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Non-Plural Survey

I'm working on a thing for that phrase, "The Future Is Plural," and I wanted some folk's opinions if you'd be willing to share them.

This form is for anyone who does not identify with the term plural.

Feel free to share.

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Plural Survey on "The Future is Plural"

I made a plural version of the Thoughts on The Future is Plural survey. <3

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Heated discussion where this other person tells me that endogenics are inherently malicious because...

Endos weaver themselves into CDD spaces (fictive, factive came from them)

Endos claim to have "alters" that are "differentiated from each other", " have separate memory" which are exclusive CDD experiences (???)

Take aspects from bastardized and whitewashed spiritual practices (referring to tulpamancy) are not endogenic and are not truly plural. 9 times out of 10 they are culturally appropriating

Guh.

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Okay so I finally got some context and realised they meant systems (the CDD kind specifically) can't have introjects at the point of formation / when the parts fail to integrate. Well, my concerns are now cleared.

Is it really impossible to have a system with only introjects? I heard this from someone and have asked others but I haven't drawn a conclusion.

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Okay so I finally got some context and realised they meant systems (the CDD kind specifically) can't have introjects at the point of formation / when the parts fail to integrate. Well, my concerns are now cleared.

Is it really impossible to have a system with only introjects? I heard this from someone and have asked others but I haven't drawn a conclusion.

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I played badminton with my mother at the park after taking a nice walk. We tried playing with our left arms buut it didn't go as planned. But it was fun!!

What has been your positivity today?

In times like these, with incredibly hateful people spreading lies and discontent everywhere they can, it is so incredibly vital to recall the joy.

Do not let the hateful people win. Their threats are largely meaningless; their screaming is simply for attention. I know how badly it hurts, trust me, but it's so important to take care of yourself.

What has been your positivity today?? What is your joy?

Today, I made sure to treat myself to a nice drink, and I skipped out on work to go for a half hour walk outside in the fresh air. Carve out your joy from the world.

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Yeah! We're very, very introject heavy and practically everyone has some introject material. Some may call themself an introject or not for whatever reason but we're primarily made up of introjects.

I got really confused because in my experience and also in the context of CDDs (how I perceive CDDs at least), introjects are parts that simply took on a source to use as a sort of mold or reference for what kind of alter will form / is needed. It was like just as you said with the "original sysmate" example.

Is it really impossible to have a system with only introjects? I heard this from someone and have asked others but I haven't drawn a conclusion.

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I'm really confused about it.

What they essentially explained is that when the parts of the brain of a kid failed to integrate, they have "organic" parts. So I guess, the foundation of the system..? And that alters are formed from those "organic" parts, or unintegrated personality.

Which got me even more confused because, yeah! All alters, including introjects, use those parts as a foundation for alter formation. Introjects are just those organic parts that saw this character and used it as a sort of mold for the alter.

I asked for a study or source and wasn't provided with any too.

Is it really impossible to have a system with only introjects? I heard this from someone and have asked others but I haven't drawn a conclusion.

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Is it really impossible to have a system with only introjects? I heard this from someone and have asked others but I haven't drawn a conclusion.

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I wanna do the toxic fictive culture thing and go "Hey everyone, guess what honkai star rail character we're gonna split cause we're going to split someone!"

But like all of our system friends know jack shit about honkai star rail

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I think this blog is blocked by fewer people that have heard the rumors and lies going around. I hope you'll read this. There are three sides to every story-- yours, theirs, and the truth.

I deserve to get my side out there so people can make informed decisions about who to follow or block, or whatever it is you need to do. It's okay not to support me, but do it for the right reasons.

I also run sysmedsaresexist, and I'm currently being accused of harassing a minor and sending random ass asks left, right and center.

Listen, if you got an ask where the person didn't say, "this is SAS," it's not from me. I HATE asks. On the rare occasion that I send them, I always tell people who I am. I am well aware that I'm a controversial figure. I want people to know who they're interacting with when I talk to them. I am old. It's important that I'm honest with the people I interact with. A lot of people really stepped up to support me, but I would like people to stop. Unfortunately, it's doing more harm than good.

With every one of these messages people send in support of me, the rumors get worse.

I want to defend myself, but I don't know how.

Send a vent to a vent blog that just actively lied about me? They won't post it. (They didn't, I just checked)

So I'll post it myself. You can make your own decision. All posts I've made on the topic are linked here (it's 5, compared to the DOZENS AEV has posted)

This will be my last post on the topic, and I hope that the people spreading these rumors will leave me alone. You've done more damage and harm to me than you know, and without any remorse or apology.

Ask sent to @anti-endo-haven :

I'm SAS and I'm so hurt.

I have not sent ANY anons to AEV, at all, at any point. I have not ASKED anyone to help me in this,

I made 5 posts. They have made about 50 at this point, all cruel.

The first was to AEV on their first post, which was NOT as rude as people say. I said, look webmd and mayo clinic isn't going to hold up to some of the articles that endos are throwing at us. Try some of these. I said, look, you're going to get really tired of hearing the same endo arguments. Here's some points you can throw back at them.

NOT TO MENTION THE MISINFORMATION IN THE POST. Dissociation is only trauma based? Incorrect. Maybe you should reconsider whether you're ready to be in these conversations.

That response was hidden.

The second post, I was correcting an endo that DID wasn't a trauma disorder. I tagged AEV and said, "see, you can be nice about corrections, and these are the kind of sources you should use."

I was blocked.

THIS IS WHEN I CHANGED LABELS. I was so disappointed in the community that I said fuck that, that's not what I want to be, I don't support this behavior. That's another person that AEV turned pro endo. Good job.

