ashuzu44

[ashuzu44]

you are a magical ho and you can shift

[ashuzu44]

realism is the source of limitation

Stop being realistic.

Warning: this is going to be a long and semi harsh post.

“I have to be realistic, there’s no way my Sp is going to love me now. they just told me they want nothing to do with me and blocked me”.

”I have to be realistic, thousands of people applied who are probably better than me. there’s no way i’m going to get in”.

“I have to be realistic, i’ve had short hair since i was born. there’s no way im going to be able to manifest having long hair”.

do you know what that sounds like to me? that sounds like you’re going to get nothing by being that way. okay so you gave into the limitations and rules of reality, what now? you’re being “realistic” so you’ve made up your mind that you cant have what you want simply because it’s not realistic. oh please are you kidding me? why even get into the law of assumption in the first place if you’re not even going to be open minded and willing to break off from the stupid limitations of reality. cmon now. you clearly don’t want to do that so babes… let's stop doing that.

┈┈ 　⊹　reality doesn’t care about you.

reality isn't going around to see if Jane is worthy enough of her desire and if she can have it based off her past, no. reality is going around and reflecting exactly what Jane is giving it to reflect, and if she’s persisting in the idea of having her desire, then great! Jane is going to see her desire reflected by reality. reality isn’t going around to see if you’re doing your “duty” of being confined in a stupid box where you’re unhappy that wasn’t even created by you, it was created by other people, stupid societal expectations, and fucking limiting beliefs. the only thing reality should be to you is a loyal mirror. so stop placing it on the pedestal stop giving it the power that belongs to you and start taking control of reality. reality doesn’t care if you had brown hair just a second ago or if your sp just cut you off, it only cares about what you're giving it, so give it what you want given back to you. if you are deciding that things have changed, then reality is going to change. that is the fucking law.

┈┈ 　⊹ ⠀do you want to be realistic or be happy?

think about it. is being realistic going to get you what you want? make you happy? no? so then why the fuck are you doing it? why are you disallowing yourself of the very thing you want just because of stupid non-existent rules set by society? no one is on your shoulder each second looking at you and judging you to make sure that you’re being realistic and oh making sure that you're not even daring to think that you can actually have what you want, because that goes against your past that goes against what life has decided for you, as if anything else but you can fucking decide the rules for you. only you decide your limitations, so decide you have none! stop kidding yourself, stop guilting yourself, and stop shrinking yourself just to feel like you’re doing right by reality and that you’re being a good person for "realizing the truth". which btw? is just you blocking yourself from being happy once again.

┈┈ 　⊹ ⠀you can't have it both ways.

when you come into the law of assumption, you're going to have to sacrifice some things. you're going to have to sacrifice thinking reality is already decided for you. you're going to have to sacrifice thinking there's a limit to what you can achieve. and most of all? you're going to have to sacrifice being the victim of reality. so what is it going to be? are you going to drop the realistic thinking and give yourself what you want, or give into the illusion again and stay unhappy? the choice is yours.

┈┈ 　⊹ ⠀you are an unlimited being.

all realities, possibilities, and versions of yourself exist within you. even versions of other people as well. everything lies within you, and so does a God. there is a God within you and i want you to think about what that means. that means infinite. that means unlimited. you are more than just a human being, you're an unlimited being who has every single possibility at their hands, but you want to give someone who doesn't even know their power a chance to tell you that you can't do shit? seriously? you have to understand that not everyone has this information or has the willingness and capacity to receive it. so instead of letting those people tell you what you can and cannot do in your reality, decide that for yourself. use your power. ignore the limited beings. cause you know who tf you are, and it's not your problem that other people don't.

┈┈ 　⊹ ⠀you set the rules of reality.

this is your reality. your playground. your fucking mirror. so make it be how you want it to be. stop giving into how shitty reality looks right now, how many circumstances you have right now, or even what Jess said to you the other day about how that’s never going to happen and will never work out, well guess what? fuck Jess because this is your reality and reality is your mirror, so remind yourself of who the fuck you are and what you came here to do, which is change your reality. so have the audacity to manifest the life you want to live, manifest a life where those stupid limits don't apply to you, and manifest a damn life where nothing is unachievable for you. cause that is what you deserve. that is who you are. and that is something you can do.

