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my fave writing reminder

honestly, this phrase has been on my mind more times than i can count. i've kidnapped it, taken it as a hostage with no ransom money because i need it to live permanently in my head.

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I have no outline tho, just vibes

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Dean is depressed

JW is depressed

Melinda is anxious and maybe depressed

Melissa is anxious and maybe depressed

Erin is anxious and hides it like a queen

Louise is anxious and hides it like a dog

Jordan and James are probably fine

Who else is a character in my book?

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ever notice how you can be emotionally mature, self-aware, therapized, journaled-up, and still fall face-first into your own humanity?

like you clock the red flag in real time, you name your inner child’s need, you breathe through the trigger—and then still spiral bc someone took too long to text back or you accidentally caught feelings for a walking trauma response

self-awareness doesn’t save you from feelings. it just lets you watch them unfold like, “ah yes. here comes the emotional devastation. completely understood. totally irrational. unstoppable.”

you can be wise and still messy. evolved and still yearning. a tragic little sea slug of consciousness, floating toward the light and bumping into rocks anyway.

and honestly? that’s kind of beautiful.🪼🫧

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Yasmin Benoit at Washington DC 50th anniversary pride

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I'm glad someone drew the thought that I had in my head today.

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Air Himbo

Water Himbo

Earth Himbo

Fire Himbo

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“Until you get comfortable with being alone, you’ll never know if you are choosing someone out of love or loneliness.”

— Mandy Hale

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Today a very friendly Golden Retriever came up to me and I said "hey buddy :D" and the owner asked "do you know each other?" like his dog had a social life he didn't know about

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It’s me. I’m the problem hehe

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JW cried into his tea, wondering why. He rarely drank tea, although it was something his mum had always kept in the house for guests, because there was always a guest who asked for a Scottish blend instead of coffee. Milk with 2 sugars. It was always the way to stimulate conversation and communication and yet it was a soothing beverage. It calmed him.

His mind was racing with thoughts. Pain.

His eyes itching like crazy. Watering. Red.

He looked like a mess, he hadn't showered or shaved in days, but he wore the same black hoodie and baggy jeans as always.

His messy appearance was expected to everyone at school these days anyway.

Whether Melissa was there or not.

He could see no meaning in it all.

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Do Dutch people drink tea? I mean coffee is more likely but I mean it is a very British thing to do and he's lived in Britain for presumably over 10 years.