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The Stars in Your Eyes

Hey, how are you? I just wanted to talk, catch on and to see you.

Long time since we last spoke, friend. I've missed you.

Oh, I am doing fine, it's a little rough, but I will be alright.

I feel a lot tired, but soon I will get up and fight.

Oh, yes, yes, I have met someone. She is beautiful, and I am ugly.

But hey, that's a cosmic rule I guess, or I just know what I am, really.

I remember how I stared at her, she was different, in and out.

She had a lovely face, a strong mind, and a heart you can't live without.

I was awkward, at first, at second, at third and even at forth.

I couldn't handle my heart or my heart couldn't handle us both.

But then I opened slowly, and fallen in along the way.

Before I know it, I realized I had nothing left to say,

Except for the confession, I have had in my heart.

"I love you" I said, "I can't stand us being that apart."

"Your eyes and your face, your mind and your pace, are all just fine divine art."

"And I didn't live before, I have been dead along, and with you, my life shall start." 

She smiled reading my text, and she wrote me back.

"I love you too, and without you, my life is black."

Oh, God.

I have never felt happier, I have never felt this in love.

It was like my heart took a leap of faith, right above.

And we talked and talked, each and every day.

I dreamt about her, and I had many things to say.

I sit with her, and stared into her eyes.

Oh, the beauty, she got the stars in her eyes.

But she was the moon to my night, and the sun to my day.

She was the light of my sky, the sunshine when it was gray.

She wasn't the girl in my dreams, she was the woman of my life.

And she made me get back to poetry, as I ask her to be my wife.

She has a thing for twisted things, you know, she is good with a knife.

But that's what makes her perfect, for this life, and even the afterlife.

But I have been having troubles lately with myself.

And my mind started to feel like an old bookshelf.

Unused, or overused, but never really alive.

I got carried away, dark and left barely to survive.

I got darker and darker, and I dragged her with me.

She never deserves this, to drown in my black sea.

I let her down, and now I miss her so bad.

I miss her eyes man, and it makes me so mad.

Now this poem is for her, really, even if it is written weak.

I miss you, I love you, you are my twisted and I am your freak.

I want to sit with you, and stare into your eyes.

Oh, the beauty, you got the stars in your eyes.

You are the moon to my night, and the sun to my day.

You are the light of my sky, the sunshine when it is gray.

You are the girl of my dreams, and the woman of my life.

See? I got back to poetry now. Will you be my wife?

I think I just wanted to see you and tell you,

I miss you, I want you and I am in love with you.

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You're my calm🌸

And guess who keeps me alive? 🌺

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I love you till the sun dies🌸

That's like what? 4.5-5 billion years only? Well, rest assured, because my love for you is one thing that does not obey time and space, and practically, will last until time itself dies, then last after it. 🌺🌺بحس. 🌺

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أنتَ الحياة🌸😌

إن كنتُ الحياةَ، فماذا تركتْي لنفسكِ أنْ تكون؟ أنتِ أكثرُ من ذلكَ. فأنا مجرّد حياةٍ كانت ميّتة قبل قدومكِ. أنتِ الرّوح لي، أنت الفكرةُ في عقلي، أنتِ الحبُّ في قلبي، ينبضك تارة، ويحبّك تارة أخرى. ببساطة الكلام الّذي يُبقي القلبَ جائعاً، أنت كلّ شيءٍ جميل، كلّ شيءٍ يُحَب، وكل شيءٍ جعل للحياةِ روحاً.وأنا آسف على ضعف لغتي وقصرها في التعبير عن ما بداخلي.

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Uh okay. 29 and 30.

I am so sorry, about this late reply, the numbers were a sort of a hard one, if I can say.. This is an answer for this post, http://human-blogger.tumblr.com/post/150354164671/talk-about

Now, this is interesting, and would take a while.. And before I start with those things, I want you to understand this is about me, which is always different because I am weird, and those turns on and off, are not the usual ones because they either make me admire someone or think of that someone as a potential mate. 

30. Turns Off: I will start with those, which are many, and mainly things from most of the people, which yes, I am turned off by most of the people. I don’t know if I will say them all, so yeah: 1- To be a poser, to dress and do the looks just to pose everywhere, and in fact let me put over make-up too, I mean, why would you put a lot of make up every time you go outside of your house? This is college for example, no need to dress like it is a late night party. Again, everyone has the right to do anything, but this will make me turned off for sure.  2- To seek attention, for example, it is known that girls most of the time, to attract guys, pretend to be girly, much more than she is in real life, which is a turn off by the way. But those girls who do the opposite to be the cool one who does awesome stuff, so everyone would look at her, and say: “Oh my God! she is amazing, and she is not shallow.” Which makes everyone who does that shallow, a big turn off. And it is good to say about this one, that it happens when guys pretend to like romantic bullshit, and pretend to be good hearted for the same reason which is disgusting.  3- This one will be purely on the looks, so bear with me. It turns me off when a girl has a hair color that is lighter (considerably) than her skin. I don’t mind what color she is, honestly. As long as the hair is darker. And naturally, the hair is darker, so yeah, which brings me to the next point,  4- Too much messing with the looks, like your hair is black? no need to go full blonde, or change everything about you, the human body, and the human nature is amazingly beautiful by itself. Again, this is everyone’s choice, it just turns me off.  5- Stupidity. Yup, but not any kind of stupidity, the kind where the persons knows it, and proud of it, because it is cute to be stupid.  6 - To victimize yourself, Oh God! when people always blame everyone about everything. Everyone is in ell, called life, so work on yourself. I won’t go into examples, because that will make me here hated, because everyone on Tumblr is a victim of some sort. But, don’t blame everyone around you, and try to find a solution. And by that I will stop, I won’t get into much more, because I want to keep some followers on this blog. :P 