So now i want you to ask yourself this. Do you want to be realistic, or do you want to be happy? The choice is yours, so make it.

[ashuzu44]

i love talks like this

I was in the astral realm and I had a talk with my great grandma and she pretty much re assured how real shifting is. She told me how much more we are capable of and blames society for dimming that little light that once made us literally invincible.

She took me through different timelines, and I actually got to see myself in different versions from a librarian to even a politician. And she told me that it isn't really hard to attain it because it's within me, its literally me but just scattered in different dimensions and that becoming it can be as easy as snapping your fingers, if you only look within.

She has reincarnated as a white woman ( this made me laugh my ass off tbh) mostly because she had other dreams she wanted to achieve that she couldn't in her lifetime.

She also found it funny that people are shifting to go to books and tv shows instead of shifting to realities where they are like millionaires or something😂 but what I adore about her is how open and lovely she is. Even when she was alive, you could tell her anything and she would always give you an ear to listen.

Reality is within you, look within.. that's where all your answers are

~Granma

[ashuzu44]

your desires are in your imagination BEGGING for your acceptance. it's already there. all you have to do it give it to yourself in imagination. its that easy guys. your success story is created when you give it to yourself in imagination. imagination is reality. accept it. creation is finished.

[ashuzu44]

My routine as someone who shifts almost every week. 

There doesn't have to be any pressure on shifting, you don’t have to do it at a specific moment. My routine takes either a moment, a day, or a week. I do specific things in preparation to shift, it isn’t a method, more so a ritual, something to help me align myself with where I want to be.   

I. Bask in who you want to be, spend mornings doing this practice, do it before a nap, before you go to bed, while you eat, etc. Settle in your mind, take this time to be in your desired selfs mind. Think about slow moments, your morning routine, the view outside your window, basking in the sun, anything of the sort; let yourself live in moments from your dr. I've noticed I shift more when I have practiced this throughout the day. 

II. Tell yourself that you are there, that you are indeed experiencing these things. Affirm how many times you feel, you are where you are. Don’t put any pressure on yourself to believe anything, just affirm. Sweep away intrusive thoughts, let them pass and focus on who and where you are. 

III. Each reality has its own soul, familiarize yourself with how your chosen reality feels. Whenever you want to go there invoke this feeling, remember the slow moments, relax and live in your dr. 

IV. I lie in bed and when I'm getting sleepy I visualize myself where I want to be and I’m there, I focus on what I am doing at that moment in that reality. 

V. After I come back I take a couple days to step away from shifting, I don’t think about going anywhere else. I try to live in this reality and when I feel I want to leave again, I begin at step one. 

[ashuzu44]

WHEN WE SAY YOU CAN MANIFEST ANYTHING, WE MEAN ANYTHINGGGGG!!!

Look. This is a lot coming from me because my brain loves to convince me i'm doing it 'wrong', but the truth is, there's no wrong way to manifest things!!! at all!! let me tell you a little story about what happened today. Picture this. Anxious little me pulling up to the looming doors of my school, hands shaking, suddenly very much regretting the fact that i'd learnt NOTHING for my huge dutch test today and spent all day on tumblr and watching youtube instead (100 points!!! 40% of our exam grade!! I SUCK AT DUTCH!!! AAAHHHH!)

I panic. I feel horrible, everything hurts, I feel like crying, dying and spontaneously combusting into a thousand little specks of shame on the floor. Until I remember. Hey, I know LOA! I can just??? manifest it, right?? Hell yeah I can!

So I manifest it. I still feel like i'm not doing it right, but I try anyways. I tell my friends that i'm not nervous, because I know my test will be good. I know I will ace that test. I know that I'll pass no matter what. Skip to fifth period, quaking in my sambas yet somehow calm at the same time. I get the paper, freak out, fill in random things and hand it in really early to avoid the shame. end of period comes. Teacher lets out a content hum, which is rare because the woman is a constanly angry old lady who was supposed to be retired years ago. heads turn, my world STOPS, i'm convinced I have a 0.

"Dio, you have a 98.5! Well done!"

Holy shit. I did it!!! I manifested it!! that's how easy it is!!

