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so light.

Ohh to look like a doll. Thin , Pale and Frail ~

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Meals from my honeymoon phase.

I was really into cute food and I want to be in that phase again.

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Better off alone.

Once I watched a video about a girl, who talked about her 3 D time and she said, she was so alone all the time. You have to be alone and it really freaks me out, when friends are here in my apartment. Especially, when they stay over night. I have to buy normal food, snacks and drinks and of course I have to consume that stuff. I can't walk my steps and it really stresses me.

The times, I am alone here for some weeks, are the best.

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Just some motivation

Photos from Pinterest.

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Day ... uh, I can't remember

Got sick. I just eat soup and I wish it would last for weeks. Could be a way to get thinner.

The last weeks I purged a lot and I hate it. I hate the feeling in my stomach, when I ate too much and I hate to face that disgusting brew in my cleaning bucket, while listening to twenty one pilots on maximum volume an pushing a giant Spoon in my throat. It stinks. It hurts. It is an ugly weakness. I don't wanna be a Mia girl, I want to be an Ana girl again!

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Day 3

Got diarrhea, cause I had those raspberries. What the fuck! Do I like the zero calories fruit konjac jelly? Hell no! But it takes time to eat/drink it and it is better than icecubes. The taste grape it quite nice. Lemon tastes like toilet cleaner.

My own Photos.

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Day 2

I am so obsessed with those Fairylegs. They promised the lightness of a feather.

Photos from Pinterest.

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Day 1

Siting in my stinky and messy flat as the sun goes down, but in an ugly way today, so no firey light on the walls. Hating men to the moon and back, so I deleted that shitspot of an App forever. Every man is directly from hell, but mouseboy-baby. I just want to be thin, motherfuckers. Nothing but thin. Fuck body positivity. I don't feel positiv about my body. I want to kill that motherfucker.

Ana is the only one I can trust. She never disappoints me. It's only me, I can disappoint her.

A bun at home, som chocolate in the car, nothing but Diet Coke in my save flat.

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