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Not me forgetting I have this app…

Anyways

Life update. Have a boyfriend now, been dating for just over a month ✨. Love him to death already but I fell waaaaay before he asked me to be his girlfriend.

The world is in fucking chaos. I live in a border city and I’m always panicking that my friends and family are gonna get taken because we’re Hispanic. It’s terrifying. I’m so scared everyone is going to get taken from me. And I won’t be able to save them. Fuck this president. Fuck the system. Just. Fuck all of it. Damn them all to fucking hell.

Family life I good. There are struggles but that’s all families. I still love mine but it might be time to start thinking about leaving the nest.

My friends have been amazing. Have been going out a lot. It’s a free type of feeling even though I still have a curfew X3

At least when I’m able to get a job. Job hunt has been brutal…

Anyway. That’s all for now

Stay safe out there

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The world is so.. fucked up. So broken. It’s hard to believe half of the things going on around me. I am a latina born baby, born to a Hispanic mother and a German father. And that’s. Scary. I could watch someone I love get taken away and I couldn’t do anything. My mom. my boyfriend. My friends. I live in a heavily Hispanic city. And we are proud but terrified.

People make jokes. Try to play it down. But it’s real. It’s happening. It anybody seen as different and it’s terrifying. And no one’s coming to save us this time. We have to do something.

But I’m just a 19 year old with a small voice. Like so many others around me.

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Ok. Im alive-

I’ve been sick for the past few days.

So. I live in Texas. But what the fuck is going on in LA?? It’s fucking scary. Anything I’ve seen has mainly been from TikTok live streams or instagram and it’s just insane. Of corse we saw something like this coming but. Fuck

The republicans got what they voted for.. let see how this is gonna go.

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I’ve been rewatching Gumball because of the new season coming out and I honestly forgot how much I enjoyed watching it.

Comfort shows are called that for a reason. It’s just mindless fun.

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Why do people insist on acting like nothing ever happened. Acting completely normal when nothing is ok.

I can’t do it. I can’t act “normal” anymore. I’m fucking hurting and it seems like no one fucking cares. It fucking sucks.

I don’t wanna smile and pretend nothing happened.

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Relationships are so fucking messy

How the fuck are you supposed to know when you should fight for a friendship, a relationship. Or when you should just. Drop them to save your own mental health? That line is so thin it’s almost invisible at some point. Especially when you’ve known someone for so long. And you know you love them. But you feel you’re just. Never enough for them anymore.

I think I’m about to lose one of the most important relationships in my life but I’m so tired. Of the fighting with myself. Trying to make time for everyone and everything when I can’t even make time for myself anymore. I have been making time for myself and that ended up just hurting this friendship. This relationship that I’ve held close to my heart for almost seven years now. It hurts.

I want to just run to them again. To forgive everything. To believe I’ve always been enough but it isn’t that fucking easy.

I can’t talk to anyone really. So thought a quick rant would help before I go out for the day.

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Have an interview today :D

I’m nervous but also not? It’s weird. I feel the pressure of getting a job and everything but the places closed to me are pretty cool places. And I live close so it’s not a huge stress. I know I’m lucky to have it that way.

Anyone have any good tips? I would still love any advice.

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I am alive-

I just woke up, slept for like 12 hours. I have no clue why but it’s way to easy to over sleep then I can’t sleep for like. A week. It sucks-

Luckily, I’m on break, and don’t have to worry about much. Other than getting a job soon.

Not doing much today. Have nothing to rant about yet.

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Alright. It’s fucking late-

I got distracted with life as usual. Anyway. Mission Impossible Movie. 10/10 :D.

I really liked it! I won’t talk about it to much. Mainly because my brain is already dead for the night. But I loved it!! It was fun, even gave me a bit of anxiety. I think they did well with it.

I might talk about it more in the morning. Night!

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Going to see the Mission Impossible movie today. Pretty excited about it, I really love action movies. :D

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Late Night Rant

So it’s 11:18 as I’m writing this. What the hell is happening with the damn heat. I live in Texas (second hell on earth next to Arizona-) and I can’t do this man. It’s always so fucking hot. And I can’t sleep in the heat. I live in a refrigerated house hold and I STILL can’t ever cool down. It sucks. I miss winter. But I can’t handle the damn cold either. Just a rant.

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Alright so, the live action Lilo and Stitch

(slight spoilers)

I’ve seen so much negativity directed at the damn thing. I personally really liked it, thought it was cute. Even cried slightly when stitch was drowning. It’s not like, my top ten movies to watch but I enjoyed it. You know?

All the hate I’ve seen is about it not being EXACTLY like the original movie. Like most of the live actions that have come out. Non of them are carbon copies of their animated predecessors. And that is Perfectly fine. In my opinion. There definitely were parts of the original movie I missed (mainly Pleakley cross dressing-). But if you actually watch the movie instead of waiting for something to compare it to. It has a different message that the original movie.

Now to try to have people at least see my side. No one has to agree. These movies were made thirteen years apart. The first Lilo and Stitch came out in 2002! While this one came out in 2025. Thirteen years people! Of corse the movies are gonna be different, especially when they’re based in the years they actually came out.

Jumba being the main antagonist was a bit of a shock to me yeah, and yes I miss uncle Jumba. He would never want Lilo to get hurt. But this isn’t THAT Jumba. They are two different characters in this movie.

And Nani “giving up” Lilo in this. Isn’t actually her giving her up. That’s what I loved about this movie. Showing people there are ways that you can do it all with a support system. Nani was able to follow her dreams and still have a close relationship with her sister where Lilo could actually be provided for and taken care of properly! They were both better off in the end of this movie because it has a different meaning! Ohana is family! And that means no one gets left behind. INCLUDING YOURSELF!! Family is everything to many people and there have been so many situations exactly like Nani’s where an older siblings had to choose what was best for them and their sibling. You watch out for you family and yourself. And I thought that was a beautiful message!!

TLDR - Watch movies as their own entity. Just enjoy a movie, that’s what they’re there for! To be enjoyed!

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Heya! I’m Ava and this is The Duck Notes. So I made this page to honestly. Just talk about my opinions, thoughts, and feeling on any and all topics. So if you wanna read about what a nineteen year old times about the world she lives in. Follow ✨