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Call out : Toma is a scammer.

tldr : My (now former) friend, TS fandom member and artist known as Toma @tomato-arts owes me almost 1K USD and promised to pay me back only to ghost me.

Turns out she lied about why she needed the money I gave her recently, and probably about other things, using her status as my friend and fellow fandom member to get money out of me and run with it. She also tried to scam her commissioners (me included) by making them pay for a commission and never delivering, but was callout out in January for it.

In this google document I detail the timeline and events that led to the current situation while also bringing receipts. Please do NOT harass any of the people mentioned (by name or not) including Toma herself.

Please reblog this post as much as possible.

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The Allmother: An Entirely too Long Analysis

In the whole demo, we only get one completely missable set of dialogue on this potential deity.

But that is more than enough information for me to start speculating. The two important parts to break down here are her supposed connection to the hearth and thus fire, and her title of Allmother.

A hearth is the part of a house where fires are made and kept (a fireplace is the modern day equivalent). Traditionally, before the advent of stoves and furnaces, this fire was used both for heating the house and cooking meals. It was considered one of the most important parts of the home, and so by extension, the spirits and deities that lived in the hearth and controlled the hearth fire were the most important beings to the household and its survival.

Hestia, Greek goddess of the hearth, was given the first offering of every domestic sacrifice, and at feasts she was granted the first and last sip of wine.

Gabija is the Lithuanian spirit of fire, who was offered bread and salt to feed her. If you did something to disrespect the hearth, like spitting or peeing in it, she was known to burn the house down. Later she would become known as the hearth goddess Matka Gabia.

The Ainu people worship Kamuy-huci, who lived in the hearth and controlled the gateway between humans and the divine. Deceased souls would reside in the hearth alongside her, and so keeping it clean was vital to ensuring those souls could eventually reincarnate properly.

Jowangshin is the hearth goddess of Korean shamanism, and relayed to the heavens the going-ons and behaviors of each household's inhabitants. She is described as vengeful towards those who do not respect their hearths, and actively works against such individuals.

The pattern between all of these deities is clear. The hearth is controlled by a woman who is deserving of the utmost respect. And it is pointless to think on the hearth without tying it to the element it is tasked with controlling and maintaining, fire. Hestia is sometimes described as a living flame, Gabija is originally a fire spirit, in some myths Kamuy-huci is born from a fire producing drill, Jowangshin is the goddess of fire alongside the hearth. To say that a hearth goddess is also a fire goddess is no great stretch of the imagination.

But why does the Allmother's connection with fire matter? Because we're all rather familiar with a certain being who is constantly being associated with fire, flames, and especially warmth:

Right from the beginning, before we even know what he looks like.

In non canon events.

In teasers for the game.

And of course, in the demo itself.

Kuras is a furnace, and we're not allowed to forget it. And wouldn't it just make sense, that the angels of a hearth goddess are themselves related to fire? Kuras is an angel, which means he responds to a higher being, why not this one? What that means for his route, I can only image.

Back to the original text, the traveler is praying that the Allmother will be forgiving of sins, implying that part of her domain includes the right to judge lives and morality. She is also believed to guide lives "unto her hearth," likely at the time of death considering the context of when the pray is being uttered. Which leads me to believe that she is responsible for helping souls pass on peacefully, but only if she deems them worthy of her fire. Since in many cultures a "good" death is a very important end goal to pursue, staying in her favor would be considered paramount to those who believe in her.

Moving on to her title, the name suggests that she is either the deity of a monotheistic religion and thus naturally all encompassing, or a major deity in a polytheistic pantheon. Either way, there are only so many interpretations one can dissect from a title that implies an all encompassing claim of maternal jurisdiction.

If nothing else, I suspect she is considered a mother to her angels. Whether or not Kuras will even bring her up is debatable, since I could just be seeing connections that aren't really there. But as an angel I'm sure he'll at least drop the name of the being he's serving penance for.

Maybe she won't be mentioned ever again. Maybe she'll be an integral part of Kuras' route. Maybe she'll be a passing mention that isn't nearly as important as such a name suggests. Regardless this break down has helped me better understand Kuras' themes, and has made me even more excited to play his route.

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Little reminder that RSS is AGAINST the use of generative AI for TS and their work in general. INCLUDING AI bots like c.ai.

Source : https://www.redspring.studio/faq

I know some people in the fandom made AI bots of the characters and that despite generative AI stealing from artists/writers and people in general by scraping all kinds of data (which is a major data security and copyright concern) and the catastrophic environment danger that generative AI represents.

