gonna yap about meri for a second. i love her sm and i wish there was more tales about her as a character. i feel like she would feel very out of place and confused about her life, and at the end of day all she wants is answers. all she got was a letter from her father whom she never met and probably won’t because the foundation won’t let her. she knows her mother is dead and she never really got an explanation for that either. i’d imagine she constantly feels lost because of this - she’s been put in a situation she has no control over and can only dream about having a normal life.
i headcanon she would paint or write about what it would be like if she had a normal life. maybe she’d like to live in a cottage in the woods far away from the foundation with iris
maybe her father would be there too?
but she doesn’t know how she feels about him. on one hand, he killed her mother and left her. on the other, he still cared enough to send her a letter and tell her happy birthday. sometimes she imagines him as the devil incarnate, the man who ruined everything. other times she imagines him as just a man who wants to protect her. he did leave her in the safety of the covenant, after all. he could have killed her just like her mother or left her in worse hands. but he didn’t
but that’s all just speculation for her. i’d like to think she spends a lot of time daydreaming about this, or praying for someone to answer her questions
Returning to a fandom after taking a break for a few years (i got back into scps like a week or two before I made my first post on this account) is wild
Like what the fuck do you mean 10-11 year old me was drawing 049
What do you mean I have a drawing of Josie, Abel, and iris buried somewhere in a book at my mom's house