ash-isnthuman

[ash-isnthuman]

reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

[ash-isnthuman]

I can rlly agree with this.

sometimes being nonhuman scares me sometimes. My base instincts are wild and bloodthirsty in some cases, and it can worry a part of me (specifically the part raised by humans)

For example prey animals? When im hungry i will admit that my mouth waters and i get excited at the thought of catching and consuming them. Im pretty aware that i would only hunt out of necessity, but there is a part of me that wouldnt mind just taking it out on a bunch of animals and leaving them to rot.

Including humans tbh, although rarer than with deer or birds or dogs. Dont have any tendancies to want to eat cats though, i see them as family members. Marking sucks to deal with, pretty obnoxious to try and get rid of. (Specifically the urine or shitting one, BUT i do mark by rubbing my facial glands across things that are mine/clawing up my walls or soft woodsy things in my room, which has been a good alternative.)

Thats really all i can think of rn that applies at the moment (i am REALLY hungry rn and have been thinking about eating a deer 😀 wonder what it tastes like.)

And a lot of it is more private stuff that is pretty gross and not really needed to be talked about publicly lol.

My less nasty ones are like cleaning myself with my tongue (💀💀💀) and I want to roll in scents. Biting is my more fun instinct, ill be honest i take myself seriously but some of them are funnn

I also vocalize a lot with purrs or mrrps or chirps. I also get ears and a phantom tail a lot, although its a little freaky when my tail goes through solid objects (chairs, walls, sometimes floors even--)

ANYWAYS im getting off topic so YEAH i have a bunch of instincts as an animal but i dont experience them as much as i used to when i first awakened. Although i may joke around and equate myself to housecats i do know that im not one and do not want to be compared to one. Only I GET to do that (and like one other friend i love youuu)

bye fools imma go write an essay now

[ash-isnthuman]

does anybody have any tips for this?

Background info: so I’m beginning to realize I’m a shapeshifter. I’m a nonhuman, I’m a pseudohuman with what I thought was one physical form and a lot of mental/spiritual forms, although I appear as a human to all actual humans. Sucks. But the other day, I looked in the mirror and realized something off. It looked as if my body was shifting into my modernized wendigo form (fuzzy-ish, long limbs with too many joints, around 12+ feet tall, feet skull and antlers for a head, and only back hoofs). Which is odd, since wendigo is “only” a mental/spiritual form for me. (The only physical form I’m aware of is an avian, although as I mentioned, I’m beginning to think that I might be able to switch between all my forms, including mental and spiritual).

Anyways, to my actual question, does anyone know how to control a human illusion? Obviously I’d still want to appear human at times, I don’t like to admit it but I’ve grown slightly connected to this human life I have. Tips are appreciated :).