Then I saw the anon saying I was an endo. I used my other blog to POLITELY say, "This isn't true, please stop posting about me like this." This post is still on JAS, I didn't delete it like people are claiming

The fourth post was me making my own public post saying, "this child is throwing a tantrum over corrections. Now l'm pissed and I have to make my own public post so people don't believe those lies." This was the first rude post. I called AEV a blemish, and here's why.

I just made a MASSIVE post about dissociation that is actively being spread within the endo community now. All because I changed my label. I don't care if you all want to block me, but don't pretend that you're all doing anything to help by making bad resources for an audience that already believes the same stuff (all these new antis). Now all the new ones are spreading the same bad sources that don't hold up, and we all (yes, you, me, them, the next CDD system in line) look bad for it.

AEV couldn't provide a single source that said DID WAS trauma based, only "usually" trauma based. AEV actually made antis TURN PRO ENDO, because they used so many sources that said "usually". I offered him sources that said it WAS trauma based.

I'm not kidding, you can find the people that changed sides on sophieinwonderland's blog. This is what happened. I don't need to be polite as pie to people inadvertently harming the CDD community, but I certainly wasn't rude about it

My final post, the fifth post, on the subject was the sad one. "My main was leaked." There are people that stalk my blogs. They send me threats and long asks about the things they'd do to me if they found me. When sophie first came to tumblr, I'd get asks about what people wanted ghost to do to me. In the past, every time a new doxxer comes out of their gross hole, I start getting doxxing threats. l've had people get close to my area.

My main being released means those people are one step closer to actually finding me. It means I'm now getting these kinds of messages in my only safe space.

And the anon who sent my main admitted it was done maliciously. We had a falling out like two years ago, because their asks were getting creepy. When I APOLOGIZED TO THEM for ever hurting them because of my own avoidance issues, and told them that on this post, their response was, "well I enjoyed sending them so fuck you." If I ever find that post deleted, I've got a screenshot. You were NOT a minor at the time, you're an adult.

... Nice, really mature. You're definitely safe for minors.

Hey, also, minors, if an adult you just met online calls you "my kiddo", don't respond with an ovo face. Run.

Adults, if you call a minor your kiddo and they're like, owo really, I'm your kiddo? Fucking run.

Anyways.

I haven't said anything since. What can say. My main is out and I'm getting threats on it. Currently. Not "in the future," like the person said. It's happening NOW.

What do all you people want from me? I AM trying to leave you all alone. Stop saying such terrible things about me, godDAMN. I am not harassing minors. I don't want to harass anyone.

WHAT DID I ACTUALLY DO WRONG? I don't understand.

You're not the good guys you think you all are.

Not anymore.

I don't know that you ever were.

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hey guys. i absolutely hate doing this but i need your help.

https://gofund.me/d0461899

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Something about a person labelling facets of themself because there's a slight disconnect (for whatever reason) and they feel that it's useful to do so. They should also be allowed to say "I feel like I am multiple facets of myself. I am multiple facets of myself. These parts of me also have names." and freely choose whether to use plural or not.

Something about identity being diverse and having a plural lens towards yourself shouldn't be discouraged.

Something about some person may feel they're made up of multiple facets of themself yet identify as the whole of those facets, in a not CDD way.

Something about how plural is defined doesn't really help in categorising what isn't plural because of how flexible the identity is.

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There's been a lot of harmful invalidation and misinformation floating around trauma spaces lately about the cause of complex dissociative disorders like DID. Please, let's put to rest the trauma olympics and claiming that certain childhood traumas are more "valid" than others. The childhood trauma that causes someone's DID does not need to be sexual or physical abuse, or even abuse at all.

From Understanding and Treating Dissociative Identity Disorder: A Relational Approach, by Elizabeth Howell (pages xvii - xviii):

"DID is usually the outcome of chronic and severe childhood trauma, which can include physical and sexual abuse, extreme and recurrent terror, repeated medical trauma, and extreme neglect. Pathological dissociation generally results from being psychically overwhelmed by trauma. . . . However, the traumatic experiences that may result in dissociative disorders do not always stem from sexual, physical, or emotional abuse. Disorganized attachment which often underlies the dissociative structure of dissociative disorders . . . may result from overwhelming experiences in the infant's interpersonal environment that are not caused by parental maltreatment. Parental illness, depression, or problematic attachment styles may be psychically overwhelming and lead to disorganized attachment. In addition, medical trauma may be dissociogenic. For example, some dissociative patients have reported histories of chronic medical problems and hospitalizations that involved severe pain and unavoidable separations from well-meaning parents. Medical trauma may involve both the chronic and severe pain of certain diseases and conditions as well as painful procedures intended to remediate these medical conditions. Some dissociative adult patients have reported the trauma of being left alone to suffer their pain as children in the hospital. Such children may be additionally confused by the fact that their parents are either hurting them, as part of necessary medical interventions or allowing others to hurt them . . ."

You can find a free download of this book and others [here]. I highly recommend reading it, it's one of my favorite books on DID. If you're able to, please consider purchasing a copy of it to support the author too!

Anyways, if you're reading this and you've been harmed by the recent influx of trauma invalidation, please know that I'm here for you. I believe you. Your trauma is REAL and it was ENOUGH to cause your disorder. You were a child and no child deserves to go through trauma. No one.

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Making my heart calmer by imagining syscourse tags as lunch period and right now there's hostility between the big kids table and the new kids table.

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Off in the distance... I hear the cry for aid. A cry for justice for the misinformed, a cry for justice for the harassed...

I answer.