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#ihaveadream One day, people will let go of what they were taught to hate, they will let go of their self doubt, and self loathing enough to put aside their differences and allow themselves to actually enjoy the art they see, without judgment or inhibitors making them feel like looking at art is wrong or inappropriate. One day, we will see the body for what it is; a beautiful creation, a miracle, a structure of bones and stardust in a suit of flesh. Not just a sexual object, but a human with all spectrums of emotions and energies. One day, we will shun violence as we now shun nudity. The tables will flip and we will welcome the skin we were graced with, and we will shut out this supposed nature of violence. One day, we won’t have to censor what is natural, and will only censor what is unnatural. One day we will respect this skin enough to love the beauty of it. To understand that only a bit of fat and tissue that sets me apart from him. To understand that nipples aren’t evil or ugly, or even sexual objects.. it is merely skin, covering our souls. One day, we will be free of this cage. We will cast out this idea of what modesty is and live together, side by side, appreciating the beauty in this world. #endcensorship #freethenipple #spreadloveabhorehate #SGsundies #tl;dr 😣😝😉 🖤 In just over a month, my newest set will be out in MR on @suicidegirls dot com. #Belladonna It will be my 4th official set in SG, and I’m really excited for it to come out. @lovesquish is such a beautiful photographer and amazing lady, and this set is super dreamy and romantic, I’m really proud of it. 🖤 Until then, head over to SG to see my other sets, like this last one, #Siren that I shot with @photosbyleemalee. I really love this set, and it would mean a lot to me if it ever got bought. I also cannot wait to submit the set we shot this last Nov, #SpellOnYou which I’m hoping to time right so that it’s out right before Halloween.🔮 Have a good week, my darling Cats and Bats..💋 📸:@photosbyleemalee (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/arsenicstar/p/Bu12rk_lAxu/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=8xx6a6hcsvq6

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I’m way beyond sick.. I have an acute sinus infection on top of everything else, and I don’t want to move. So, here’s a group of photos that Seth took of me while at @clubbarsinister for Julie and Nikki’s birthday party.💗 #bondagebarbiebirthdaybash Just a reminder: When someone realizes they no longer have any power over you, they will do everything they can to change how other people see you. Stay strong, be calm, live your best life, and ignore the rest. 💋🖤 Have a safe and fun week, my loving Cats and Bats! My heart is with you all..🖤 📸:@whiskey_shotz📸 (at Bar Sinister) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrLl6kGlhxw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1xbn4b8qldycg

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Fun fact: all of my friends are hot af.🖤 #babesquad #clubbarsinister #happybirthdayjulieandnikki #wednesdaysarehumpdays #becausebutts 📸: @whiskey_shotz 🖤 (at Bar Sinister) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrBe6p4l0u0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1est68mzgmygg

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I am strong.. But I break and I reach and I pull myself back together, masking the indelible with empty smiles, to make myself ready to break.. unfailingly, all over again. #chronicallysick #brokendoll 🖤 This was taken at the #SGLAshootfest2018 and I’ve been so sick and dealing with everything that I forgot to post it. So here it is, and I hope you have a good and safe week, my sweet Cats and Bats!💋 🖤 🚨📌❤️My copays and prescriptions are super expensive and anything helps, so if you want to be my own personal hero, my Venmo is @arsenicstar and I would literally appreciate anything you can donate..❤️📌🚨#cancersucks 🖤 “Swimming in a sea of linens I belong to the night Like flowers elements There's curious angels Pathways of green shone Down across themed spacial Oh, well I break among time Who like the most of your language Dreamed that I was The brother I know And know that the world over It will cave.. Oh, drown pulled out it won't air Look down into the fire We'll escape a bouquet Now that the body threw you It didn't need it Surrounded by so many fools Fast dash for freedom.”-@thesoundofanimalsfighting (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqqbqdaFqnB/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=v4zsd9x2437b

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This year has been one of the hardest of my life. I never thought cancer would ever be in my daily vocabulary, and I’m refusing to let it keep me down. Some days are harder than others, and some days aren’t so bad.. but regardless, I am grateful to be alive. I have high hopes that 2019 will be a better year. I have big plans, and I’m not going to let being sick keep me down. 🖤 “I want to live so densely, lush, and slow in the next few years that a year becomes ten years... and the past becomes only a page in the book of my life.”- @nayyirah.waheed 🖤 BTS📸:@photosbyleemalee📸(from #HouseofLeaves shot by @keziacaptures) (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqdFKEilj5K/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=yuy8kl31dlvx

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Happy #SGsundies from all of us @ the #SGLAshootfest2018 (scroll for SFW butts) 😇😈😸 Have a safe week my loving Cats and Bats!💋🖤 📸: @romero_photography (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqWhbs2FvxB/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=iqd7k6amk53s

