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oh chat you guys are not ready for the BANGER au that struck me at 3 am last night

I finally figured out how to make an Epic the Musical au for Sonic work… There is a BIG storm coming and it ain’t just from Poseidon, yall

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“I realized it was the last time I would ever see her. I was determined to prove myself wrong.”

(saving that little nugget for a later date)

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obsessed with platonic intimacy with Sonic and Amy

YES they have sleepovers, YES Amy plays with Sonic’s hands, YES they cuddle, YES to ALL of it.

In my eyes, Sonic can have like- really touch-averse days, so sometimes that’s not something he can handle. I think at the start, Amy did not understand that, unfortunately, and Sonic didn’t really understand how to set boundaries in a healthy way. (Given that most of his contact with other people was Eggman, the homicidal megalomaniac, or Tails, the little kid he had to take care of)

It caused friction at first, definitely, and there’s about a million ways to interpret their relationship (all of them valid)

I just like to think of Sonic and Amy as the two best friends who go to prom together platonically (and make jokes about their shared, kind of rocky, romantic history with each other)

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steven universe au-

rahhhhh i just want to create something

Worst pain is having multiple ideas you really like but not concrete way to string them together yet 😔

something something werehog lab au, something something The Last Unicorn

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Worst pain is having multiple ideas you really like but not concrete way to string them together yet 😔

something something werehog lab au, something something The Last Unicorn

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Literally so funny that most of my posts are about Amy or Metal. I relate to Sonic yall, I should be dissecting him-

(But to be honest, I think relating to him makes him a little less interesting to dissect? If that makes sense. I already know everything about him, I’m like him. So I like to dive into the psyche of other characters :])

(Though if y’all like Sonic thoughts, I can HAPPILY provide rambles/analysis)

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No because I’m actually insane about this

My girl has been through SO much since she was first introduced. She’s such a different person and so very shaped by the trauma she’s been through. And yet she still has that SAME dream. She still wants so desperately to be a hero and to help people :[

She’s so Shuffle by Penelope Scott to me :[

You're not who you used to be

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Jet the Hawk is the kind of guy to say “Alone on a Friday night? God you’re pathetic.” and then trip over his own shoelaces and eat cement.

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oughhhhh my love, my darling, my gal…

(pic not mine but…. one day……)

I’m a big fan of motorcycles, aside from being a Sonic fan lmao, and I was driving

I saw a red one and a blue one driving next to each other and I was like “:0 that’s so cool. That’s literally SO cool.”

My LOVELY SWEETHEART PARTNER (affectionately annoyed) goes “You just like them because they’re Sonadow colors” (WHICH IS UNTRUE /LH)

I am NEVER escaping them 😔

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I’m a big fan of motorcycles, aside from being a Sonic fan lmao, and I was driving

I saw a red one and a blue one driving next to each other and I was like “:0 that’s so cool. That’s literally SO cool.”

My LOVELY SWEETHEART PARTNER (affectionately annoyed) goes “You just like them because they’re Sonadow colors” (WHICH IS UNTRUE /LH)

I am NEVER escaping them 😔

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College is great because the MOST humbling experience is quickly switching from my fanfic writing google doc to some random project I’m working on.

No no, I’m not writing about Knuckles the Echidna having the straight equivalent of gay panic over Rouge the Bat!! I’m uh. Working on my references for a paper. Those. Yep.

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thinking about transfem metal sonic again bc she’s like. the most transfem character in fiction whos not in any way actually transfem or coded transfem like it’s entirely unintentional and that’s what makes it so interesting to me. bc like her entire Thing is identity issues she was built to emulate, surpass, and be a superior version of sonic which like. we can talk about eggman hating sonic so much he literally made a better version of him as his own child another time but besides that metal's entire life has been being forced to fill the expectations placed on her to Be someone she can never be. and this is something that causes her a great deal of anguish! she literally has a mental breakdown over it it’s something that’s clearly traumatic and distressing to her bc she can’t do it! defeating and proving herself superior to sonic is something inexorably linked to her, and both cause her nothing but misery and are both very literally dehumanising towards her. she clings to them, bc she has nothing else and it’s the only path that she’s been allowed to even consider, but they don’t make her Happy. she wouldn’t be so fucking angry all the time if she was happy! but it’s what she’s literally been programmed to believe she wants even though chasing that ambition provides her no joy or relief.

