#emotions

[expressionist-hira]

[thatsbelievable]

[lunaahmed]

i finished episode 6 of shadow and bones season 2 yesterday and while watching inej have the poison induced hallucination, i suddenly got reminded of this particular scene in crooked kingdom and went back to read it.

when this gets adapted to screen (idk if it already been in ep7&8) TRUST ME I’LL LOOSE MY SHUT AND GO ABSOLUTELY FERAL ISTG

[philosophybits]

Such is the nature of the human mind, that it always lays hold on every mind that approaches it; and as it is wonderfully fortified by an unanimity of sentiments, so is it shocked and disturbed by any contrariety.

David Hume, Essays, Moral, Political, and Literary

[chronicallylav3nd3r]

• this user has intense mood swings that are unpredictable and they sincerely apologize to anyone they annoy with their mood swings •

[dcmainlybillythoughts]

Happy birthday! This is the same anon from last night but with something else for you. It's still Shazam related but more angst, as that is my true specialty.

It takes a while and a bit of bargaining, but Billy, with the help of Solomon, comes up with a way to reveal his identity to the Justice Leauge without Actually Doing So. After a meeting, instead of going back down immediately like he usually does, Billy sits down next to a window and stares down at the earth with a sad expression. This is something the other Leaugers have never seen on Cap. Sure they've seen him angry once or twice, they've seen him confused plenty of times, and certainly they have seen him laugh and smile. But never before have they seen him look so sad and unresponsive.

It's Hal who ends up shoved over to see what's wrong with The Captian and takes a seat next to him as he asks in a soft voice, "hey there Cap. You doing OK Big Buddy?" He is taken aback by the look Billy gives him, one of confusion and mourning. Hal is especially taken aback by the question Billy asks him.

"Am I a monster?"

While Hal, and the others who are listening from the door way, are stunned by the question, Hal tries to tell Billy he isn't a monster and asks why he would think that, if something happened. Billy shakes his head and says, "you don't understand. I did something bad. I... it's my duty to watch over the Rock of Eternity as the Warden for all the things that live there. I can't really... leave unless I'm directly summoned because I'm supposed to be good and *stay* there and *guard*. But... the Rock is so lonely and I was there for so, so, so long Hal. You don't, you *can't* understand how long I was there. Trapped with all the prisoners as an in house Warden. Seeing the sun every 20 or 30 years. So I may or may not have fudged a bit of paper work to make Fawkette City part of The Rock. So I could finally, *finally* know what freedom felt like. So I could finally grow. Cause you know. Saftey measure of I can't de power while I'm to close to The Rock or Actively Summoned and when I'm not de powered my true form doesn't age or change at all. I was just... I could stop every attack on the city, I could solve so many problems if I just put it back how it should be and lock myself back in there for another 50 or 60 years. But I just. I can't Hal. I tried and I know people get hurt because of it but I can't force myself to go back there. I'm a *monster*."

Hal tries to calm Cap, distract him by asking about his true form. It takes some calming and convincing but Billy changes back in the middle of the watch tower and oh God. Now there's a small child looking up at Hal with big watery eyes as Billy says, "I just don't want to go back in the dark. But I don't want to be a monster. But I want to age and play. But that gets people hurt. I don't know what to do."

The moment I read the word angst I was already buckled into the car. Also thanks for telling me happy birthday :D

I don't even know what could be added onto this. The idea is fantastic, the amount of emotion Billy could pour into this moment to make everything worth it and make sure he played it just right to where everyone was now there for him in his fight. Truly beautiful anon, I can't think of anything to pour into this

[mcromwell]

"Freeze / Fawn"

A visual representation of what fear feels like physically and emotionally.

[mentalquotes]

[lyralit]

show, don't tell:

anticipation - bouncing legs - darting eyes - breathing deeply - useless / mindless tasks - eyes on the clock - checking and re-checking

frustration - grumbling - heavy footsteps - hot flush - narrowed eyes - pointing fingers - pacing / stomping

sadness - eyes filling up with tears - blinking quickly - hiccuped breaths - face turned away - red / burning cheeks - short sentences with gulps

happiness - smiling / cheeks hurting - animated - chest hurts from laughing - rapid movements - eye contact - quick speaking

boredom - complaining - sighing - grumbling - pacing - leg bouncing - picking at nails

fear - quick heartbeat - shaking / clammy hands - pinching self - tuck away - closing eyes - clenched hands

disappointment - no eye contact - hard swallow - clenched hands - tears, occasionally - mhm-hmm

tiredness - spacing out - eyes closing - nodding head absently - long sighs - no eye contact - grim smile

confidence - prolonged eye contact - appreciates instead of apologizing - active listening - shoulders back - micro reactions

[pondering-the-kaiju]

Something I haven't seen people talking about, is how it's possible to have extremely strong emotions that don't come from any one single event, but come from a bunch of events that on their own, feel trivial.

So you feel like you're in a bad mood for "no reason" because you can't think of any single inciting incident that feels proportionate to the intensity of the feelings you're experiencing, when you're actually feeling the emotional strain of a thousand minor events stacked on top of each other.

Your feelings are valid. You aren't feeling upset for "no reason."

[shubbabang]

[expressionist-hira]

[thatsbelievable]

[morthern]

Check out this visual gem i found in between two episodes of an anime OVA i was watching.

[loveyourlovelysoul]

Accept that you still feel upset about how you were treated, and allow that feeling to pass through you. You don't have to pretend it's not there. You don't have to pretend to forgive the other person if you don't feel so. You can still feel hurt even if years have passed. It's valid, especially if you swept your feelings under the rug back in the days. Find your way to accept the pain, grieve, and let it be in the past where it belongs. Free yourself from these chains. From your fears. From what has been. Life changes. It brings you lessons, but also rewards (and often both are in the form of very different people). Be open to the latter now.

[thepeacefulgarden]