Point of this long wall of text is simple. Trust yourself. Your subconciousness feeds into whatever it's fed. Tell it you'll do well, you'll do well. Tell your friends, repeat it to yourself, but just think it. That's enough. There's no wrong way to do it. If you even believe it just a little, it'll come true. Manifest the fuck out of everything and sit back and feel the results.

Anyways. About to do this tomorrow for maths to because clearly, it works. Spending the rest of my evening on here once more.

Dio out!!

[ashuzu44]

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౨ৎ . . .I believe the key to manifestation is believe you are NOT manifesting, because if you already have it, what are you trying to achieve?? you only have to go on about your day, you do not have to think about the thing you want constantly, you do not have to play it on repeat inside your head until your head hurts. It's yours, but you do not have to tell yourself it's yours every minute. You do not tell yourself you have two working eyes, do you? no. Because it is obvious, it is natural. Turn your desires into something natural, something that you do not have to worry about. Do not treat them like 'desires'. The more you give it heed, the more you push it away.

Manifestation is supposed to be fulfilling, relaxing and giving, not bothering, anxiety inducing, soul sucking and energy consuming.

that's it. Good day/night.

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[ashuzu44]

Small yap about the 3D and 4D + extra.

they aren’t really separate from each other, one is limitless and one is limited but they are both you. in the 3D, you cannot manifest, you cannot create anything in the 3D, you’re limited in the 3D, the 3D is neutral and dead, The 3D is just a mirror. Nothing can change in the 3D unless you change inside. (4D). don’t come at my throat i didn’t say you can’t manifest anything at all i’m just saying you can’t manifest anything in the 3D, you don’t force change, you MAKE the change. i’m repeating myself again but for the 3D you so desperately want to change, you have to change the 4D first. heres what you CAN do in your fun limitless imagination (aka the only reality). You can manifest absolutely anything instantly, you’re limitless, you can do whatever you want with nobody to judge you, you can hear, taste, smell, see and do whatever you want in your imagination. YOU ARE IMAGINATION. you are not your body, you are not your thoughts, you are just a PURELY conscious being. feel free to correct me in my replies, i’m all for gaining more information but this is everything i’ve learned in LOA. this is why bloggers say nothing exists outside of you. you call the shots, you’re the narrator, you’re the beginning and the end. Stop trying to get something in the 3D it just won’t happen. stop stressing about the 3D. stop identifying with the 3D. yes you do deserve your desires and don’t let anyone tell you that you aren’t. you have your desires, THEY ARE YOU. i said it over and over again “you have what you want in imagination just accept it”. if you want change then be the change. stop letting the outer world beat you up. be free in your only and true reality. Which is simply just imagination. identify with the inner man. the one who has it all.

(this was me yapping guys if it doesn’t make sense then i might delete it okkkkkkkayyyyy??) your success story is materialized when you now say “i am ___” or “i have ___” everything is a success story.

[ashuzu44]

what is awareness. oh my god what is awareness. (can i put glitter on it, and most importantly, how do i tune it??)

awareness ≠ your thoughts. awareness ≠ your memories. awareness is not your identity. awareness is location. like literally.... where are you. where is your attention seated. if you're reading this post and thinking about how you looked weird in that group photo from 2019, then congrats. you're not here. your awareness is in a jpeg. you change your body? awareness stays. you forget your name? awareness stays. you close your eyes and imagine a different life so vividly you cry? awareness watched you do it.

when people say "i am awareness" they're not being poetic. they're being literal. you aren't your body. you aren't your thoughts. you aren't your opinions or memories or delusions or trauma-borne personality glitches. you are the thing aware of them. and if that's true, if awareness is what you are, then it also means awareness is portable.

you are not locked in here with yourself. you're holding the keys and pacing in a circle. you could walk out of the room. you just keep saying "but this room is familiar." you think you're being loyal, you're being stubborn.

to change your reality, you don't drag this awareness into another version of life. you relocate it. you frequent a new one. stop asking how. stop trying to turn this into a 12-step plan. you're not downloading the shift update off the app store. you don't do anything. you identify.

 　　　  you say:

this is where i live now. i'm aware from that life. that reality is the one i perceive from, not toward. i am no longer visiting. i am from there.

you hold that. you frequent it. you go back to it. you rinse yourself in it. you don't wait to believe it, you practice it. not to convince yourself, and not to manifest something, but because it's already true.

awareness doesn't have to be proven. it just is. you can't fake being. you can't audition for it. you don't have to scream "i'm shifting!!" you just remember:

i am the awareness behind every life i've ever touched. and i pick this one now.

frequent that. until it's muscle memory. until it's not a shift. it's just.....… where you look from.

