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[askbdubs]

[Bdubs smiles, then checks the time]

Well, it's 'bout time for me to head over to Ren's. I'll talk to him about visiting you. And don't be afraid to reach out if you ever need any other company!

Been good talking with you, Bomb!

>> A ping from Bdubs<<

BdoubleO100: Hey Bomb! It's been a while! Are you free to catch up sometime?

@askbdubs

*Bomb stares at the message for a second, something feels odd but he cant remember why....oh well, kinda funny his freind wants to catch up now of all times*

<BOMB> yeah sure! I am sorta in a situation though and cannot get out of bed do to it, so you will have to come over to talk

<BOMB> by situation I mean my legs were shattered, I almost died, and now i have to re-learn how to walk 😔 (this is funny pls laugh)

[askbdubs]

Jeez, sounds like a lot, Ren's been asking if I want kids, I don't think ol' Bdubs has the guts to be a dad, though

...Three wars, goodness..... How are you still alive, man!?

>> A ping from Bdubs<<

BdoubleO100: Hey Bomb! It's been a while! Are you free to catch up sometime?

@askbdubs

*Bomb stares at the message for a second, something feels odd but he cant remember why....oh well, kinda funny his freind wants to catch up now of all times*

<BOMB> yeah sure! I am sorta in a situation though and cannot get out of bed do to it, so you will have to come over to talk

<BOMB> by situation I mean my legs were shattered, I almost died, and now i have to re-learn how to walk 😔 (this is funny pls laugh)

[askbdubs]

I'll let him know when I go over tonight!

A blaze hybrid, huh, keep some fire res. potions handy!

[He laughs, then sits down beside Bomb's bed]

So, besides your legs and this guy, what else has been going on with you?

>> A ping from Bdubs<<

BdoubleO100: Hey Bomb! It's been a while! Are you free to catch up sometime?

@askbdubs

*Bomb stares at the message for a second, something feels odd but he cant remember why....oh well, kinda funny his freind wants to catch up now of all times*

<BOMB> yeah sure! I am sorta in a situation though and cannot get out of bed do to it, so you will have to come over to talk

<BOMB> by situation I mean my legs were shattered, I almost died, and now i have to re-learn how to walk 😔 (this is funny pls laugh)

[askbdubs]

[Bdubs laughs]

Ren isn't like that, he's... I can't say he's over Doc, I can tell he isn't. But he's really nice, he doesn't hate you, and he sure as Hell wouldn't ever call you names!

But I’m glad you and Doc are doing well.

[His eyes light up as looks to the child]

And who's this little guy?

>> A ping from Bdubs<<

BdoubleO100: Hey Bomb! It's been a while! Are you free to catch up sometime?

@askbdubs

*Bomb stares at the message for a second, something feels odd but he cant remember why....oh well, kinda funny his freind wants to catch up now of all times*

<BOMB> yeah sure! I am sorta in a situation though and cannot get out of bed do to it, so you will have to come over to talk

<BOMB> by situation I mean my legs were shattered, I almost died, and now i have to re-learn how to walk 😔 (this is funny pls laugh)

[askbdubs]

I’m sure it wouldn’t be a bother for him, but in you insist! I’m sure Doc is doing everything he can!

I’m doing great, actually, making progress on all the builds, me an’ Ren are…going strong.

Besides from… all of this, how are you doing?

>> A ping from Bdubs<<

BdoubleO100: Hey Bomb! It's been a while! Are you free to catch up sometime?

@askbdubs

*Bomb stares at the message for a second, something feels odd but he cant remember why....oh well, kinda funny his freind wants to catch up now of all times*

<BOMB> yeah sure! I am sorta in a situation though and cannot get out of bed do to it, so you will have to come over to talk

<BOMB> by situation I mean my legs were shattered, I almost died, and now i have to re-learn how to walk 😔 (this is funny pls laugh)

[askbdubs]

BdoubleO100: I’ll be right over!!

