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miniature sun

Dim, warm light is detrimental to the act of concentration. Dimness, the state of a room which is not dark and yet not sufficiently bright, invokes a sense of sleepiness. The colour yellow - my surroundings are awash in a permanent sea; every tide that breaks the shore screams please, just let me go to bed already.

As a functioning college student, this arrangement displeases me greatly. My grades depend on the act of staying awake, UberEats in hand, praying that the McDonald’s on Rye Lane is somehow still open at four in the morning (it is not). Many a time I have looked up at my ceiling, the accursed yellow orb a sorry excuse of a light - as tormenting as the sun from Teletubbies. I wonder endlessly; why would someone choose warm light as the main light source in a dorm room? This argument is undoubtedly a first-world problem to which I do not deny, as I sit comfortably on my bed, eyes growing square from my laptop screen (which might I add, is measures brighter than the rest of my room.)

Bad design exists all around us, but in my case, it exists right on top of my sleeping space. Right next to the wailing, slightly faulty fire alarm reminiscent of the bomb siren back at home - it’s like the unholy matrimony of socks and sandals.

I conducted a study - albeit, a very basic one. The shared kitchen in Loring Hall, Block A, Flat Seven uses blindingly white light, a stark contrast to what I have to live with. I, with my unstyled, fever-stricken body, writing the novel that I will never finish at half past two. The results were clear: a thousand words in the kitchen and fifty YouTube videos in my room.

A friend of mine in a different block - her room is bright and stark white, a cleaner slate than twice-bleached bathroom tiles. I envy her and her conducive environment. Of course, I could work in my own kitchen but it is cold and the slamming doors of my flatmates create a cacophonic catastrophe of sound and ambiance.

The miniature sun which hangs his stupid, infuriating face above mine every day. There is something strangely perverse about it, like a voyeuristic presence constantly illuminating the bare organs of my personal space. I would rather have the disco ball of a retro-synthwave club and its pulsating flashes of light akin to a seizure. I would rather have a sinister, red Chinese lantern hanging from my wall. I do not enjoy the calm and quiet that my own light emanates because its tranquility feels-

-artificial.

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hi hi~ sorry for the ridiculously long period of inactivity--ib is sucking dry all my time and energy. I hope to get back to bujo-ing in november, 2018, so thanks to all for the continuous support and good luck to everyone who needs it! 🌸 🌾mars 🌾

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recent bujo spread ft. fortunes from a shrine and snaps from my trip to the tate ✨ ig: studylustre

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🎉 Happy New Year! • I hope you all have a great 2018 • stay optimistic • be happy • smile more

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I survived my first exam this week and I‘m not sure if it went well or not :D I tried to catch up on sleep the days after and I‘m having trouble to start studying for my next exam. But I‘m trying my best :) I really like how this week‘s spread turned out! I added a drawing of a monstera leaf I created yesterday and I think it looks quite nice :‘)

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21.2.18 // started bullet journalling again after a month and a half into 2018. At the beginning of the year, I didn’t have enough time to maintain a bullet journal, but then I ended up really craving the therapeutic part of designing a bullet journal page, so I got back into it!

The pictures are from Frankie magazine, and the paints are watercolor.

Also just finished The Future of the Mind by Michio Kaku last weekend and also Mad Girl by Bryony Gordon this morning, which are both amazing books that I recommend you check out.

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picture me on an ocean; I picture you in slow motion

ig: @journalmani

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20.2.2018.

my bullet journal for 2018, the book i’ve just read (such a pretty cover!), the fancy candy i get every time i go to eataly and this week’s spread. enjoying the fact the semester’s over and i can relax for two weeks and read a bunch of books.

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[08.28.17] yellow & blue for the first week of august! i really need to start posting my photos on time btw i reached 1k followers a few days ago and i’m so so happy! thank you guys so much for the support and everything! i hope you’re having a great day wherever you are. ✧

spread inspired by @journalsanctuary & @laurie-writes  follow my instagram

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started my 2018 bullet journal 🌿✨

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[ 21. 01. 2018 ]

My bullet journal spread for last week. Not the most productive week 😧

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🌱 some thoughts ☕

year six is taking a really big toll on me: it’s my last year in my school before I move on to university and the year that I finish up the IB diploma programme. I expected it to be difficult, to be hell on earth - and in some ways my expectations are fulfilled, in some ways the workload has exceeded them. it’s only the beginning of february; january was filled with late nights that were so close to the break of dawn they could hardly be considered night - and already my mind is as tired as my body. which is, to say the least, exhausted. but it’s fulfilling to watch as the red of uncompleted assignments turn green with every submission, the ticks off of lists of things to do; watch as my sinful hands finish essay after essay, painting after painting. I am stressed. I am tired. but I know it’s not the end of the world yet, and maybe that’s enough for me. 

don’t give up yet. I will tell myself this at four thirty in morning, caffeine fuelled and shaking with the prospect of unfinished work, don’t give up yet. I didn’t come all this way to sit on the floor and cry. I came to get my diploma and I will leave with it. I came to get my diploma and I will leave with it. 

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feb // week 1

my first ever bujo spread! i wanted to go for a cooler palette, with mostly blues and some green! i also of course wanted to showcase my love of bts! i know it seems that i am entirely un-busy at this point, but uni starts on the 26th (ahhhhhhhh of fear and excitement) and things’ll get hectic then :’)

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blonde is definitely one of the greatest albums in the history of forever 

ig: @chey.barton

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🎉 Happy New Year! • I hope you all have a great 2018 • stay optimistic • be happy • smile more