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Here’s my birthday butt•ercup, my spoopiest Cats and Bats! 😈🦇🖤😽 #creppyspoops #mundies #birthdaybutt #birthdaygirl #october29 #scorpio Trying to see the good in all of this, and enjoy my birthday as best as I can. I am eternally grateful to be alive, and immensely grateful for my support system. I don’t know how I would have gotten through all of this, not to mention what I’m facing, without you. I love you all, endlessly.❤️🖤 (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpiCcqlFyWK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=prk5g0xlvvbv

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Only 10 days left till Halloween, my spoopy Cats and Bats!😻🦇💀🎃 (And only 8 days until my birthday🤓) Special thanks to everyone who reached out to me when I was in the hospital. I really appreciate all of your love and positivity through all of that. I’m still waiting to hear back about the biopsies, and I have to follow up with my pcp this week to make sure my levels are good. I love all of you so much, and I feel incredibly blessed to have such an amazing support system. You rock!💋🖤 #CatsandBats #SGsundies #suicidegirls #hopefulsuicidegirls #isithalloweenyet #demogorgon #strangerthings #upsidedown 🖤📸Photo by: @tmronin 📸🖤 (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpNLuh2Db9Z/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=wffj5ps433un

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LLLLLLLumps.🌚 Ready for birthday spankings. #15days I go in this week to see if being back on pharmaceuticals has helped at all. #crohnslife Let’s hope I won’t have to have surgery.🤞🏻 Happy #SGSundies and have a safe week, my loving Cats and Bats!💋🖤 (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bo70sg6DHBF/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1uetes4hisw0v

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Thinking about your hands...👄 🖤 I pushed myself a little too hard this weekend and now I’m riding this wave and just concentrating on breathing. I hope you all have a safe and successful week. Happy #SGsundies my darling Cats and Bats..💋💋💋 (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bopnkg9DJKP/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dtzw9kdbp43o

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Peekaboo sweet boy.. do you see me? I see you.. I see right through you. Your eyes show me all of your secrets. ...and I will never tell.💋🖤 🖤 I’ve been battling some weird sinus/flu thing the last couple of days, and breathing has been interesting. I still drank coffee on #NationalCoffeeDay though.. I mean, like I would really go a day without drinking at least a pot of coffee.😂🤓😋 Who am I kidding..😏 Have a safe week, my Cats and Bats! Tomorrow is the start of the best month ever: October-Halloween and my birthday! I can’t wait!🖤 #SGsundies #lovemyCatsandBats MUA&📸:@jvliemichelle (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoYBIO8jFqN/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=3g3yntfpgm6a

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#candidsmile My tiny phantom caught one of those rare moments of me, while changing between shots. One can only guess what I was thinking about in this moment.. It’s my secret, and my secrets are dangerous.🖤 Have a safe week, my Cats and Bats!💋 #SGsundies MUA/📸:@jvliemichelle (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoFUdeNjtoX/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1o61mhs4szdq4

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#33 From the time you were little until the day you left, I danced for you. After you left, the very thought of dancing hurt me to the core. I hung up my pointe shoes, and folded my leotards. It wasn’t until I realized that you were still there, deep inside of me, that I started slowly stepping out to be your “tiny dancer” again. My little sister, my bestest friend, my Clairebear. Happy birthday, Bear. I will never forget.🖤@theclairevoyance 🖤 “I guess I'm an underwater thing I'm liquid running.. There's a sea secret in me It's plain to see it is rising But I must be flowing liquid diamonds.”-@toriamos #SGSundies HMU/📸:@jvliemichelle (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn2A8Q1juEX/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1284wzeo1czjs

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#neverforget Take a moment. Take a breath. Take a stand. Stand together. Be grateful. Be humble. Be alive. #Sept911 #Tuesdayswewearblack #allblackeverything #eatyourowntail #xcloakanddaggerx @xcloakanddaggerx @eatyourowntail MUA&📸: @tiniestphantom (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnmVeRwDMUp/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=m4o2do2hq66k

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Have a good week, my darling Cats and Bats..💋🖤 #SGsundies “There is a wild beating inside my chest. And sometimes I fear that my bones and body will burn away, and that all that will be left will be my bare soul, untamed and so beautifully broken.”-ECP (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bnh2hDjDFj-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=yf7donp0t09t

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#confessionalist She felt too deeply, full of passionate love, and hoped that would be enough... 🖤 This thing, it will help me to remember to be weary of everything in life, to not dive in heart first no matter how comforting or real it may seem. For even the most beautiful faces, hide horrors within. 🖤 “Some girls are full of heartache and poetry and those are the kind of girls who try to save wolves instead of running away from them.”-@Nikita_Gill @xcloakanddaggerx @eatyourowntail #Tuesdayswewearblack #allblackeverything #eatyourowntail #rooftopdolor #darkLA MUA & 📸: @tiniestphantom (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnUV6xIDJM9/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1tcc2uwrqqysu

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💗 Happy birthday @suicidegirls!! 💗 17 years of an amazing community filled with amazing people, that I wouldn’t trade for anything. Special thanks to @seanson and @missysuicide for creating the sexiest community ever! Click the link in my bio to get a one year membership for $29! #becausenudes 😉 (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnRvWOKDZLC/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=2bm3wjo0ykdz