So please delete the bots and stop using generative AI. There's alreayd bazilions of posts, articles and research about how detrimental it is overall to everyone.

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People complaining about Leanders physique being unrealistic will never not be funny to me. "But you have to be super dehydrated for it to look like that! It's unhealthy!!" Its Leander. Does this guy look like he takes care of himself in the slightest? The guy doesn't sleep what makes you think he drinks two liters of water a day and eats three square meals with nutritional balance? Of course he's unhealthy IT'S LEANDER

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This might just be my personal, wrong opinion, but...

Y'all I don't think that's Mhin.

RedSpringStudio is specific with their designs. Everything is consistent, everything is deliberate, and Mhin so far has of course been portrayed as androgynous.

Why go to all that effort making them androgynous just to then give them a super feminine portrait with long thick lashes and plump darkened lips? This looks feminine, not the usual androgyny we get from Mhin.

The feathers and the transformation I can definitely see, and there's a clear resemblance, but to me it just...it doesn't look like them. It looks SIMILAR to Mhin, but it doesn't look like Mhin.

I can't help but wonder if their curse is generational, or if they're the only one carrying it or if there are others or arrrrrrrrgggghhhhgg save me. Is this a relative?

Can you guess what this concept’s for? 🐦‍⬛

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Drumroll… 🥁🥁🥁

First chapter’s out. 🥳

Title : Your lips, my lips. Apocalypse.

Summary : As you watch Ais and Leander laugh this easily together, so dissimilar yet so alike in some concealed aspects, and each of them unknowingly holding one half of your wretched heart, it occurs to you that there’s no way you could possibly make it through this intact.

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Due to popular demand (me randomly realising that I’m capable of doing this) I made a basic breakdown/tutorial on the Touchstarved style! This is specifically for those who want to draw their OCs as TS sprites to interact with their faves (target audience: me.)

LMK if there are other aspects such as eyes, noses, etc. that you also want tips on! Artists supporting artists let’s gooooo

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Is Lorrle open to friends/acquaintances from other ocs? 🥺 I love the idea of her having a support system for the baby -🌚

Absolutely! It'll take her a while to warm up to the idea of someone else being trusted with her child, but I'm sure she'll get there eventually ^^

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Happy birthday to Vere~!

MINORS DNI

AGELESS/FACELESS BLOGS WILL BE BLOCKED

Source: Touchstarved

Pairing: Vere x Reader

Contains: Explicit language, alcohol, strong violence, it's Vere what are we expecting, gore, sex??, monsterfucking???, murder, dead dove do not eat, cannibalism, decapitation, nobody is coming, Leander needs a mop.

It is the fourteenth of November.

The air is cold, the ground is not yet frozen over but you find your steps slipping more than they usually do. It tends to happen around this time of year. Everything slows down, and the days are all over so quickly that you're not really sure if they ever happened at all.

He's hungry, you knew that. He has always been hungry.

The hunger has been eating at him for a long time.

You met him through a friend. Well, they weren't a friend at the time... A brief but uneasy encounter outside the Wet Wick, in which you had fallen for a sly pickpocketing trick, and he had dangled it in front of you like an anglerfish, slowly luring you into the light. You did get your key back, in the end. With some interference of course.

Over time, you realised you had a lot in common. He hated the Senobium with a burning passion, and so did you; They had been lauded far and wide as the best of the best, and once upon a time you had hoped they could cure you, but not anymore. Those gates were too strongly locked and far too secretive to let the likes of you inside. After a while you had simply stopped trying, and you found that the more you grew to dislike them, the more you found yourself spending time around the fox with the hungry eyes.

And at first it was nothing, really, just hanging out with mutual acquaintances and bumping into each other around the Wet Wick, but gradually you began to take notice of the way his pupils thinned to pin pricks when he looked at you, the way his fur bristled ever so slightly when you almost came too close. You noticed how his ears tracked you with a strange alertness despite the cool composure he maintained, and how whenever he gave you that sly smirk, the corners of his lips would sort of... flicker.

The closer you got, the more these instances occurred, and it began to dawn on you, the feelings that you had for him. Every now and then, he'd slip you an extra drink and make a smooth remark about taking you home.

When he did, his tail would twitch ever so slightly, and his knee would grow restless, bouncing under the counter. His jaw would clench, and though he did his best to hide it, his breathing would pick up and heave subtly at his chest. But every time, you declined, wanting to wait for a "special moment" and in an instant it was as though it had never happened. He'd go back to the small talk, the teasing, the joking or arguing and there'd be no traces left of that hungry fox who looked at you with a desperate, secret, hidden need.