29. Turns On: Okay, let us start with those, I will try my best to make them as much as I can, 1- Power, I love when a girl has power over herself, this is a huge turn on, because I don’t think of my future wife let us say, to be weak, I will always be there for here, but I want to see her rise as an individual as well, being powerful enough to be alone, yet choosing not to, is a huge think to be admired.  2- Something quirky, is about the looks, I like the geeky look, not a turn on, just something to admire, glasses, geeky looks, like someone who just spend days reading  books with tea and the rain outside which brings me to my next point,  3- Reading, to be there for me means to read. Yes, this is essential, really important. Nowadays, everyone reads, so it is not a problem, so reading with mind and heart, all kinds of books, is amazing on it’s own, so reading reading reading.  4- This is my biggest turn on of all time, is to be mentally and psychologically intelligent. And this is different, because it’s fine to be ignorant as long as you work on yourself to be better. To be aware of feelings, to understand mine, I only found one person with that intelligent, and since that day, I am in love with her.  5- This is the second biggest turn on, and believe it or not, to be deep inside tough, sporty, someone who I can count on as a friend, to play sports with, maybe video games, physically strong, plays sports, think critically, mindset of my male friends sometimes, you know? the opposite of girly.  6- This is my weird one, but if you have it, you got my interest, to have a twisted side. Yes, that’s it, to be twisted, like horror, like bloody things, be creative on those angles, because I know I am, and it interests me when someone can actually be more twisted than me, to make me live in fear or on alert with, to be a lethal human, someone who can be a cold blooded serial killer is a turn on. Not that I support killing people. *wink* *wink* 7- Voices, yes spontaneous funny voices are a huge turn on, I found out I like voice actors the most, those who can have fun with their voices, like the twisted mind of the Joker? you know? so, yeah that kind of silly stuff, quirky voices and face impressions are a huge turn one to me.   8- I will finish them with one of the looks, and a simple one, to wear so little to no make up at all, I admire natural beauty, and girls are all beautiful when you just stare at their faces, so I like it when I can look at  beautiful face and just see the natural beauty within it.    And there you have the major turns on and offs. Hope you enjoy that! :D 

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38Daylight. It reminds me of a friend, we were never really close, but I'd do anything to be. I used to see her everyday. And back then I knew, oneday soon, I'll be gone, and every word in the song gives me goosebumps.😞 It's your turn now, I guess

I am sorry, about those memories you tend to have from such a song. I hope you don't wish those wishes upon other people as well. For my song, it is Airplanes, it reminds me of the dearest person and the most human I ever loved and still love to this day. And it also makes me realize how everyone, is somehow unhappy, and we all wish things were different. And every time I listen to this one, I remember that human, and just look up to the stars, imagine her staring back at them, and wish upon an airplane or a star, that to never lose her.

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They’re never going to really know the pain they caused you and I’m sorry for that.

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Keep in mind that I loved you more than how I’ve loved anyone ever, in my existence. I trusted you with all my life, with every faulty parts of me. I dedicated myself to you, together with all my shattered pieces which you formed again as one.

ar-ci (via wnq-writers)

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There are times when I am convinced I am unfit for any human relationship.

Franz Kafka, Letters To Felice  (via thelovejournals)

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No relationship can truly grow if you go on holding back. If you remain clever and go on safeguarding and protecting yourself, only personalities meet, and the essential centers remain alone. Then only your mask is related, not you. Whenever such a thing happens, there are four persons in the relationship, not two. Two false persons go on meeting, and the two real persons remain worlds apart.

Osho, Intimacy: Trusting Oneself and the Other (via wnq-writers)

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And you tell yourself, it was just too good to be true. They were just too good to be true. It felt better than it should. But deep inside, you always knew, you have always known that fact. And the only false liar, was you, when you lied to yourself, pretended that you were okay with everything just to feel like a decent human being, but you just lied to avoid being the fool, and in the end, you saw a fool in the mirror. And you knew, that it just makes sense. Does it, now, my dear self?

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so if in the soulmate au the very first words your soulmate ever says to you are tattooed somewhere on your body since the day you are born imagine having something like ‘man I cant believe dumbledore died’ tattooed on you. imagine being spoiled for a book series that doesnt even exist yet. imagine worrying about this dumbledore guy your whole childhood while not knowing who he is. imagine knowing dumbledore dies before jk rowling even thinks about it.

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My prayers for the wicked must not be forsaken.

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Some people just don't understand how hard it is.