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she killed this little textile moment frankly i'm so sick of that horrible family never supporting or encouraging her

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Life is all about being really scared and wasting your youth

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"Recorded in the late 70's in her home on a reel to reel recording device, the songs on "Colour Green" are intimate portraits of life's sad and fragile beauty. It is a gem of an album that will blow your mind."

orangetwin.com

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I will tune into the traitors season 3 just to see Boston Rob wallop Tom Sandoval into oblivion. Reality tv Super Bowl

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There’s some figures in this world that I feel we just aren’t meant to know about after a certain age. Post-25 my brain experienced self induced amnesia to erase any trace of Caroline Calloway

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people r always saying “get therapy” 2 ppl who have actually had too much therapy and need to do two years of a brutal physical labor job instead Genuinely no more therapy-speak and obsessing over the supposed intricacies of your average mind for you get your ass on the Alaskan salmon fishing boat

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Kierkegaard

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“Positively 4th Street” Bob Dylan 

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For God So Loved This Dope World

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Shiki-Jitsu (2000) dir. Hideaki Anno

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it was never gonna work out but i experienced all these seemingly profound unreplicable moments that were romantic and moving and made me feel alive and still none of it actually means anything in the long run. but thats okay. sometimes a beautiful moment is just that. a moment. and you have to leave it alone and just be grateful that it happened. woooow

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Eros—carnal desire—is an embodied experience, and our phones do a terrific job of getting us out of our bodies and into our heads. In the digital age, we often neglect our bodies entirely, and use them merely as a way to transport our heads to meetings. (The rise of rave culture and physical fitness programs since the 1990s is perhaps evidence that we feel the need to fight against this.) No one feels connected, present, alive, embodied, or sexy when they’re on their phone all day.

And our phones don’t just move us out of our bodies, but they have become something of a second brain, a second body. You don’t have to remember something if you can record it, photograph it, or type it into your notes app. You don’t have to look good in person if you look good on Instagram. Our phones not only hollow out our true selves, but are starting to replace us.

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i’ve been wanting to tell you that complex PTSD and a crisis of faith have so much in common. they’re both about losing trust in the world in the wake of unbearable loss. grief tears us away from our faith, but it’s grief that brings us back as well. because in our deepest grief we have nowhere else to go.

Falling Back in Love with Being Human: Letters to Lost Souls by Kai Cheng Thom

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The plus side is that attempting to make a radical life change overnight revealed to me that most people are extremely kind and generous and willing to help. Which has also saved my life (psychically)