[ashuzu44]

authenticity is what makes an it girl. an it girl doesn’t look at other people and try to steal parts of their personality, of their being. an it girl recognizes her uniqueness, taps into it and owns it unapologetically. being your true self will push you farther than doing what everyone else does.

When people see you striving to be your true self, doing your stuff and not caring what anyone else has to say that is what makes them want to follow you. When you trust yourself so much that you can be your true self to the max, that’s when you start to shine. An it girl makes herself the blueprint for everything, she learns to genuinely love and hone all of her quirks. Each of us are unique individuals and our superpower is harnessing that charisma and that character that we were all blessed with.

[ashuzu44]

Question to the anti method. "How would i know I am not in my dr" but we see this reality and not our desired one so it does actually have proof? Or when I use it before sleep and am still aware of my body being way different that it would be in my dr. How to work with that?

when you say "but i can feel my body" or "i can see my room," what you're actually saying is: "my senses are reporting data to me, so that must mean this is the only real one." but your senses aren't proof of anything. they're inputs, not evaluations. your brain interprets what's real, not your fingertips. and your brain is trained on habit, not fact.

like if you close your eyes and imagine biting a cake, your mouth salivates. not because there's a cake, but because your brain filled in the blank and your body reacted as if.

or you picture a scenario where your mom dies and suddenly you're sobbing into your pillow like you just got the phone call. you feel guilt, nausea, grief, spiralling devastation. you made it up. it hasn't happened

or you wake up from a nightmare about being hunted and you're sweating, you need to check the locks, your stomach is tight. but nothing chased you. your brain just said "this is real" and your whole system followed. only shortly thereafter did you realise that you weren't in danger

or you start recounting an argument you had with someone and you rephrase their part a little more meanly, and yours a little more righteously, and now your stomach's flipping, you feel shaky, you want to scream. they didn't say that. your brain just let the fiction run

or you read a post about a cat who died in an accident and you can't stop crying. you don't know it. your life is not impacted. but your body has interpreted it as personal tragedy. heart rate spike. chest ache. nausea. grief rituals. pure simulation.

your brain has a pattern-matcher, it builds context around what it expects, not what's actually there.

so when you say "i feel my bed and not my dr body," all that means is your brain is still running the same thing. but that fiction can be wrong. brains are wrong constantly. we dream entire lives in rem cycles. we have memories that never happened. we hallucinate our names being called in silent rooms. we cry over fictional deaths.

you're not looking for "how do i know this is fake." you're saying "this feels real," and assuming that makes it true. but everything feels real when it's happening. that's the point!!!!!!!!!!!

so . the anti method just says: okay. what if this is my dr, and the only thing i haven't changed is the context file. what if my brain is just slow. what if i'm already here, but i'm waiting for a feeling that isn't coming. because reality isn't a feeling, it's just where you are. and you can be wrong about where you are

[ashuzu44]

please remember that the 3D is a reflection. persist in your thoughts and the 3D will catch up.

DO NOT affirm or persist just to have it in the 3D. your 4D is the true reality here. you should be satisfied by knowing that alone.

quit fucking affirming for one day and then checking the 3D and saying "awww why don't i have it yet?" i will literally SMACK you.

you see something unfavorable? fucking ignore it. thats the old you. the old thoughts. who cares?

you have it in your 4D and that's all that matters.

[ashuzu44]

There is no separation. Assumption = reality.

There is no separation between your assumptions, your beliefs, your manifestations, and your reality. Not metaphorically not conceptually. I mean literally. They are the same thing. You assume something is true, not to make it true, not to force it to happen, but because it already is. You’re not trying to influence reality. You are BEING reality.

There’s no step one: assume step two: wait step three: receive.

That’s separation.

That’s delay.

That’s a lie we were taught to believe.

Think of a mirror

When you lift your hand, does the reflection wait? Does it pause for a moment and think about whether or not it should reflect you?