[It takes a couple hours, but Bdubs does eventually walk into Bomb’s room, smiling]

Judas Priest! You weren’t kidding about your legs, huh? Ren knows some healing magic and stuff from his home server, maybe I could bring him by?

>> A ping from Bdubs<<

BdoubleO100: Hey Bomb! It's been a while! Are you free to catch up sometime?

@askbdubs

*Bomb stares at the message for a second, something feels odd but he cant remember why....oh well, kinda funny his freind wants to catch up now of all times*

<BOMB> yeah sure! I am sorta in a situation though and cannot get out of bed do to it, so you will have to come over to talk

<BOMB> by situation I mean my legs were shattered, I almost died, and now i have to re-learn how to walk 😔 (this is funny pls laugh)

[askbdubs]

Let Light Be Light

There's a newness, an unfamiliarity, even though they have dated before, Ren still feels new.

To Bdubs, at least.

Before, Ren would shower Bdubs in thousands of whispers of praise, sweet nothings and tangled limbs in the darkness of the night. It was sort of exciting.

And this time, they're taking it slow. Before, everything was kind of quick, and it was all over before it really started.

That's the reason they're starting over; a fresh start. At least Bdubs thinks so, anyway, everything with Ren is a mystery, being able to find clues is difficult, but hey, it's the same kind of rodeo trying to work his way into Etho's brain! Bdubs is used to searching the dark room of someone's mind, trying to find a key to unlock a guarded vault of vulnerability.

“Let's do something, we always stay in, hell, I was talkin’ to Cleo and she asked if we were actually together again or if I was doing a prank.” Bdubs wraps his arms around Ren's neck, embracing the sitting hybrid from behind, kissing the base of Ren's ear, right where the nerves are.

His ears flick, then Ren laughs, probably to cover up the small whine drawn out by the kisses.

“What do you suggest we do, Bdouble?” Ren cranes his head up, face covered up by hair that Bdubs cards his fingers through until it's all pinned between the top of Ren's head and Bdubs' sternum.

“A nice walk through the forest? Not a random one, my forest.” He grins, closing his eyes and feeling the stubble growing on Ren's jawline, pressing his fingers at the bone under the skin, memorizing his face by touch.

Ren is a piece of art. A statue, sculpted by divine hands, life kissed into him, trees bend their branches down beholding Ren’s beauty.

Bdubs wishes Ren could see more than whatever repulsive monster his mind has tricked him into seeing.

The forest is incredibly nice— of course it is! It's Bdubs’ forest, after all! They're holding hands in daylight, and yeah no one is around, but when Bdubs trips, Ren catches him, twirls him around, laughs, and tells him to be careful, smiling with his dopey smile.

Pressing soft kisses in the sunlight that reaches through the leaves, Bdubs lets himself relinquish all the doubts he was unaware he had.

For a moment, it's all laughter, sun shining on Bdubs' cheeks, making his eyes turn a golden honey color. 

Light from the heavens bleeding through the trees, dotting their path.

Ren doesn't feel particularly proud of himself, he's told Bdubs these words, he isn't fond of who he has grown to be, but, he said, with Bdubs, it almost feels like he's alone with the best parts of himself. And when he is walking along in the woods, well, there isn't a world outside of them, and everything in this bubble is okay. And well, with such flowery words reserved for those Ren holds dearest, Bdubs grins, kisses him again, and believes.

They've strayed from the path Bdubs set up, settled in the openness of a meadow just outside the trees, with the rest of the fields in view. Laying on the grass, knowing the back of his neck will break out in hives later, and yet not caring.

Ren had flown back to his base, and then flew back with his nice guitar. It's a little dirty, but that's okay! Bdubs wipes it down when Ren lands.

Ren is almost done tuning when the highest string snaps, snagging his arm, just enough for it to draw the littlest amount of red blood. It's okay, Ren's dealt with this before.

Bdubs himself has had a string break while he was mid-strum. Better now than in the middle of a song, he decides.

