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DAY 2 1/23/18

I have no idea where to even start on today illl just describe it in one word PATHETIC.... let me just catch you guys up on my last 15 years of life..lol I’m kidding I’ll just catch you up on today... sooo me and my boyfriend are currently on a break I don’t even know if I should still consider us dating I have no idea what’s going on but I’m debating on what I should call him, I don’t really wanna use real names soo I’ll call him potatoe because he reminds me of one ...anyways we’re on a break because I called It and what makes absolutely no sense is how empty inside I’m feeling I crave the attention I crave the feeling I crave the knowledge of knowing someone wants me and being reminded every day of It... and What makes matters worse is I’m at school luckily I have zero classes with him *thank the lord * anyways as I was saying I’m at school and I have people telling me he’s been crying in class and it just hurts me so much to know I could make a person feel so bad and worthless because I’ve been there done that and I would never want to make anyone feel like that ....our relationship entoxicates me and as much as I want to end It i never find the guts to because I know as soon as I try either one of us will start sobbing because I’m just so sensitive ...so moral of the story it’s pathetic to date someone who you don’t want anymore but are just afraid of hurting the person so you stay in the relationship to make the other person happy while your just suffering and feeling worthless like theirs no way out ... piece of advice if this ever happens to you end it i know it’s hard ...shit I still haven’t taken my own advice that’s how hard It gets but It won’t do any of you any food meanwhile you have lost feelings or just aren’t feeling the relationship your lying to the other person and making them feel like your still as into them when your really not therefor your wasting eachothers time :/ but basically my day was just pathetic because I feel depressed for no reason and writing It all out felt sooo good just like I overcomed the feeling even though deep down it’s still there ...I’m debating if I should use hashtags but I don’t wanna clickbait people into this boring ass blog ...I think I might just call It a diary since that’s basically what It is but since it’s tumblr I’ll keep the word blog .....anyways today’s rant is over with have a beautiful day :)

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Day 1 1/22/18

Sooo we’re doing this now I speak to my self as I am currently laying in bed, it’s safe to say I’ll be finished with this post in about 10 minutes making that be 10:30 ...jeez past my bed time . Just kidding I’m too old for a bed time seeing as I’m 15 years old bed times seem kinda over rated although I do like my sleep I don’t believe in setting a rule for sleeping . So I guess this is my new thing now starting a blog on tumblr that no one will ever see.. at least that’s the good part,this is like my own little diary just out in public for others to read which come on now we all know the only ones reading this are gonna be me and the little voice inside my head I hear right now reading this out loud . But yea life sucks and I can’t wait to just write all about It :/ if you didn’t catch that i was being sarcastic ... i do that a lot as well as this ... welp it’s 10:24 and my eyes are slowly shutting as I type so call me a liar for saying I’d type for 10 minutes straight I could only handle 4 1/2. Oh yea I also have no wifi soo I’ll be writing this on my phone. Good night :)