NO

It just reflects instantly. Because the mirror isn’t separate from you it is you in reflected form.

Your reality is the exact same way. The moment you assume something reality mirrors it.

You are the origin. You are the cause. The assumption is the effect. But they happen in ONE act.

And this is the thing most people are still waiting still checking the mirror. They assume something and then they wait for the proof. But babe, that’s not an assumption. That’s doubt in disguise.

You don't smile hoping the mirror smiles back you smile because you KNOW it will reflect that smile you trust it without needing to double check you don’t call yourself delusional for smiling before the mirror moves. you just do. Because you know the mirror moves with you.

That’s what it means to live in the state of the wish fulfilled. You become the version of yourself who already has it not to get it but because you do have it. Not in some faraway future. Not if the universe allows.

Right now. Because you decided and reality obeys that decision without hesitation.

Assumption is manifestation. They’re not separate. They never were. You are not faking it you are not pretending you are not lying to yourself.

You are BEING and the world has no choice but to mirror that being. Stop waiting stop watching the mirror.

Smile now. Assume now.

BE now.

Because the truth is: you already have it. You already are it and the mirror has already reflected it.

This clicked for me after reading girlblogga’s post on X. It was the reminder I didn’t know I needed.

- etherepaar

[ashuzu44]

"so. i will 100% be in hogwarts? FR FR ??? FR??"

fr.

frfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfr

no spiritual taxes. no fine print. no "if you just try hard enough…" trapdoor.

yes. you will.

you will be in hogwarts.

you will open your eyes and the ceiling will be stone and ancient and echoing. the air will smell like old wood and ink and fire. you'll sit up and your sheets will be green. or red. or blue. or yellow. or yours.

because you've already decided. you've done the hardest part. becoming the person who knows it's possible.

you've been scripting for years, yes, but more than that?????? you've been surviving in a world that tried to convince you magic doesn't exist. and you still believe. you still want. you still try !!!!!!!

that's strength, not delusion, you don't have to earn it anymore.

and no, this isn't fake comfort. i'm not feeding you hopium. i'm telling you straight: you will be in the reality you want.

fr. frfrfr.

i promise

"fr fr fr f r f rf ?????"

FR. FUCKING. R !!!!!!!!!

like. real life real. wake up to an owl at the window and your scripted pyjamas and your name on the trunk real. you touch the stone wall and it's cold and textured and ancient and there. you're not pretending. you're not visualising. you're not dreaming. you're in.

this is not a joke. not a metaphor. not a motivational bedtime story.

you are going. you've already done more than enough. your brain isn't broken. your desire isn't too big. your time hasn't expired. you are not left behind.

this is not a lie. you are not doomed. it is not too late !!!!!!!!!!!

so yeah. FR. FR-FR. FOREVER REAL.

[ashuzu44]

BABEE GUESS WHATT!! GUESS WHO'S BEEN MANIFESTING HER DREAM LIFE IN LESS THAN A MONTH!! 🤭🤭

So like 2-3 weeks ago I was in a rut. Just to give some info, my parents work in another city but always visit home frequently though I have to live with my toxic grandmother with my cousin's toxic parents and I have a feeling I've been manifesting them being more and more negative to me because I've been witnessing how powerful I was with manifestation and stuff but never held the steering wheel on it. Hate them, but anyways.

3 weeks ago, dad had to go back to the city for work while my mother was working from home. My grandmother is (or was) REALLY REALLY clingy or something so she didn't allow my mother to go back to the city and bring me with her because she didn't want us to leave, AS IF she didn't rot both of our self-esteems with her generational trauma. But I was like "okay, no, no no no. We are going to the city. We will have the best redemption summer. The best glowup.. Who said we weren't?" And not even 4 days later, me and my mother both left and now I get to live my summer 🎉🎉🎉

A few days later, I wanted to get into meditation and use that to create my dream self and my dream life. I ASSUMED THAT I HAD LOW ATTENTION SPAN, until I was like "wait what? What do you meannn, meditating is so easy, like it's actually so dumb to think it isn't because it's just.. What?? Don't I meditate all the time??" (And honestly it's not even an assumption, all of us meditate when we are zoning out, daydreaming, or even when we are trying to go to sleep.) Sooo I've been rampaging, using SATs, and using the law of assumption while meditating. This has reduced my phone addiction so I've been making time for lots of things. I've applied to a baking class, and a pilates class. And I've been changing my physical appearance.. No, I'm not talking dresses or something. I'm talking about: hair growth. An hourglass figure. My nose has been getting smaller. Ofc, I've been manifesting while meditating and even to my sleep, this is very very possible.