His eyes look particularly dilated tonight.

It is the fourteenth of November, and you have bought yourself an extra drink tonight. You've bought Vere one, too. He tries not to look hopeful, but you see in your peripheral the way he eyes you up and down when you're facing away from him. He's being less secretive about it tonight, even taking the time to wait until Leander has left the two of you alone.

(Alone, apart from the horned demon sitting at the end of the bar, keeping keen red eyes on you both, and the Senobium cleric outside the bar. You assume she's waiting for him to leave and take up whatever business he has with the nearest brothel. You have a feeling he won't, not tonight.)

"Happy Birthday, Vere. Let's get out of this place for a while," You murmur, leaning in. His keen ears pick up every word, but you don't want the cleric to catch wind of what you're up to.

A thin smile slits across his face, and he offers you his hand, assisting you to your feet. His expression is dark with want, and the dancing candlelight only paints him in a more monstrous light. You don't seem to mind, though, as your footsteps begin to stumble towards the door.

His sharp claws pull you back, knocking you into him, your back flat against his chest. "I was thinking we could use your room tonight."

Your breath hitches in your throat.

"Leander has the key. He won't be back until-"

"Until I'm done," Vere finishes, flashing the keys in front of you the same way he did back then. And you smile.

Ais red eyes linger on your backs until the very last moment you leave his view. As the two of you sneak off together, you shoot a quick look back to make sure you're alone.

He doesn't move from his seat.

Vere locks the door behind you and tosses the key before he pounces, a mess of hair and claws. There's a calm desperation in the way he rips your clothes off you, and the way you fiddle with the straps around him. The low growl caught in his throat spills forward as he pushes you backwards, teeth clacking against yours and splitting your lip, and the pleasure and relief shudders through him when he plunges into you.

Blood splatters across the hardwood floor.

For a moment you stand there, stunned at the explosion of colour, and then it hits you all at once. The pinprick eyes. The attentive ears. The charm, and the twitches, and the ever so slight flash of fangs each time he asked you to come with him. There is blood on the floor, and it dawns on you with a sickening crunch that this is your blood, your viscera that is now congealing between the floorboards, and it is so dark in this room.

He's panting, moving with a disturbing nonchalance for someone with such a feral look on their face. The arm that had split your belly open twists with another sick crunching noise and you feel it now, the agony as he takes a handful of intestines and squeezes.

You start to throw up, but nothing comes out.

This isn't how tonight was supposed to go. This isn't how you wanted him inside you- but then, he is inside you, isn't he? Making a mess of your organs and lapping up the fluid that leaks from your clenching abdomen, burying his face in your soft thighs...

Only to take an enormous chunk of muscle between his teeth and rip it clean off the bone. The look in his eyes is euphoric, instinctive. How could you be so stupid? Any other time you'd have loved to see him make a face like this. But now, as he shivers with satisfaction, you wish you could have died when his lips touched your lips.

You don't know when your head hits the floor but it does, and you don't feel it. Vere stands above you, violating every inch of your body in his bloodied arms, bits of your meat and sinew plastered across his cheeks and hair, dribbling down his neck and you can't tell if he's fucking you or eating you and you don't think there's a difference anymore because you're being devoured either way.

Your final thought, to your confusion, is Leander. This is his spare room, after all. What's he going to say when he gets back? Will he be angry at you for making such a mess of the floor and walls?

Clinging to life, you fade away to the sound of Vere's sharp teeth snapping through your bones.

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“What a delectable looking cake. Now, close your eyes and open up!”

Happy Birthday Vere! 🦊

Vere donated this drawing to a local tavern to replace the “hideous” and “frankly hateful” sketch of him previously pinned below the Do Not Serve sign

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The TOUCHSTARVED fandom be like:

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I was replaying the demo for the 1000 time, and it made me notice some interesting things about the characters, namely Vere. I am used to him being portrayed exclusively as this sort of suave seducer who always remains under control— in fandom content, anyway. However, taking a closer look at MC's first meeting with him, there is this… powerful undercurrent of rage to his actions, something so unsettlingly ancient, erratic, and feral that does not belong in our notions of what is human at all. This also reminded me of the 'tour guide' post, which implied that Vere thrashed Kuras' clinic. He's so much more emotional than he lets on and so delightfully unpredictable.