Bdubs smiles, laying his cheek on his folded arms, looking up at the dog, “You didn't make that out to be some bad omen from God,” he points out.

“God sends me different signs,” Ren hums, removing the snapped wire, luckily, Bdubs has extras stashed away in his enderchest! “He's not gonna send me small signs, he'll send me bigger stuff.”

Bdubs makes a noise, almost close to a grumble, but just polite enough to be considered his acknowledging Ren's words. “Men are great, don't you think?”

“What?”

“Oh! Not like that—You…” There's a silence, Ren stopped giggling at Bdubs' poor word choices, and is awaiting the man to know to think through what he's trying to say, “I just mean, people like us, thousand of years ago, got lonely and created gods…” he's testing the waters, here.

“God was lonely and thus created man,” Ren hums in turn, strumming the strings softly. Just playing for right now, the cogs in his mind turn loudly, “It's said, uhm, by God, that there will always be a person— a person who looks like a poem the earth wrote to keep you alive.”

“God said that?”

“Yeah, see, he isn't so bad.”

Bdubs juggles that in his own brain, then simply sits up and kisses Ren. Hand on his cheek, softly running his thumb over the course beard that is firmly planted on his boyfriend's face.

Those blue eyes are so closed off. Bdubs gazes into them when they break apart, resting their foreheads together. Aren't eyes the window to the stupid soul?

“Play me music,” he whispers, smiling, the demand has no weight, but Ren wants to play, smd Bdubs will do anything to hear the sweet music.

And, well, to be honest? Bdubs loves Ren's singing, “I was in love, I could be anything I want.” Bdubs isn't actually sure he knows this song, “It was enough. I forgot everything I was taught, I was a fool. And I was a fool, but I was in love.”

Ren sways back and forth, smiling as he focuses on his fingers, strumming the notes, moving his other hand from fret to fret. This is maybe the most at peace Bdubs has seen Ren in a long time. Just by proxy, it makes Bdubs himself smile.

“I was in love—” when they make eye contact, Ren bursts out in laughs, he still plays, struggling to keep his composure, until he just fades out, “I can't when you're lookin’ at me like that, BdoubleO!”

“Like what!”

“Like that!”

Bdubs rolls his eyes, laughing, as he sits back up “I think someone just doesn't know the words,” he shrugs, egging Ren on.

“I know them!” But Ren sets his guitar aside anyway, “I'm just rusty.”

“Rusty, that's it,”

“Yeah!”

The sun sets on the picnic, and Bdubs can't help how his hands trace up and down Ren's arm, feeling the muscles.

The hot sun has since spared them from unbearable heat, and instead a cooling breeze blows against their flushed cheeks.

Bdubs rolls over onto his stomach, propping himself up on his forearms as he looks down at Ren.

“What're you thinking?” Bdubs runs his fingers through Ren's hair, moving the layers up and away. The Dog hybrid has since cut his hair again, although this time to add volume, not because it's unbearable but because it makes him feel more like someone that never really existed. He cut it for himself, Bdubs loves it.

“Hmmm?”

“I can hear you think, what're you thinking about?”

Ren hums, low and gravely, thinking over whatever he wants to say before it leaves his mouth, something rare, for the both of them “You, I guess.”

Bdubs laughs, “You guess?”

“I'm thinking about the future! Like—Do you want kids?”

“Kids? Do I want..?” Hes dumbfounded for a moment, last time they ever spoke about having kids was last season, and Ren was firm about never having kids. “I guess I'd want to be married before I had kids, just knowing that security was there.” There's a moment of silence, a beat of nothing, “What changed? To make you want kids?”

“Doc.” Ren looks back at the sky, the first stars are making their appearances. Bdubs nods. He knows it's kind of unreasonable to ask that Ren be 100% done and over Doc, but, to be honest: hearing your boyfriend say his ex-husband made him realize how much he wants to be a father? Jeez.

