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grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.

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aaaaa how do i find mutuals on tumblr i still do not know how tumblr works

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This is Gilbert. He’s been around a while. Attributes his long life to many, many years of always getting what he wants

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HAVE you considered What If I Bit You

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ok well im going to build a good future for myself whether i like it or not

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i cannot emphasise enough how much you need to create something. anything. it doesn't matter if you suck. you don't need to monetise it, or make it your career. you can restart an old hobby; you can start from scratch. it doesn't matter. you just need to hold something and be able to say "i did that". baking, drawing, painting, writing, coding, crafts, whatever. make something ! you cannot have all your hobbies be a form of consumption. it's fun, it's great in its own right. but the single best action to make yourself feel better, to calm your mind, to gain self esteem, is to Create

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is this anything

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writing sucks because after i share what i wrote i wanna be like "hey did u notice this technique i used? did you notice the repetition here? let me write you an analysis on my own work."

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New sleep style: hitting the snooze button so many times that you sleep two additional hours in ten minute intervals. I call this Horse Sleep

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i'm both dumber and smarter than you think so don't underestimate me because i'm actually smart about a lot of stuff but also don't be surprised if i'm dumb about some other stuff hope that helps

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when i have never truly been happy* damnit typos

throwing away my phone for a few weeks and buying a lot of books so i can pretend i am 12 again and romanticize the past calling it the last time i was happy when i have truly been happy

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throwing away my phone for a few weeks and buying a lot of books so i can pretend i am 12 again and romanticize the past calling it the last time i was happy when i have truly been happy

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being non-binary is sooooo exhausting... everyone wants a piece of you, you’re hot, you’re funny, you’re cooler than ice cold, you dress impeccably... smash that reblog button if you too think non-binary people deserve to be given 1000000 dollars in cash.

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non binary, but unfortunately still a daughter.