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I started reading the book a while back and I’m about halfway through now so I thought I’d share some doodles I made! Love book!thorin what a diva that guy, I have more doodles to share but I initially did them in my sketchbook so once I’m done digitizing them I will post them here. Also fili and kili are both blonde?? That was interesting to find out so here is my like film x book mashup designs ig (except bilbo he’s perfect the way he is)

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let's chew on mama

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back with my evil thoughts on theo's horrors, this time presenting to you . . . hospital imagery

imagine you're a sick child – asthma, heart issues, you name it, theo has it. you exist in the hospital. since the moment he developed a conscious menory, all theo can remember is the smell of medicine, the blinding artificialness of white lights, the neverneding corridors that all look the same, but baby theo knows them all by heart like a labyrinth he designed. and maybe he did. the place was made for him and who else could do it if not himself.

even before he could remember, theo's life was in the hospital. he lived on those now-up-now-down beds, dressed in those flimsy hospital clothes that always itched and made him feel dirty. he didn't go home or to school. he vacationed there. the hospital was his house. was where he did his homeworks and sometimes - more often than not - where he attended classes, 'cause he was too sick and unstable (phisically speaking for now) to be allowed out.

the operating table was his slide, the scalpels – his toys, the masked faces hovering over him – his friends. the caffeteria was his park, he got to meet other sick kids there.

but then he's on an operating table again, masked faces click-click-clacking over his body. he gets a new heart, new powers. he is something new. but nothing much changes. everything changes.

the same medicine smell, the same artificial light, the same scalpels and their cold bite.

different smells, dangerous smells, putrid and acrid smells. yellow and green lights, dim lights, blinding only when the doctors wanted them to be. scalpels cutting, operations ongoing, sometimes without a break. no anesthesia, not even local. always conscious.

sometimes they'd talk to him, the doctors. teach him anatomy, chemistry, phisics, basic biology, supernatural biology, myths and legends that proved to be true.

sometimes they'd talk to him in a language theo couldn't understand, but quickly learned. than another one. and yet another more. french, latin, german. he knew them all. and he learned them from the operating theatre, just like he learned that the earth is round and what the correct form of the verb "to be" was from his hospital bed.

he didn't have a bed anymore, but it's alright. the scenery was familiar enough. it was still home. just rotten now, like his soul.

then he's sent to his own personal hell. in the hospital he so well knows. the smells are how he remembers them, the corridors lead to the where they're supposed to, the lights are a bit off, maybe a malfunction, but everything else is -

- nope. that's new. the sister crawling towards him. the sister clawing through him. over and over again. sometimes theo'd take a walk and wait for tara to catch him, she always does. sometimes he'd have an aim. a place he misses he wants to see again. the caffeteria where he played with the sick kids. sick like him. not sick like him. sometimes he'd try to run, but in those times, he becomes painfully aware he didn't design this labyrinth. tara did.

he lived in the hospital. changed in the hospital and died in the hospital. operation after operation until he became numb to it. patient. experiment. inmate. home, cage, prison. and yet, that artificial light blinding him is all he's ever knows in his artificial life.

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teen wolf soulmate au where you feel your soulmates pain....

liam feeling theo's pain in hell and realizing it all stops when he pulls him out of the ground.......

theo doesn't heal as well or as quickly as liam, feeling the other's injuries long after the fights, liam feeling the discomfort in his soft, warm bed at night while theo tries to get comfortable in his cold, hard truck as his wounds slowly heal

liam wondering why his shoulder hurts so bad while somewhere across town theo pulls a bullet out of his own shoulder after an encounter with some stray hunters

liam wondering when all his anger became all this grief and guilt, trying to figure out why he is startled awake with it every night

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Let’s be whimsical in the flowers with mama

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The cage is open. You can walk out anytime you want. Why are you still in there?

-Heather Havrilesky, Caged Dogs

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tagged by @genetic-hellhound @thiamsxbitch @awinnn23

a - anthems for a seventeen year old girl | yeule

s - stick season | noah kahan

h - hard times | paramore

y - yellow | coldplay

and because i don't know when to stop

i - iris | the googoo dolls

c - camouflage | the front bottoms

a - a psychic wound | los campesinos!

r - romance is boring | los campesinos!

u - under pressure | queen & david bowie

s - sign of the times | ?? harry styles apparently

honorary mention to icarus by bastille (lol), inside out by eve 6, sleeping giants by the crane wives, and sin by nine inch nails. very hard picks but i had to go with ones that meant a little more to me emotionally

@thiamsalpha @fruchtfliege @so-long-soldier28 @okay-but-could-we-not @honestlydarkprincess @haven-of-dusk @johnsotherbastard meow

MOOT / TAG GAME !

mission— spell your real name / name you use on tumblr with songs you like >< ready, set, go !

m — my love, mine all mine (mitski)

i — i love you, i’m sorry (gracie abrams)

c — coraline (lyn lapid)

k — killshot (magdalena bay)

i — i know you (faye webster)

e — either way (ive)

tagging— @puma-riki @flwrstqr @liwinly @woniefication @lilificationn @stvrriki @okwonyo + anyone else who wants to join !

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Leo: people always say “expect the unexpected,” but the expected is expected so it’s unexpected so then you expect the unexpected and it becomes expected and so you can never expect the unexpected

Jason:

Jason: im in love w u probably

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Character who doesn't get to die & character who doesn't get to live. Is that anything.

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Liam Dunbar coolest character fr

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They’re overtaking my mind

Right bottom corner heavily inspired by Syllumii_0 on TikTok

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you guys don’t even understand what GoodTimesWithScar means to me. Funniest character to ever exist. He’s the server’s sexy pool boy and marriage counselor and he’s bad at all of his jobs and you can never tell if it’s through intentional sabotage or genuine incompetence and then you see him build the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen and log out. He’s not a himbo because he’s a genius and master manipulator but he decided a long time ago that he cares more about having abs and giant tits than proving to anyone that he’s smart. He can cry on command and make you think he’s the most helpless creature on the planet and then turn around and fire an arrow from 200 blocks away and get a headshot and kill you. And then he turns around trips over his own feet and drowns in four inches of water. I’m literally obsessed with him

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if you're writing and find yourself thinking 'this is too weird/gross/offputting/esoteric/ambitious/catered to my specific interests + sure to push away a broader audience' that is the devil speaking and it is a lie. you are already firmly on the right path and you need to double down

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