeling so well so figured I'd just take her home with me" Rafe said casually fully getting your attention. You finally looked over at him to see him staring at you. Rafe leaned in giving you a kiss on your cheek

"Come on baby, I'll take you home" Rafe said softly getting you up on your feet. Topper who was sitting next to Ella gave Rafe a small nod while Ella gave you a sincere smile. Mouthing "you'll be okay" to you on your way out.

Rafe held your bag while walking the both of you out. He held your hand and you held his back. He'd occasionally glance back at you to make sure you were okay.

"What about my car?" You asked Rafe looking at your car as he opened the passenger door for you.

"Don't worry about it I'll pick it up tomorrow" He said guiding you into the car and circling around to the drivers seat. His car smelled like him and it brought you comfort for a bit before reality set in.

Rafe had relapsed.

You gave him a nod as he sets into the drivers seat. Starting up his truck the hum of the engine and the sound of the AC turning on all at once.

"Alright what on your mind sweetheart" Rafe asked putting his hand on your leg as you stared out the car window. His hand rubs your leg softly before staying put on your thigh. He backs the car out of the driveway and begins driving on the road. Rafe reaches up from your leg to turn down the radio before resting his hand back on your leg.

You let a sigh before responding "nothing just tired" you said leaning your head up against the window.

"Come on, tell me I don't like you sad and shit" Rafe said rubbing his thumb along your thigh.

You held back from saying anything simply because he was driving. You didn't want an argument to occur in the car.

You decide not to respond just continuing to stare out the window.

Rafe glances over to you confused.

"Did I do something?" Rafe asks stopping the car at a red light.

You looked to him making eye contact for a brief moment before the light turns green.

"Come on baby you gotta tell me if I did something so I can fix it"

Your silence only angers Rafe.

"What you found a new guy you wanna fuck" He says scoffing.

"What no Rafe"

"Then what is, you're out here fucking ignoring me. You're being distant so what is it you found a new guy to fuck now" He spits harshly before pressing down on the gas pedal. The cars speed accelerates causing your heart to drop.

"Stop stop stop Rafe. Slow the damn car down Rafe" you pleaded as he only continued to speed. Sliding in between cars angry and frustrated with why you were being so closed off.

If Rafe hated anything it was people leaving. His mind jumped straight to the conclusion that you were trying to leave him and it irked him.

"Not stoppin till you tell me baby" Rafe said.

"You relapsed Rafe!!" You said finally getting the words out. Rafe slows the car back down slowly before pulling the car into a parking lot with numerous apartment homes around it.

"What"

"You relapsed Rafe I saw you!" You exclaimed keeping a distance between you and Rafe in the car.

"I have no idea what you're fuckin' talkin about" Rafe huffed. But he did know.

He knew damn well two nights ago while you were at home studying he was high out of his mind but he'd never tell you that.

"Toppers story Rafe. It's you snorting lines of coke!"

"Ella showed me the post Rafe I know what I saw" You said firmly.

Rafe lets out a scoff a laugh almost and it pisses you off.

"It's not funny Rafe you relapsed after telling me you were done"

Rafe stared at your face noticing the way you tensed. He knew if he told the truth he'd lose you. You were frowning upset with him and Rafe hated being the reason you were sad. So he came up with the first lie that came to his mind. He'd do anything to keep you.

"Baby, the video is from 7 months ago"

Your eyebrows furrowed.

Could it be? No..? Maybe?..

You didn't really check the time Topper posted the video too focused on watching Rafe snort lines of coke.

"Sweetheart I love you too much to take that risk with you" Rafe reassures pulling me to him. Rafe places you on his lap in the drivers seat. His arms wrapping around you as you stare at him.

"I don't know Rafe, it looked recent to me" you said looking to the side.

Rafe grabs your head holding your gaze between his hands, "Baby you trust me?" He asks.

You nod your head muttering a yea.

"Good because I'm telling you the truth. I'm clean I swear" Rafe reassures.

"The video is old, I almost lost you wouldn't want to lose you again"

Silence follows after his words. You were sure if Rafe was lying or telling the truth. You stared at him acknowledging his features the way he stared at you, admiring you. You tucked in your lower lip attempting to catch any signs of Rafe lying to you. He only held your gaze running his hands softly on your back.

"Okay" you said softly letting out a sigh.

"Yea? We're okay baby. I'm okay" He said hugging you.

You lay your head in his shoulder feeling Rafe press small kisses along your face.

Rafe pulls you away before gripping onto your face.

"Next time tell me when you're upset or confused alright?" He demanded and you nod.

"Good, because you're stuck with me forever alright" Rafe said moving his hands lower to your ass and pulling you closer.

"I just want you to be okay" You responded truthfully.

Rafes eyes look at you filled with love. How'd he get so lucky with you? He stared at the way you looked at him. You looked at him differently than others, you cared for him.

"I know and I'm okay when I have you"

"We only need each other" Rafe says pulling you into a harsh and desperate kiss.

You kiss him back relived the situation has been solved.

Eventually Rafe brought you over to his house. You laid in his bed sleeping after fucking in his car and his bed. You were sleeping in his shirt while his comforter covered your legs.

Rafe sat on his end of the bed shirtless pulling out his phone.

Rafe:

Take down your story rn

Rafe:

R u fucking slow top posting that shit allowing y/n to see

Top:

Fuck did she see?

Top:

Shes not in the private story

Top:

My fault dude

Rafe:

You almost cost me my relationship I will fuck you up Top if you pull that shit again

Top:

I know I know I'm sorry Rafe wasn't my intention

Rafe swiped out of his conversation with Topper before shooting Ella a text.

Rafe:

Don't appreciate you filling my girls head w bullshit so keep my name out ur dirty fucking mouth along with hers

Ella:

She deserved to know you relapsed Rafe

Rafe:

Wasn't your place to say so stay in ur fucking lane next time

Rafe:

You and I both know you're a sneaky bitch. Didn't think I'd figure out you envied my girl?

Rafe:

Leave my girl alone or I'll actually ruin ur fuckin' life

Ella left Rafe on read before Rafe blocked her number. He scoffed "stupid bitch" Rafe muttered under his breath.

He heard you shuffling behind him.

"Rafe?" You said tiredly

"Shhh I'm here go back to sleep" Rafe said getting into bed and kissing your head. You moved closer to him wrapping your arms around his torso before falling asleep.

One thing was clear. Rafe wasn't letting anyone get in between you two.

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