I HEALED MY SCOLIOSIS!! "Scoliosis can't be cured" say that to my face. Yes you can.

Long story short, I can meditate for 2 hours, have been reaching out to others with meditation, and then eventually other things like personal hobbies, have been educating myself with things I want to learn and have also been earning a little bit of money on pinterest, and since I've been reaching out to people with my same interests,I've been socializing all the time and.. Yk what? I'm going to a rich party next week. A YACHT PARTY. ✨✨

A YACHT PARTY.

I SAW THE GUEST LIST AND.. I see a cute and handsome guy. That has rich parents. Updating when he's my boyfriend.

YESS YES YESSSSSSSS OMG BABE WTF I LOVE THIS. all these successes are so freakin amazing girl yes whattttt. all it takes is trust yourself and everything else falls in place. I love this so much for you and I'm looking forward to more stories you have to tell!!! congrats babe.

[ashuzu44]

Law of assumption: subconcious mind

Hi sweetheart, hope you're doing well.

This post is about your Subconscious mind which helps you to manifest your desire.

How it is working?

Your subconscious mind can't tell difference between imagination (4d) and reality (3d) so it gives you the experience of the reality(3d) which you said it as true by telling yourself you already have it/experienced it.

Wanna know why you get doubts?Here you go

If you are giving a new input to your subconscious mind it will be frightened and give you the old input as doubts with the help of your brain which is very logical. It is not being your enemy. It is being your best friend. If it not doing that you gonna end up manifesting your intrusive thoughts too.

How to make profit??

Get rid of your old input you just give your new input repeatedly. then your brain stops the old input as doubts.

What is a new input??

An assumption. An assumption which can be in any format like affrimation, visualization and all methods you like. But whole point of the input is to knowing that you're already having your desire right NOW.

Hope this post helps you

-𝓙𝓲𝓶𝓲𝓷𝓲𝓮𝓹𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓿

[ashuzu44]

hi. um. guys?????? i shifted???????????

its embarrassing. because i was literally in the toilet. and i thought to myself, ‘wouldn’t it be funny if i shifted right now?’. and i shifted. to my gamer//streamer//better reality. what the fuck .

(i know i made a post about how if i shifted i would never come back but…….. i have to share this. its the only reason why i shifted back here. next time i shift though? you guys are NOT hearing about it)

quick rundown : i was studying for my chemistry exam that will happen next week in this reality. i needed to use the bathroom. so i went. i started thinking about shifting because i was bored out of my mind. i said ‘fuck it let me try’, closed my eyes, and BOOM. i’m in a different bathroom. the bathroom i had scripted would be my bathroom in my small apartment. in my dr.

i freaked out a little bit because i am NOT nonchalant. i looked at myself in the mirror and I WAS SO BEAUTIFULLLLLLLLLLLLL i mean its my cr face but just improved to my liking BUT I WAS SO BEAUTIFULLL. and i said that aloud too, which freaked me out because my voice is a little different too (it was a bit smoother and soothing idk its my voice feels weird to describe it). my hair was tied up in a bun and i didn’t feel like letting it down, but my fringe was cut so nicely. it fit my face. and it wasn’t poking me in the eyes. i had some strands of hair that were also shorter that had fell out of the bun but it looked very pinterest-esque. very picture worthy. i looked picture worthy. the whole time i was like a movie character sat down at their vanity inspecting their face obsessively. if the mirror had a consciousness it would think i am deranged or something idk . moving onnnnnnn

my bathroom was so nicely decorated i was proud of myselffff. the colours????? the teal the magenta-ish purple the orange????? i had my chanel makeup products all over the sink counter too. it was so chic . guys i am so fucking cool . i feel great about myself now.