and in sonic heroes, the pressure makes her snap. if she Has to fill the mould she’s forced into, then it’s the outside world saying she’s doing it wrong that’s the problem, because she Has to be perfect, right? metal sonic is the golden child out of all of her “siblings”, and while that means she’s not outright going to be destroyed by her father and faces much less verbal abuse and marginally more affection, it also means she’s forced to uphold the perfect image her father sees her as, else she fail and face the same treatment she’s seen her fellow badniks go through. and that image she’s always tried so, so hard to force herself to fit is that of her father's magnum opus, his masterpiece, a superior version of his enemy. and to be superior to sonic she has to Be sonic and so if everyone says she’s Not they have to be the ones in the wrong and not Her she has to be the real true superior sonic and she has to Prove it.

but the thing is, not only is she forcing herself into performing the perfect role set on her- one that’s specifically masculine- she also reinvents Herself. this is something in heroes a lot of people miss, but neo metal sonic isn’t an upgrade From Eggman to her (and also came After her breakdown, she did it Because she felt she couldn’t Beat Sonic And Therefore Be Him if she stayed the same) her neo form is entirely self designed, and it was done all by her own hands. neo metal sonic is probably the closest we can get to how metal actually wants to present herself to the world, that’s Literally just named to be the New Her, and. ma’am this is a goth girl.

like. not only is she Literally Wearing A Skirt, not only does she Literally Have Eyeliner, she's also designed in such a way it looks like she’s wearing clothes, which feels silly to bring up until you remember sonic anthro characters almost universally only wear clothes if they’re female. and neo metal sonic straight up has hatsune miku sleeves a belt with a flowy skirt and leg warmers but with spikes. like it’s already fem as shit (in a emo edgy fourteen year olds oc way) but like i'm pretty sure by mobian standards this is about as feminine as a murderous robot can reasonably get. and while obviously that doesn’t = gender, metal specifically presenting as feminine in her idealised form she designed herself, while having a meltdown because she’s unable to Be A Specific Boy and is having an identity crisis bc she’s miserable trying to chase that is… like, that’s just a closeted trans girl innit. like this is Very Obviously not the intended read but like… it’s an extremely obvious and resonant one?

metal is, canonically, a scared teenager. as in, she herself says that she was scared Before her transformation. she’s mentally like 15 afraid of failure with an abusive and neglectful father figure suffering from psychotic episodes brought about by golden child burnout. like that’s not how it’s phrased in a 2003 game rated 3 and up but that is like, objectively what’s happening in sonic heroes she’s very open about her motives that’s just canon. which doesn’t make her Trying To Burn A Toddler Alive in any way not absolutely horrible like people forget how excited she was to murder a group that included Multiple small children in it brutally she’s fucked up. but her issues with her identity are more tragic than anything. her being dehumanised and treated only as A Superior Sonic broke her. and when she finally is able to express herself in any way, she's able to present as, well, a very edgy teenage goth girl but in robot form! she’s a fucked up and evil person but she’s also unable to be her true self and she’s scared and frightened and alone. and she’s not incapable of good! she Did sacrifice her life for shadow in rivals 2 like she can care for people she’s not inherently evil she’s a Person just one that steals your IP address. but what Makes her evil is sticking to a path and presentation that makes her evil.

tl;dr: canonically transitioning would have saved her (this was not an intentional story decision they just accidentally made her ideal form goth girl hatsune miku before hatsune miku was even an idea)

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week 13: egg :]

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currently thinking abt Metal Sonic and how headcanoning him as transfem would actually be SUCH a big deal

Metal Sonic, wrapped up in the idea that she is Sonic. The other Sonic is the fake, the one that must be eliminated, because she is him.

And then, realizing, that she’s transfem, everything changes. Through realizing that she’s a girl, she is now forced to see herself as a separate entity. If Metal Sonic is a girl, and Sonic is a guy, then that must mean she isn’t Sonic and Sonic isn’t her.

I like to imagine Amy somehow learning this fact and getting SO excited because she has so many extra dresses that she’s been meaning to give away, and who better to give it to than a gal newly discovering her femininity!

(also kind of OBSESSED with the potential there is with Metamy and just- the most toxic, unhealthy relationship ever) (omg they could be toxic yuri) (that’s for another post tho)

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Silly Intro Post

Hey, you can call me Astrus or Eico! I use they/them pronouns. I’m an adult and a fanfic author + total beginner artist. Been writing fanfic since high school and drawing for the past few months!

This is my silly (mostly Sonic focused) side blog where I post random fandom rambles and also talk about my fics!!

My art will be tagged with #star draws

Anything about my fic will be tagged #star writes

Other rambles will be tagged #star rambles

Main fandoms are Sonic The Hedgehog (I draw the most fanart of this), some MCYT, Epic the Musical, Hollow Knight, and lots of animated cartoons like The Owl House and Steven Universe!

Thanks for reading!!