“‘course…”

“No, I mean. I went to Mara’s, met my niece and nephews, the youngest, Micah, I was gold at taking care of him! And then I came back and babysat one of Doc’s kids, and I don't know, Bdouble,” he sighs, closing his eyes and taking off his sunglasses, “Made me realize that suppressing my feelings didn't make me feel good, I was so against being a dad and it kinda stressed me out.”

“But, now you want it?”

In all of Bdubs' thousands of years of living, he still fails to really understand emotions like that. How sadness isn't like an emptiness, not an empty church and its lack of worshippers nor an empty house and its tables and chairs with no one to sit in them. Sadness is in you, Bdubs didn't understand that at first, and he struggles to keep that knowledge at the forefront of his mind: it is the whole empty world, and it's on you and it should be in Bdubs—considering Bdubs needs to keep up appearances as a player, as someone normal, instead of the being he instead is.

Bdubs watched life, all of his own existence, he watched players live from afar, and he knew that he wanted to be out there in the field, and here he was.

He watched life, watched love and pain, and wanted to be a part of it. But being in Ren's life? Keeping the small sand grains from falling between his fingers? It's difficult.

“I think we should wait, for kids.”

Ren nods along, shutting his eyes again, like it's painful to hear. It might be.

“I'm not saying I don't want kids in the future, but you're going through a lot, and we haven't been together that long, let's just wait, a little bit.

“It's for the best.” Ren says, turning around.

“Yeah,” Bdubs' hand settles on his lover's back, chin hooking over his shoulder, “I'm not sayin’ no, Ren, I'm just saying we sleep on it a little more.” he places a kiss on Ren's neck, smiling into his hair.

Ren leans back into Bdubs' embrace, “I know,” he smiles, “One more song?”

“But then it's Bdubs' shreepy time,” Bdubs laughs, leaning back as they detach and Ren is grabbing his guitar again.

The song and the cooling air is nice, the golden sunlight still provides a good amount of warmth. It's a shame their night has to come to an end, but when Bdubs yawns, it seems Ren is willing to pack up and help Bdubs to his small cabin where they bid each other goodnight.

Bdubs smiles, bringing Ren down for a tender kiss, it's a sweet moment, soft movements. Not quite a makeout, but it's more than just a kiss.

Ren separates them, “Goodnight, Bdubs,” he whispers, and then disappears into the night Bdubs watches as the fireflies lit up the path he takes before fireworks sound out and he's gone, leaving Bdubs standing in the doorway.

[askbdubs]

What inanimate object do you wish was alive?

The freaking redstone, I’m a redstone master a’ course, but it would be so much easier if it was all done for me! So i can focus on the ‘pretty’ part of pretty-stone

[askbdubs]

What's the best stuff to add in a sandwich?

Mayo, I love that stuff!

[askbdubs]

send bdubs funny shit too

chat…. Im tryna get this fic out….. but like I have the WORST writers block….. send funny stuff in ye olden ask box to cure me…

[askbdubs]

Would Ren play in a hose?

Pfft! Yeah! He freaking has!

[askbdubs]

*The cat instantly stops. It doesn’t move closer, it doesn’t move away. It definitely feels that dark aura, and yet… it’s still choosing to communicate. With a flick of its tail, it lets out a curious meow, resuming its movements towards Bdubs.*

-🐅

Someone get their freaking cat out of my house!!! Bdubs isnt no cat-sitter...

[askbdubs]

which one of you is pregnant now???

[askbdubs]

i said okay!!!!!!!!

[askbdubs]

okay!!!!!!!!!!!

[askbdubs]

*The cat starts to slowly approach, its steps cautious and calculated. It can’t decide if Bdubs is a threat or not.*

-🐅

[Bdubs’ unblinking eyes take on a slight purple hue, he gives off a dark aura]

[askbdubs]

*The cat stares at Bdubs ominously, like it’s staring into his soul.*

-🐅

[Bdubs stares back]