and you have to know. the apartment i scripted i owned has a wonderful view. its gorgeous. the galata tower AND the bosphorus?????? and it was a bright, cloudless day. a bit windy. the leaves on the trees were swaying and the sun was so bright it was making the bosphorus water twinkle . i opened the windows (which i didn’t even think about how) to let the breeze in. the air!!!! was clean!!!!!! no smell of petrol!!!!! air pollution is gone!!!!!! my lungs felt great sfkjhsekf IT WAS AMAZING

i didn’t spend much time there (in my dr) because i was a bit shell-shocked///flabbergasted///confuddled and like. i can shift back anytime and anywhere. i know that now, given the fact that i literally shifted… when i was in the toilet…. whilst doing my business.

but in the little time i spent there, i went into my bedroom (AGAIN, FLAWLESSLY DECORATED . I LOVE MYSELF) and just looked at everything. i had all of my perfumes on a silver platter on my bedside table. i had byredo’s mohave ghost. j’adore dior. nishane’s hundred silent ways. issey miyake’s l'eau d'issey (the blue one. i LOVE that one). orabella salted muse. twilly d’hermes. tom ford’s soleil neige. i had a sephora perfume section next to my bed at this point. i would’ve sprayed them all but i didn’t want to cause a sneezing hazard. i did spray soleil neige because i wanted to know if it would smell good on me. and it did, of course.

i had paintings hung up on the wall where my bed was situated. and the paintings were the art on my pinterest board. they were framed in fancy gold looking frames (they were painted gold. not actual gold). i had tears in my eyes,,,,,,, my bedroom was so gorgeous. it was great.

my bed?????????? silk bedsheets in light pink. i laid down on it for a minute. it was so so so soft. and so inviting i almost wanted to fall asleep but i resisted. i had a persian rug with purple-magenta, teal & dark blue and beige details it was so beautiful . it made my bare feet feel warm and the texture was smooth enough to not annoy me (i am sensitive about those things, i fear).

i had scripted that my closer is far bigger than it looks (barbie: dreamhouse style) and it was. i didn’t question the how. but it was a huge, gorgeous room, full of beautiful clothing. the lighting was not too dim but not too bright and so it didn’t hurt my eyes. and the CLOTHES AAAAAAAAA. zimmerman floral dresses. blumarine . archival miu miu. but also: rick owens. maison margiela (THE TABI COLLECTION I HAD. AAAAA). i had ann demeulemeester boots!!!! i had an archival dior dress (the black and lavender knit dress from fw1998). i had more than one archival dior dress. i had alexander mcqueen leather jackets. ugh it was so sexy . i felt the material, brushed my fingertips on all of those. i felt delirious. it seemed too good to be true, BUT IT WAS TRUE. it was REAL. moving on the closet was museum material . i was having the time of my life.

and then . i laid my eyes on the beautiful pc setup i had. and i couldn’t help it. i sat down and played some sims 4. i could use shaders!!!!!!! it was running smoothly!!!!!!! no glitches!!!!!!!!!!

basically: i spent an hour looking around my apartment and the rest was spent in create-a-sim on my computer. because i could literally shift realities and still be a sims girlie. it is embedded into my DNA.

i had the time of my life guys. i didn’t even look at my phone once. it was on my bed. but i didn’t want to look because i was too preoccupied crashing out about my pulitzer prize worthy closet and the view from my windows . but my computer had the date and it was may 6th 2022. which was the year i wanted to shift to. MY COMPUTER WAS ALSO SO AESTHETIC (i had apple’s dynamic wallpaper…. and some folders that i had edited to look like cat memes. i’m exaggerating . just a little bit) AAAAaaaaaaAAaaaaaa everything was so good i’m gonna cry. i felt so much relief!!!! so much happiness!!!! i didn’t know i could feel this way!!!!!!!!

anyway i finished making my sim and just sat there because i got a little bored. and then i thought that maybe sharing this joy with all of you would be nice of me to do. and i sort of wanted to. even though i am going to permashift and made a post saying that i wouldn’t be back. nevertheless, i decided to shift back here to make this post.

so, hey. the moral of the story is::::: SHIFTING IS REAL. ITS SO REAL. NEVER GIVE UP YOU CAN HAVE WHATEVER YOU WANTTTTTTTTTTT

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(ps. if there are any typos or any sentences that make no sense, it is because i am shaking out of excitement and joy whilst i type this)