I now kind of realize that Vere undeniably borders on uncanny valley to me? His swift, constant back a forth between restrained and unrestrained (instinctual) seems harmonious at first, but if you dig a little deeper you're left with a pattern that shatters all expectations of human behavior and gives you what he really is: a force of nature masquerading as an elegant, sarcastic snob.

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So... was Kuras crucified? I just noticed the scars on his palms.

Is it because he chose Humanity?

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Adults only

18+

Minors DNI

Ageless/Faceless blogs will be blocked

Hey so,,,

Touchstarved fans, who wants to be mutuals???

I made something :3

I'm gonna be honest I've never really been into Tumblr, and with AO3 being taken down I personally believe it's just a matter of time before this site takes a heavy hit with censorship. So I made an Amino for the Touchstarved fandom! It's pretty much ready to go right now, it'll be an adult only space so please please please if you're a minor go AWAY it's not that I don't like you it's just a matter of safeguarding!!!!!

The Amino ID is TouchstarvedDatingSim and it's a private community, so you'll be approved once you request to join :)

I'll still be posting my writing here when I can, but I'm a lot more comfy on amino than I am on Tumblr, so I'm a lot more active there.

Hope it gains some activity!

Edit: it's not certain that AO3 will be taken down, but just in case it is, I'm keeping this up. I've seen way too many things happen in the last ten years that were preceded by "this seems bad, but it won't REALLY happen, because they can't legally do that and nobody would just let it happen" every single time.

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Minors DNI

Ageless/Faceless blogs will be blocked

Some thoughts on Mhin from Touchstarved because I'm a bit insane today!

I can't stop thinking about this. RedSpringStudio revealed in one of their tumblr posts that Lovent was the first city lost to Fogfall. Possibly even the first place the Fogfall descended. They've also stated that humans have gone through the shroud, there are just no document cases of them surviving.

The key word here is DOCUMENTED. As in, having records of it. And we know some records have been destroyed by the Senobium, or by other people.

How old is Mhin? And what exactly are they? If Mhin is from Lovent like this implies then they must be insanely old. And if they escaped the carnage but gained a curse in the process, does that imply that some of the monsters were people? What if the Soulless are people that were taken into the shroud and changed? What if that's how Mhin got their curse? Half transformed, but not all the way, just in time to break free and flee?

That must have been horrible.

Also, the fact that monsters (and angels cough cough Kuras) can have intercourse with humans..? Do they breed? Are they capable of reproducing? MC was born with their curse, "not quite monster, not quite human." What the fuck is going on???? I'm so confused in the best way possible. I have so many thoughts and NONE of them make sense, but when I put them all in a pile together, lopsided and creased they form a picture and I don't know what it is yet but I can see the outlines and shading of something that ever so slightly almost makes sense.

I'm freaking tf out.

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Lorrle what's the worst part of having a baby around the main five? Like what's the most difficult thing to cope with -🌚

Minors DNI

Contains: Child Endangerment, cannibalism, euthanasia, inhumane treatment of a disabled single mother

Source: Touchstarved

I wish I was joking, but it's the fact that all of them keep trying to kill the baby. I don't know why they all have beef with a newborn. But it is EXHAUSTING.

Vere eyes them up like they're a tasty morsel to snack on, and tries to use them as a toothpick the moment I turn my back.

Ais views them as a hindrance, and tries to convince me that my curse wasn't a problem to me until I had the baby, so I'd be better off rid of them.

Mhin acts unimpressed, but they have their tender moments... until they turn into a bloodthirsty monster trying to shred them to ribbons.

Kuras suggests "euthanasia" as a "humane alternative." He tells me my baby should be put down rather than suffer the weight of having me as their mother, and that a swift and painless death is quicker and easier than finding a cure for my curse.

And Leander... I don't even know where to start with Leander. He acts kindly, plays little games with them and is the perfect gentleman, but I can always feel the eyes of his bloodhounds stabbing at my back, and whenever I move, their eyes always follow the little one. He performs, assists, and helps me soothe them when they're distressed, but I just can't shake that feeling of unease. No grown adult should be that invested in being liked by a child. No grown adult should be that concerned with making sure the parent sees him as a caretaker figure. I don't know if it's leverage he wants, or blackmail, but I just can't bring myself to trust it. To trust him.

I've taken to moving the dresser against my locked door at night. I sometimes find that in the morning, the dresser is still in place, but the door is unlocked from the other side.

Aside from sleeping, I rarely put them down.